The Full Moon Firebird

A Full Moon conjunct your Venus can be strange magic. That went quadruply for the Full Moon in Taurus a few days ago as it was also Mercury Retro. It was omen central for so many of us, as this tale attests.

Hey Mystic!

I’m going to write about a wild thing that happened. My relationship with a young Libra man is likely ending. We’ve been together for two years but he’s been pulling away and going dark for months. A lot is his own stuff but some of it is in response to my job, the size and scope of my life in comparison to his. (every man takes issue with it eventually).

This has been hurting me in so many soft spots all over my whole lifetime of relationship karma, and though I’m certain it’s for the best, I’m deeply hurting. It’s been very hard to even perform for the crying I do every day. Mercury in Scorpio has not helped: everything cuts deep. I have no shallows left. 

So then came the Taurus Full Moon – exactly on my Venus. Secretly I wanted it to mean the return of the romance between us, instincts say otherwise.  So I’m on a brief break from tour, staying in a rural part of Tennessee. It’s cold outside but I was so gripped with sadness I had to do something. I bundled up and walked into a field under the bright moon. There, freezing I sat in prayer and meditation, playing all the big loves I’ve ever had in my life, each face, each man, all the way back to the first, across my memory like a slideshow. I thanked, forgave, wished well and released each person, every face. I guess you could call it a combined gratitude/ loving-kindness meditation.

As I went back in time, I began to feel lighter, giddy even. A smile crept across my face and I realized I was gently rocking back and forth. With the last blue-eyed/dark-haired man thanked and forgiven, (I have a type) wished well and let go, I giggled, my eyes popped open and I sighed “YES” up to the Moon.

At that exact moment, and about a hundred yards away, a wild chorus of coyotes erupted into an ecstatic song. They sang and sang while I laughed and wept. I even tried to howl but could barely make a sound. My friend came out of the house at the racket worried for my safety. Or maybe my sanity? He found me pink-cheeked and crazy laughing.

That night I dreamed I was standing in an unfinished recording studio. I looked up through the holes in the roof, and saw a bright sparkling firebird flying, soaring slowly from right to left across the night sky. I’m still heartbroken and hurting about my love feeling like it’s over, but all of this is a good sign, isn’t it?

Or did I accidentally sell my soul or something?

The Galactic Tourist

When The Full Moon is Conjunct Your Venus And You’re Howling With Coyotes

Sell your soul? No way. It sounds more like you’re negotiating to get it back. I think the Coyotes are an omen of wildness and Trickster Vibe. Have you lost some of your edge trying to reel this man back in? Or minimizing, as you say, the scope of your life?

When it is a Full Moon conjunct your Venus and you’re outside, ignoring the cold to howl along with Coyotes, it’s an omen. It’s time to reclaim what Clarissa Pinkola Estes (Women Who Run With The Wolves) calls the ‘wildish nature.’ A spontaneous montage of all the men you’ve loved before, complete with emotional release, is ultra apt for Mercury Retrograde in Scorpio.

It could also be a subliminal preparation for an impending relationship split. Everyone who has ever been at this stage knows it: that moment where you mentally recategorize the person from “us” into “them.” And then of course you resist and start frantically coming up with ways to keep the whole thing going. But energetically, something shifted.

As for the Firebird and unfinished studio – it’s promising artistic metamorphosis. Venusian energy is not just romance or even beauty. It’s art, performance and emotionally resonating with an audience. Also, the Full Moon was conjunct Vesta, the creative flame. A Firebird is a Phoenix; you know what they do. I dreamt of one at the end of a relationship that I was trying not to admit was done. In the dream, the Firebird/Phoenix was in front of us, dazzling and obviously magic. My soon-to-be-ex said he couldn’t see it and I knew he was lying.

So, said the Phoenix, I’ll give you flying gifts and then he will see you. In the dream, I became fabulously able to fly and was swooping around the place. I was like ‘wow, my god, I am flying! Are you aware of how impossible this is?’ And he shrugged.

Dreams are magic and the Firebird following on from your wilding moment is ultra significant. Why not get back into the studio and do the album about this theme? Coyotes, Venus in Taurus, the Firebird and your theme of “every man” having a problem with you at your most optimal.

What does everyone else think?

Image: Leonor Fini – The Guardian Of The Phoenix

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sphinx
sphinx
November 19, 2019 7:05 pm

“I have no shallows left”. Ouch..I think this is how my diabetic child feels some days when it seems he’s run out of skin on his slender body that isn’t punctured with needle holes. Feels like the horse of change is riding through, instead of turning away from it I think you grabbed the saddle running and the bird is showing you the way. Transformation. Good luck! All I felt on that Taurus Moon was simmering anger & frustration.

Aqua-cap-Gemini
Aqua-cap-Gemini
November 19, 2019 5:02 pm

These ‘coincidences’ aren’t random. There’s some magic thing between animals and humans, especially when humans are being completely honest and bare, talking/listening to our all knowing higher self. I’ve had a number of these strange synchronicities over the years, the last one was with a dragonfly (my totem) I wrote a short thing about it and called it “the book of three” as that was the 3rd ‘warning’ or the Omen as I called it. The Dragonfy was buzzing around the kitchen when I was living at my ex’s place. It was flying around, banging on the ceiling attracted to… Read more »

Wish Upon a Star
Wish Upon a Star
November 19, 2019 3:55 pm

Off topic.

Just watching “The Big Short”.

Brilliant movie.

Wish Upon a Star
Wish Upon a Star
November 20, 2019 1:23 pm

Just found out a major bank is Australia has been caught allowing money laundering from money gained from overseas sex trade.

I knew there was an ominous feeling when I watched that movie yesterday.

History Repeating. When will they learn?

socialgraffiti
socialgraffiti
November 19, 2019 5:24 am

When will this wretched retrograde end

oonabliss
oonabliss
November 19, 2019 2:57 am

Magic interpretation Mystic. And yes to the art inflamed by the dreaming and the wilding. I’d love to hear those songs.

Wish Upon a Star
Wish Upon a Star
November 17, 2019 1:34 pm

This is the 2nd night in a row I dreamt of Donald Trump. Last night I dreamt that I worked in an office with him. He was a head honcho from overseas brought in to build up our company. He came back from a big meeting. I could tell that it did not go well and he was deflated.

When a work mate asked “But how do you know?” I stated that we were both Geminis and a Gemini can read another Geminis mind.

South
South
November 17, 2019 1:27 pm

Dear Galactic,
Considered yourself ephipanied!
Epiphanies are meant to discombobulate…
At least, thank Goddess, you didn’t brush yourself off and continue as if nothing happened (most people ask, but when IT happens, it’s scary)
You KNEW you had an experience, a piece of your own personal mythology
You wondered about your soul because once you had your experience, your soul resettled itself inside of you, and it merged with the new you…
It’s disconcerting of course, but it’s an experience you will never forget and can call upon the ecstasy (of gnosis) whenever you wish now x

Lux Interior Is My Co-Pilot
Lux Interior Is My Co-Pilot
November 17, 2019 9:32 am

omg omg. You have the power!

Alex
Alex
November 17, 2019 9:23 am

Wow! What an amazing and incredibly moving experience!

bosslady
bosslady
November 17, 2019 12:12 am

On the Taurus full moon I was in a crowded (sober) dance hall with about 150 other people just dancing our hearts out. At the end, we all meditated and were invited to let out “any sound” that felt like it needed to be expressed. Some people laughed, then someone screamed, then more random noises. Near the end, someone howled. Then we all started howling. It was beautiful.

kriblack
kriblack
November 16, 2019 3:11 pm

What a wonderful story, beautifully told and thoughtfully responded to. Thanks for sharing Galactic!

Wish Upon a Star
Wish Upon a Star
November 16, 2019 1:15 pm

Dear Galactic Tourist,

It is definitely a good sign.

One day you will fly.

x.

Wish Upon a Star
Wish Upon a Star
November 16, 2019 1:06 pm

Wow. The full moon was conjunct Vesta? My Vesta is in Scorpio and the full moon was on my natal Taurus Moon conjunct my Taurus North Node. After a month of exhaustion. On one day my face went dark and I thought I would never get my energy back. Then came deep sleep and healing. A few days after the full moon I was laughing in my sleep and felt like I got a jump start ti a new life. Feels like a clean slate to write a new life. Just did my oracle and it said: And Still I… Read more »

emg
emg
November 16, 2019 5:37 am

I’d say your soul is full to overflowing. And if you can let go of this one with love. Each one of my men has been a classroom for me to experience me more profoundly. Give thanks then let this morph into a creative muse for your career.

Wayfinder
Wayfinder
November 16, 2019 5:17 am

Wow, I am going through something very similar. I’ve been dating a guy for 8 months. We’ve had a magnetic attraction that at times is almost spooky. It was hot and intense and deep…and then he freaked out and needed space. He’s pushed me away, but at the same time doesn’t want to let me go. When I do let go, here he comes right back. I feel like I’m being put on hold. I’ve tried to be compassionate and understanding of his need for space, but also hoping for some kind of turn around. This Taurus Full moon was… Read more »

Hel
Hel
November 16, 2019 4:44 am

What a beautiful story. Letting in, and together with nature feels so naked and personal, yet we all do it, and she allways helps. The feeling of giggeling after letting go. The coyotes singing with you. Different from where i am yet the same. All the best in the time to come.

Syrena
Syrena
November 16, 2019 4:22 am

I feel the “selling your soul” question- when you’re in the presence of such a wild and magical moment, there’s the impulse to dial it back and retain your dignity. There’s the impulse to narrow the scope of your life. Don’t. This is such a beautiful story. My full moon was that “us” to “them” moment, not a romantic relationship but a whole group of friends. It takes courage to admit it’s time to leave. I am happy for you, and I hope you follow this wild and strange feeling to a place where you don’t have to make yourself… Read more »

LibraLilith
LibraLilith
November 16, 2019 3:09 am

I love that idea – I’m in a weird place relationship wise and also recognise the ‘size and scope’ of life thing. Perhaps I’ll go a journeying…haven’t done that for a long time.

SheRat
SheRat
November 16, 2019 2:38 am

Pretty stellar idea, Mystic! The full moon was pretty crazy. Lots of Conjunctocalypse stuff. I only expect it to get worse.

We enjoy swimming in mud, though, don’t we?

Rita
Rita
November 16, 2019 12:27 am

What stood up the most for me was the question about selling the soul! What? Where did that came from?? For that question to arise in such a beautiful moment is because, I agree with Mystic, you were probably getting it back! Amazing story, I have a similar one in a alone new year’s Eve some years ago with owls instead of coyotes and it was a turning ppint in my life. Magic is indeed inside us. Alone time is essential for that. I’ve been sick throughout this full moon and now I wish I had had a similar experience… Read more »

Triple Air Gem
Triple Air Gem
November 15, 2019 11:08 pm

I love this. Crying your heart out to magic, nature and fire. Always coming back to yourself is the best thing you can do x

davidl
davidl
November 15, 2019 11:07 pm

I had Venus conjunct the full moon on Wednesday. From the moment I woke I felt the first drip of Venusian nectar welling up in the back of my head. It rolled down the back of my neck and I felt like my middle pillar points crown , throat, solar plexus were small water holes, filling up then spilling down to the next.,I wasn’t expecting it but bliss was coming on. I wasn’t letting it fully take over just yet, I had things to do. Breakfast tasted special.,I made coffee and as I downed one shot I put milk in… Read more »

Hel
Hel
November 16, 2019 4:39 am
Reply to  davidl

Thank you! Your writing reminds me of states. Beautiful states are remembered in your words <3

kriblack
kriblack
November 16, 2019 3:17 pm
Reply to  davidl

You paint the lovliest pictures with words davidl.

davidl
davidl
November 18, 2019 11:48 pm
Reply to  kriblack

Thank you x

emg
emg
November 17, 2019 10:16 am
Reply to  davidl

I could seriously do with a big shot of Venus. Always the most benefic planet for me. Just lovely stuff arrives with her neutrinos. Loved reading this david.

Jacqui
Jacqui
November 15, 2019 10:00 pm

So poetic. I have been dreaming profound rich messages, hints of memories but smiling at the lessons some part of me needed. Full moon on my Sun/North node. XxXx

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