Neptune in Capricorn Rising here – the past day or so I’ve suddenly felt all my typical Saturnine heaviness lift off into outer space and I’m curious if this is due to Chiron into Aries, Sun moving into Pisces, Mercury in Pisces, or the copious amount of CBD oil I’ve swallowed over the past twenty-four hours?
I’m curious about your thoughts on the CBD for my astro. Even before astrology, I had this innate sense that ANY substance and I did not mix. I have an almost laughably Neptunian-with-a-side-of-Saturn-suck health history – born with rare skull deformity that required major operation at six months old (eerie to discover Saturn rules bones), celiac, milk allergy, tomato allergy, legume allergy, autoimmune stomach issues, antibiotic allergy, beet allergy… I’m probably forgetting some of my allergies… “serious mental illness,” psych ward, always the person who experienced the “rare side effects” from the psych meds…
I’m actually alive and thriving, off all drugs, thanks to functional medicine/OWNING the Pluto in the 12th transit but I have to live the most Saturnian regimented existence to even be alive. My sleep schedule is a deity I worship.
Safe to say with my oh-so-perceptive body that instantly and violently rejects anything that isn’t the purest-of-the-pure, I do not drink alcohol – have never been drunk actually – and have never considered going near illicit drugs. But yesterday I was having a terrible period and stole some CBD oil from my mom’s medicine cabinet. I have taken it in teeny tiny doses before for such pain and not experienced any adverse reactions. I took a whole dropper this time, though. Immediately got rid of the pain. In like two minutes.
For some reason, I kept taking it. And today I took more. Put it in my coffee, tea, water. I’m running out of it. But it’s all worth it. For the first time since I was sub-ten-years-old, I feel free and happy and not like I’ve got concrete bearing down on my chest. I was able to relax today. My skin looks better. I was able to watch TV without making to-do lists on my napkin. Then I read books outside of my preordained personal reading list and I felt joy. I am a professional creative and I got so much unexpectedly done, but not in a burnout way – I remembered how the best art does not come from an obsessive focus on $$$ (Toro Sun) and productivity.
Is this the planets – the Sun finally moving out of Saturn territory – or CBD??
Should I take a half-bottle of CBD oil every day? I love feeling this way. I could just take this much during my period – do that Red Tent – and cut it out otherwise. But part of me wants to just keep guzzling down the oil like juice. I feel like I’m living on a cloud. So light and happy. Leaping about with childlike joy.
But am I becoming addicted to a substance?? Is this the beginning of the Slippery Slope?
Saturn in Pisces
Dear Saturn in Pisces,
Well, we are heading into the weirdest Mercury Retrograde since 2013*, in Pisces and with repeat connections to Neptune. So maybe it’s that or, as you say, maybe it ‘s the CBD Oil? Astrologically, you’re a Neptunian woman – super-sensitive to all substances and quite finely wired, from the sounds of it.
So, of course, you are going to respond to Mercury conjunct Neptune + Chiron leaving the Pisces turf to be purely reigned over by Shamanic Neptune. And by respond, I mean that you’re going to open up like an alien rose under the rays of an only just-discovered new Moon.
I have never had CBD and am obviously not your doctor so can’t comment on how it might affect you but it sounds like you’ve got that “wow – magic potion!” reaction which often goes with Neptunian highs, Zombie crushes, big-deal dopamine downloads and well, getting out of it. If you’re already upping the dose and presumably not telling your mother you took it, it sounds suss. The situation has morphed swiftly from “try this for period pain” to “new essential must-have” and indeed, “the whole bottle.”
Or maybe it’s bridged some disparate regions in your brain that needed to be bought together and you’re now functioning fantastically? A lot of people attest to the benefits of CBD, as you know. But what if this is just some neural transmission fuqery that could mess with your dopamine, hormones, serotonin, gut and so forth after a few weeks of high?
The Mercury Retrograde/Neptune Influence of the coming weeks is super-strength, deluxe surreal. As the Horoscopes + Daily Mystic have been alerting, it has an undertow. So it is a prime time to up defense systems against anything addictive or which you know you might be prone to amp right up. And I think if you’re thinking a la ‘slippery slope’ – it’s because you’re aware that your foothold with this may not be quite secure.
So, my suggestion is this, get a good functional medicine/nutritionist/naturopath/holistic doctor to talk to about the CBD oil. Neptune Rising or not, you know it’s decent self-care to have a legit plan with this.
And, as you’re Neptune Rising and the next nine weeks are Neptune City, devise an haute Neptune ritual for yourself. You’re going to be super open so it’s good to stay grounded, tune into your dream-scape, write-compose-create and perhaps up the yoga or meditation?
What does everyone else think?
*This is from the Daily Mystic email (to Mega Mystic members) a few days ago, FYI
We are moving into the Shadow-Zone of the weirdest Mercury Retrograde since 2013 so let’s take some basic precautions.
From Now Until April 20 – yes that is the correct date, I am including the entire “shadow-zone” with this one.
It’s NO to Love Zombie escapades like impulse belting halfway across the planet/continent/galaxy for a flaky or nebulous potential mate/date. Hell, don’t even go across town unless it’s legit during Neptune Rising.
It’s also a NO to idealistic but loosie-goosie joint ventures, particularly the ones where you need to put down your signature, spend $$$ or commit time.
But it’s YES to inspired transformation quests, answered prayers and heightening your connection to Source Vibe, Quintessence, Gods/God/Goddesses and Spirit Guides Et al.
Be extra careful with any person or thing that could even vaguely categorize as addictive or potentially compulsive in your case.
Enjoy the enhanced dreaming, creativity, and psychic perception!
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