I’ve been self-employed for eight years, mainly as a writer.
I’ve recently completed the first draft of a fictional novel, something I’ve always wanted to do.
A spanner in the works: I spotted a part-time job at an independent short story publisher and on a whim applied. I’m a great fit for the job description.
Apart from the childcare logistics, I feel like it’s going to take me away from the path of my “big deal,” my novel.
As a very Virgo, Virgo (I have Sun, Jupiter, Mercury & Saturn in Virgo, 3 of these in the 8th) it pains me to admit that I think I applied for this job to feed my ego, I’ve Leo North Node and all the recent goings on with Leo makes me believe this is the reason…
It’s not even like I’ve been offered the job or had an interview yet, and I don’t know what I should do if I do get to those stages!
Feeding my ego, or a distraction from the hard work I need to do for my rewrite??
I’d love a little insight
Yours, a confused Virgo
Dear Confused Virgo,
Congratulations on the first draft! And eight years self-supported writing! It is not so much coming across as a spanner in the works as a ghost in the machine. And the phantom is YOU! It is as if you’ve got to this perfect place in your life and a part of you is generating doubt.
If you said you had the choice of rewriting your novel and training for a marathon or becoming the first person to circumnavigate the globe on a homemade drone, yes, that would be a conflict. But a part-time job in a publishing house is optimal on multiple levels. Steady $$$, staying acquainted with the industry buzz and networking with publishers.
So even if you did get some pride out of being good at a part-time job as well as having a novel written, so what? You’re allowed to have a creative high AND the s**t together serenity of a part-time day job.
Did you read Future Virgo? 2018 and early 2019 is the bedrock for fantastic new structures in your life. And seriously, I would argue that with the North Node in Leo, you need to nourish your ego. I mean why not? You may need just that to antidote the multiple Virgo automatic self-guilting mechanism.
What does everyone else think?
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