The Past Calls But…

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When the Sun is conjunct the South Node, like it is now, the Past Calls…

No Caller I.D, just a vague vibe of unease, a fleeting sense of something familiar but not at all desirable.

There is noise but no signal, some static, indistinct sentences that two years ago you would have thought charmingly cryptic.

Hello?…sorry, WHAT?…I’m losing you.”

Now? You don’t spend any energy analysing it. Modern Mindset Maintenance techniques mean the processing of previous existences & phases occurs in the background and that the apt insights pop into your mind precisely as you need them.

 

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emg
emg

Well I don’t know about the past, apart from I do random things when I’m in a good space
I’ve just sent my CV off to a job that I probably stand not one second of a chance of getting but I bloody sent it ! It feels great and I reckon I’m going to follow on this path knocking at doors until one opens ! Finally I’m plucking up the courage again to talk to strangers.

Chrysalis
Chrysalis

Well done you. That’s Saturn I reckon – just keep doing the slog until a door opens, as it eventually will. Create your own opportunities. x

Pi
Pi

A realisation today, while listening to an excellent Buddhist meditation about fear, about the intense depth of contempt I feel towards being dependent on, or ‘needing’ something or more likely, someone. The feeling is almost vicious. Maybe it’s just who I am. I can’t work out if I internalised some very early experiences, which is highly likely. Like I was punished or rejected for simply wanting to be acknowledged/loved and having needs, so expressing this became a shameful condition. So eventually I make it so that I abandon ship when it turns out I feel enough towards someone that he’s… Read more »

Pi
Pi

Stop digging maybe and just have a coke and a smile

Pi
Pi

Sphinx, if you’re reading this, I’m actually incredibly protective of kids as a direct result of seeing the damage that stupid crap from adults can deliver.

Jokerman
Jokerman
sphinx
sphinx

Moved house yesterday. The past has never felt so future! I am broken and twisted and bruised and hyperextended in every direction. But pretty happy. Except my little cream savanna cats aren’t pacing the hallways yet, so doesn’t feel exactly home yet. Nice full moon week. Exciting.

Jokerman
Jokerman

Well the Russians too had a lot of trouble moving the Sphinx.

Veronica
Veronica

Ooh, very nice Sphinx. What is the garden like? Is there lots to do?

We have been doing so much around our place, more in the last year than the 4 years beforehand. And i finally have wrangled a studio, only after extracting, rehousing, selling or tossing all the dense plutonic junk inside that shed, then painting the outsides. Epic.

davidl
davidl

We are just coming up to our 10th anniversary in our house and Kataka has decided to totally spring clean every room nook and cranny. It feels great other than her going through my pile of papers etc I have stuck in a corner of the bedroom. Some of that stuff has been hanging around for 20 years in my life and the process of throwing most of it out was slightly traumatic !
Anywho, congratulations on your move, may you and the family live happily in your new home for many years x

sphinx
sphinx

Thank you all! It’s exciting to get some roots at last. The garden needs a lot of work but it will be great to be able to fill it with plants V! Deathly tired by it all though. Lovely to read all your news!

milleunanotte
milleunanotte

Beautiful place, sounds like, Sphinx! You and your fam truly deserve a nice one. Sounds like there’s plenty of space and light? Some good energy? Just want to share that my bath-loving sis commented on the joys of a shower. So if you don’t have a bath to take, enjoy the rain of a shower on the tired bod. (Want to mention she apparently bathes a billion times a day, and i don’t know how as she is a busy busy Sag, so you can probs take her word for it that it’s an essential luxury. Haven’t told her she… Read more »

Lux Interior Is My Co-Pilot
Lux Interior Is My Co-Pilot

The past REALLY does seem like a different dimension now!

Hurrah for that!

Lux Interior Is My Co-Pilot
Lux Interior Is My Co-Pilot

THIS: Modern Mindset Maintenance techniques mean the processing of previous existences & phases occurs in the background and that the apt insights pop into your mind precisely as you need them.

MMM is the everything now.

gogengo
gogengo

Interesting –

No ex communication, but did get a text from a friend that I have been out of touch with for awhile, glad to hear from her but also like “here we go again..”

A student of mine showed up today after not attending class for many months too

That photo tho!! I actually styled my hair in that same fashion circa 2005/6, feels like a lifetime ago

VirgoStellium
VirgoStellium

I had a massive meltdown tonight. I have them occasionally, esp in winter. My husband is unfazed by them now but I flail about like a crazy person until I can get over it. No special reason, existential angst.

Chrysalis
Chrysalis

So that’s what’s up…yes, the past has been calling me. The other day I was stuck in traffic in a terrible funk over cube farm situ. Asking the universe ‘What should I do, what should I do?’ I stared out of the window at the car next to me and emblazoned across the door were the words “Call [name of Neptunian Cap]”. Holy fuq. The following day a random page I follow on social media but hardly ever look at appeared in my feed with a video of an obscure song that was significant in our relationship. I’ve also been… Read more »

Pi
Pi

It’s also kind of a relief to have put some distance in with my own drowning in muck feeling, even though I currently feel as though I have taken a wrong turn in the Bardo and might be stuck for fricken ever. I realised the other day that i’m not going to have children, this was never a priority in my life, getting to a point beyond finding the idea outright repellent was probably the best i was going to do with my moon-IC situation, but it also means I don’t have to hold on to things for posterity’s sake.… Read more »

sphinx
sphinx

Hmm, why? I have never experienced love and bliss on this earthly plane like the kind I have with my children – and also with my partner – as a family. We are beyond grateful every day for each other.

Perhaps it’s different for others, then, also I wasn’t young when I had my first.

P.s. I find the word spawn so ugly and diminishing of innocence.
“A wrong turn in the Bardo” is however a genius expression and I might have to steal (if I can find others who also know what it even means!).

Pi
Pi

Spent a long time studying death I guess. Bardo came up.

Veronica
Veronica

6 years ago I realised also that I was never going to have children (fallopian tubes discovered to be fused after severe appendix infection). I was probably spurred by finally meeting my partner after 15 years single, like its now or never! But being a mother was never a priority in my life either. Not like my sister who would reach for a baby if one came into the room, i only ever felt like that about kittens or puppies… At one point at about 30, I do remember thinking I would never ever drag a child through what I… Read more »

Pi
Pi

Yes, like it was actually really liberating in certain ways – I can dedicate myself to worthy work and make actual plans, I mean I get that parenting (lets be honest, mothering) isn’t a total and permanent impasse but I suddenly thought, “oh ok! Well I guess I can get on with things then.” And I can still do the thing I always wanted to do which is work to build more equality and fairness into women’s lives, that’s a goal I actually wrote down when I was 15 so yes LOL

Pi
Pi

And thank you for replying V

Pi
Pi

with a chart ruler of mercury, virgo ruling my 3rd house, pisces sun conjunct mercury in the 9th house and mars in the 8th, and pluto on my IC, analysing feelings and happenings / analytical processes is basically what I do, lol. However yes there’s a point where you just have to switch gears and act in your new life power so to speak, takes some psychical work to operate on two channels – background auric comms and clear-and-present-life helloo you have to do things Pi one of the past posts your site auto-shared MM was the day that venus… Read more »

BLISS WITCH
BLISS WITCH

Yes. You all are so not alone. I have been swept up in fantasies of what might have been with someone I haven’t talked to in 7 years and seen in 17! We were pen pals for ten years!

There was another situation with this girl that I should have been a better friend with too that came up.

Also have had tons of energy moving up out of the heart chakra. So intense that I’ve been like, “it’s happening again!!”

Interestingly the south node lounge only features people I didn’t think to include in my cord cutting ceremony on New Years.

milleunanotte
milleunanotte

So i was wowing out at the comments about old friends and lovers, and music, thinking how good i don’t have to be disturbed by such anymore… …when the phone rings with an invitation back to the old crew, by the only person i would like to see from that crowd. In one of the old haunts, naturally, where i sang an old old song in a salvaged boat. Something i would not do now. But for the past week, i found myself humming similar tunes, hence the need to explore different music. My mind is playing ghosts in pirate… Read more »

AstroGeek
AstroGeek

Tales from The Node Lounge … Brilliant!

milleunanotte
milleunanotte

Yours was a lovely one! It’s a mixed collection but all on one theme, this anthology 🙂

dark star
dark star

Love the birds Mille so poetic

Taurus Vixen
Taurus Vixen

WAs driving along innocently this morning and song after song was coming on going through my greatest hits of ex-boyfriends. Noticed something was up on the 3rd song for the 3rd ex-boyfriend then I began to wonder who would be next. 5 songs and 5 ex-boyfriends. Totally not random! Oh and I ended up in front of the old house (almost 20 years ago) of one of my best friends who appears not having anything to do with me for past few months. Talk about a weird morning.

Jacqui
Jacqui

Soon to be Jupiter conjunct natal south node (18 sep 2018). I noticed lots of mention above of Conjunct Uranus, Pluto. I have Pandora there as well. 8th H P/P 15’30 – U 15’50 Virgo

LiberatingVenus
LiberatingVenus

In other post-eclipse related news, I see Ummagumma finally went public with her experiences re: Weinstein – the Nodes are presently hitting her (Leo) BML & (Taurus) Saturn, while the Solar Eclipse in mid-February squares her Midheaven. She’s going to get a lot of visibility off this, and if you read the heartbreaking account of how she felt like she “went from being a creative contributor and performer to being like a broken tool”, I’d say dammit it’s about time – that woman deserves her revenge.

MissDee
MissDee

I met an ex Thursday nite, have been in a bad / gloomy mood ever since. I was the one breaking it up because we were going nowhere.
But there has been no one ever since. And seeing him and remembering what is like to like someone compared to the nonsense blur that it is the dating online scene is sad.
But: I am a Moon in Taurus and a fifth house in Capricorn so I can only move forward.

AstroGeek
AstroGeek

Just had a two hour chat with the ex I moved across the country with 10 years ago. We loved each other, but separated for a variety of (valid) reasons, and have both been in relationships since then. We’ve both lost parents, he moved back to the East coast, different jobs, different lives … Older and wiser, the convo we just had was warm and full of laughs. We hadn’t talked in years, so there was interest in and learning about each other’s new lives. And we were able to share our grief about our parents in a way that… Read more »

emg
emg

That’s lovely. I really enjoy one of my ex’s. A gentle man with whom I spent some time. I’d hope always to be as open and friendly with my ex’d Partners.

Jokerman
Jokerman

In amongst all the shit that has been happening….this happened!

I visited a couple, former colleagues, around the corner from the beach l slept at. Her parents were there fr overseas. I was immediately taken aback with her mum’s eyes. They were the eyes fr my ‘reset’ woman; circa 2013. I KNEW SHE WAS 3rd Decan Scorp …INSTANTLY.

But you could’ve knocked me over when she said “13th of November”
Same date as the Reset woman!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

emg
emg

Flicks the switch !

dark star
dark star

Ohhhhhh so that’s why I got an email from an ex bestie wanting to catch up. Years of no contact. Insanity. Sn pinging my Pluto + asc. Sent a long email back but not dwelling on it.

Reread a psychic reading from 2014 and it was strangely true even though I had disowned it in my mind.

AstroGeek
AstroGeek

Love that you emailed the ex bestie back … (you liked her/him at one point, maybe the insanity was gone now, etc.) but with no expectations.

But also, that you got a psychic reading (also, with no expectations) and were able to validate it years later.

dark star
dark star

Ok looking at your post below looks like we had a similar encounters! He was a male bestie, and I had a fight (was unlike me I hate confrontation but she poked a Scorpio) with his gf whom I was also friends with. So not an ex, but a male best friend that I was actually devastated to not talk to anymore. A footnote of the reading mentioned him, there were feelings I was not conscious of. Boundaries were mentioned as important. I love the tone of your meeting astrogeek, a healing gift. I feel much the same 🙂

LiberatingVenus
LiberatingVenus

Eclipse dreams have been wild….it started with Venus over the South Node. Lots of female friends from my past resurfacing in my sleep – I wonder if they were dreaming of me, too?? One of them shot me a text right as Venus went over the SN – we have a phone date in a couple of weeks to catch up when our schedules finally sync <3 I don’t know that South Node reconnections are always a bad thing – my feeling is they just tend to bring up a lot of murky emotional detritus to be cleansed so we… Read more »

AstroGeek
AstroGeek

This idea of the internal vs. external ways that closure can manifest is interesting. I do think sometimes looking for big, demonstrative, external signs can be a problem in and of itself, but that kind of closure can be satisfying and cathartic in a way that quiet, internal closure isn’t. (I say this from past experience).

And I’m adopting “the synastry stays the same” as my temporary mantra for resisting the urge to reconcile with the current ex. Bring it, South Node!

Pi
Pi

Agree with these observations astrogeek

LiberatingVenus
LiberatingVenus

Oh yikes! Yeah, personally I’m very anti- resurrecting romances with exes – though I’m on good terms with mine and have no problems being friendly with them, there’s still no way I’d ever cover the same ground twice. I’d much rather open up to a new chapter instead. For some there may be a comfort in familiarity, but personally I prefer to roll the dice on someone totally different than waste any more of my time potentially rehashing the same old, same old. Though I have not applied this toward former partners (see above), this is my general philosophy about… Read more »

Pi
Pi

Yeah. With a live and direct natal south node aspect in my chart, how youve described it is how I now tend to deal with my venusian connections. So often it feels like some kind of final chapter, sigh. The transit of Chiron conjunct the south node on my sun , I don’t even know what planet I was on, although it brought the Aries guy into my life briefly (it meant he was having a Venus south node Chiron transit at the same time). Anyway, this isn’t really a reply, but allowing south node phases to be empowering or… Read more »

LiberatingVenus
LiberatingVenus

Astrology contains infinite potential – it’s up to us whether we’ll make it “good to the last drop”.

Signed,
Someone with a fuqed nativity.

When you live in a desert, you get pretty damn good at figuring out how to squeeze juice out of a cactus.

Jokerman
Jokerman

I came to the Astro in a deep way when Pluto turned SD (8°59′) exactly on my Dsc (8°53′) ……on the very day big shit happened to me. September 20th, 2013. The fallout continued into October.

6 weeks later l subbed to this site.

The past 4.5 years has been learning the hand I’ve been dealt. Figuring out all this stuff about myself, in my 50s. I am a bit behind you but I’m learning. You know…getting water where there is little. You have played some help in this.

Pi
Pi

you certainly learn the value of the good times. thanks lv.

Leo-Scorp Grrrl
Leo-Scorp Grrrl

The south node is conjunction my north node right now. I‘ve had more than fleeting haunts of South Node for the last week. A song on the radio, an unrelated conversation that dredges up a reminder in my past (only in my own mind). I’ve spent some alone time considering, analyzing past and more recent situations. Confirmed that I’ve moved forward after uncomfortable times-and planning my next morph. My Aries Saturn in 6th apex yod with PlutoconjuntUranus and Neptune is the story of my life. I move forward when I go toward change and don’t resist. I want status quo… Read more »

milleunanotte
milleunanotte

It’s nice to read your thoughts. That sense of not resisting change expresses something i’m putting effort into, and felt disappointed about yesterday. Does Saturn 6th house give you a hard time if you are not onto it every minute?

Leo-Scorp Grrrl
Leo-Scorp Grrrl

I feel the Saturn pull (or is it a push?) -always. Its a backdrop that’s always there. The Zap Zone worked me hard but that was not the uncomfortable part. I am learning to flow and do better self care (forced with Chiron return). I can be a workaholic but don’t always demand the respect I deserve. (probably Cap moon stuff) This is another reason I admire Aries. Saturn and Pars Fortuna are in Aries and I’m a quad Leo. But, I don’t like the limelight. I need to step up and back ME- not other people. That’s when I… Read more »

Syrena
Syrena

This might well explain the dreams of an old haunt/sending out a social ping to go back there that would not leave me be. “Anyone on this frequency feel like heading to [The South Node Lounge] tonight?”

Leo-Scorp Grrrl
Leo-Scorp Grrrl

Yes, South Node Lounge, it has been.

milleunanotte
milleunanotte

I felt it, and stayed home on purpose, exploring my music stuff. It’s like the new self tugged back by the old, who was too tired to step ahead anymore. I had a great week, all forward looking, and feeling integrated. But i guess that’s a normal part of re-shaping your life.

Was trying to hear more of the lyrics in Moontalk, clicked on the weird clip for Jelly and then saw this South Node post. It felt good NOT to be out.

vikingwoman
vikingwoman

A week before the eclipse, which hit my natal black moon lillith, i got a ‘hit’ to cyber check a group of friends who stabbed me in the back in ’93. Really glad I did, because with one I realized he was really a sactimonious dick who really didnt accomplish much. He had the most potential (along with myself) at the time…we had the momentum and something clicked within me that said “these friends are holding you back”. People really really hate it when they find out you are moving beyond them…accelerating $$$ and mastering adulthood. I was about 2… Read more »

Scorpio_Rising
Scorpio_Rising

congrats on moving upward and away from the past!
I experienced a call from the past.
An abusive ex that lied, stole my ID and sexually assaulted a child & several teens is in jail- finally.

vikingwoman
vikingwoman

Oh Lord! Awful! Glad he’s in jail…

Scorpio_Rising
Scorpio_Rising

Unfortunately, he only will be in for a few months. But, it’s a start. He’s karma is coming back to bite him.

Leo-Scorp Grrrl
Leo-Scorp Grrrl

Love your last line
… and your name, Vikingwoman.

Leo-Scorp Grrrl
Leo-Scorp Grrrl

Oh this looks bad- I meant last line of from the original post- (what you are truly made of) not the awful abuser comment.
I agree he should be in jail, though!

Scorpio_Rising
Scorpio_Rising

no worries. I understand what you meant.

emg
emg

I’m a pluto Uranus conjunct in Virgo 16 degrees. Opp Chiron Saturn asc. Yup this so resonates with me about massive disrupts, utter melt down curtain down, whole new theatre ! It’s been exhausting until you learn to embrace it. Well done on your journey to date.

vikingwoman
vikingwoman

Hugs….yep you get it!

Jokerman
Jokerman

I’ve Scorpio’s rulers conjunct in the 2nd, opposite Chiron, which is shit enough but they are T-Sqd by my SD & Focal Jup. Read: Jupiter’s alt-ego is alive n well. Jupiter, in cohoots with Chiron, does the same shit to my 2H cusp, Merc conjunct Uran.
4 shit T-Sqs with that powerfully afflicted Jupiter.

emg
emg

I read your last line as 4 shit T shirts!
Been there done that got the T shirt
Crappy seeming charts bring crap no doubt but in the end they produce wisdom and grace beyond and you’ll develop into the most amazing soul

Jokerman
Jokerman

You just gave me an E-pif, Annie. (I’ll be prolix) A few whiles ago l added aspects, on astrodienst, to Chiron. Basically 4 T Squares came up. My SD & Focaliser, Jup, @ 22° Scorp is sq Chiron. My Merc/Uran cj and Mars/Pluto cj oppose Chiron. Normarily having those 2 Octave pairings would be great. But, opposing Chiron and squaring that difficult, my difficult, Jup adds to the difficulties. This to my other T Sq. Also a SD / Focalising Neptune (cj my aneretic IC-Libra) in Sq to my opposing 1H Sun and 7H Moon. 5 T Squares in all.… Read more »

emg
emg

Hey this all sounds fab. It looks like you’re moving out of your square hole and into something that fits a merkaba

davidl
davidl

Hey P ! I’ve been away last weekend. Just emailed you.

Jokerman
Jokerman

For you 2

joolz
joolz

i needed to read this right at this very second. thank you.

milleunanotte
milleunanotte

On this blog on Saturday Night and wondering if you’re missing out on life, or have just moved on?

Try Lauren Halo’s Jelly. Seriously freaking visuals to accompany lyric.

Best listening is this one though:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sLcQ8zxyTTo

Moony lyrics kick in at about 0:52 if you are impatient (not me, said the Merc Aries.)

Lux Interior Is My Co-Pilot
Lux Interior Is My Co-Pilot

thanks!

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