I am a long-term subscriber and follower of your work. Enjoy the wit and color immensely.
I have to be honest and say 99% of the time your ‘scopes do not resonate. Bare with me – I’m not saying what you think I may be saying. I have led a pretty isolated life these past how many years, so it’s pretty damn impossible to be living the relationship heavy life the scopes outline when I have no relationships in my realm. This has been the reason for a myriad of reasons – not only circumstantial (moving to a new country and not really “fitting” with the culture) – I also made the choice 8 years ago to NEVER settle for non-reciprocal relating ever again.
Recently I met a Scorpio (let’s call him Scorpio Swamp Stud) through a possible work scenario. Sure, he’s “nice” but from day one, he’s been off-loading me. I got to the point where I put him in check letting him know it’s not his place to offload on me – it’s his place to handle his business, not mine. He told me he really dug my strength, my talents etc But g’damn, talk, talk, talk! No – no Gemini rising (that’s me!) but I’m at the stage in my evolution where I’m all about walk, not talk.
He suggested we go out for drinks. I kinda nudged it off. However, the horny bull in me began to buck and I felt the urge to take him out on an “Artists Date”. I suggested, he was game, we went out, we had a good time. But as soon as I was in the car – offloading. It’s all about him. There was a bit of affection (I’m mega Taurus). I know when I’m sexually compatible with someone just from a touch and his was a good one. Just some hand holding and snuggling while enjoying modern art. Well, two nights ago I FLIPPED. I’m mega 12th housy to boot, and all the wounds came up – mine being in one-way relationships where I am offloaded on. Next morning, I was like fuck it, took myself out on a date, had the best synchonicity ever and felt good. I accepted I cannot build something with a guy like this and I felt empowered. But than I felt the disappointment that once again, the depressed / mentally ill man has come into my life where all they do is offload. I made the choice to never be in a one-way lane again and was disappointed once again, that’s what turned up.
Last night I decided fuck it – let’s just DO stuff. Let’s create. He hesitated. Hearing he’s been in his funk, I was like cool, you do you, I’ll do me. He exploded. He felt judged, condescended to etc I told him repeatedly what he meant but he could not, would not let it go. Tonight, he contacts me in the middle of a work conversation. I hit him back, and he starts again about the same BS from last night. When he said I was gas lighting him oh boy, did I flip. I asked him – do you realize you never ask about me? Do you realize we only talk about you? Do you realize you offload on me from the jump every time we interact? How dare you – and men like you – treat women like we are therapists, mothers with no regard for our own wellbeing?I told him I have boundaries and we need to part. He tried to keep talking but I said “No – no more talk.” And he finally said okay.
I feel relieved. I read your monthly scopes and it’s spot on. Because for the first time in a long time I had someone enter my life. It played out to the tee. The long Saturn sojourn opposite my Sun a few years back. Saturn in Sagg opposite Gemini – my rising I have felt as well PLUS Saturn finally wrapping his ride through my 7th house has been dense, intense and immense 5 year period of just cutting all non-essential. Foundationing like a fucker, I have. I feel so HAPPY that I walked my walk and set a standard – no more one way sway. And feel good and believe that the future brings healthy, reciprocal relationships where give and take is the dance, not a qi vamp mental mind-fuck wanna-be tango discordant fandango.
No doubt when the harvest comes the scopes will be in sync as they were this month
Thank you for your words.
A fellow traveller,
WOW okay. SO i get this. I think. And yes, that pull for connection can be such a strong tug, like a tide. And I think in so many of our psyches there is a part of us happy to play whatever role is required to get a certain hit of regard, affection, intimacy, admiration…She (or he) is already pulling on the costume and getting set to simper the lines when WHAM…hello Saturn and the healthy boundaries/authentic dynamics only pre-requisites.
So aside from everything else, this is worth it for the term Scorpio Swamp Stud right?
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