As a Sun conjunct Pluto person I’m familiar with change with a capital C. I’ve changed cities, careers, and let’s not even get started on how many times I’ve redone my home’s decor. But this feels different. I love fashion but suddenly I’m ruthlessly tossing pieces I love because they’re not right for the hourglass figure that’s arisen out of a year of four times a week barre classes and twice a week hiking; I’m reading voraciously; I’ve let go of albatross friendships; I’ve streamlined my beauty routine; I’ve learned how to tame my unruly mane of hair; I’ve automated my finances; should I go on?
The thing is, I’m basically happy in my life and my career. Sure, I could always have better assignments or write a book, make more money, or pitch more but I like writing. It’s the first career I’ve had where my fantasy meets my reality. I’m good at it. And I like the city I live in. Certainly a house with a pool and a parking space would be nice but cheap rent offers me a freedom — to travel, to try new restaurants, to say yes to new experiences as often as possible — I’m reluctant to lose. I’ve got a good group of supportive, grownup friends with whom I can both joke and have the meaningful conversations. Things are good. I’m happy.
But my gut tells change is coming. I can feel the distant rumblings. And I’m worried there is nothing to be done. And, while I like change, scraping everything to start over once again from the beginning? Throwing out the baby with the bath water? Let’s just say I’d prefer evolution to a complete top to bottom overhaul.
But I’m afraid that I won’t have much say in the matter. Thus this letter. What do you think? Is it inevitable? Is Jupiter into Scorpio (and my upcoming second Saturn return) setting a path for a completely new me? Should I brace myself for a complete overhaul? A gut renovation? Should I start making my goodbyes? Or will this makeover be a selective one, refurbishing and refining the places (my love life, for example) that have grown dusty and polishing the other spaces to a brilliant shine I never imagined possible?
– Bea, readying for a bumpy ride
Okay well i would totally trust Sun-Pluto instincts and as I have been saying in the Horoscopes, Jupiter in Scorpio makes Pluto power right the hell up. It sounds like you are in superb shape for Saturn Return already – vis a vis your first paragraph. I am Mars-Pluto not Sun-Pluto but my feeling about your query is that this is a relationship and thats giving you the heebie-jeebies. It’s one thing to hurl yourself into relationships pre the individuation process of Uranus Opposition, quite another to be a fully conscious, seasoned person with hard-won independence. This could be an evolution into radical intimacy? Or a shamanic awakening? Both?
What does everyone else think? And congrats on the progress thus far – super impressive!
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