A Sun conjunct Pluto person knows she is good with change – Pluto is the Change God – but wonders if she can trust her “makeover on steroids” instincts.
As a Sun conjunct Pluto person I’m familiar with change with a capital C. I’ve changed cities, careers, and let’s not even get started on how many times I’ve redone my home’s decor. But this feels different. I love fashion, but suddenly I’m ruthlessly tossing pieces I love because they’re not right for the hourglass figure that’s arisen from four times a week barre classes and twice a week hiking. I’m reading voraciously. I’ve let go of albatross friendships and streamlined my beauty routine. I’ve learned how to tame my unruly mane of hair. And, I’ve automated my finances; should I go on?
The thing is, I’m happy in my life and my career. Sure, I could always have better assignments or write a book, make more money, or pitch more, but I like writing. It’s the first career I’ve had where my fantasy meets my reality. I’m good at it. And I love the city I live in. Certainly, a house with a pool and a parking space would be nice but cheap rent offers me freedom — to travel, to try new restaurants, to say yes to new experiences as often as possible — I’m reluctant to lose. I’ve got a good group of supportive, grownup friends with whom I can both joke and have meaningful conversations. Things are good. I’m happy.
But my gut tells change is coming. I can feel the distant rumblings. And I’m worried there is nothing to be done. And, while I like change, scraping everything to start over once again from the beginning? Am I throwing out the baby with the bathwater? Let’s say I’d prefer evolution to a full top to bottom overhaul. But I feel a makeover on steroids is imminent.
But I’m afraid that I won’t have much say in the matter. Thus this letter. What do you think? Is it inevitable? Is Jupiter into Scorpio (and my upcoming second Saturn return) setting a path for a completely new me? Should I brace myself for a complete overhaul? A gut renovation? Should I start making my goodbyes? Or will this makeover be a selective one, refurbishing and refining the places (my love life, for example) that have grown dusty and polishing the other spaces to a brilliant shine I never imagined possible?
– Bea, ready for a bumpy ride
Okay well, I would trust Sun-Pluto instincts, and as I have been saying in the Horoscopes, Jupiter in Scorpio makes Pluto power right the hell up. It sounds like you are in superb shape for Saturn Return already – vis a vis your first paragraph. I am Mars-Pluto, not Sun-Pluto but my feeling about your query is that this is a relationship and that’s giving you the heebie-jeebies. It’s one thing to hurl yourself into relationships pre the individuation process of Uranus Opposition, quite another to be a fully conscious, seasoned person with hard-won independence.
It could be an evolution into radical intimacy? Or a shamanic awakening? Both? It could also be a strange syndrome whereby you’re psychologically unable to relax into your life, sublimated guilt from a childhood paradigm? It’s possible that you’re on the brink of psychic evolution, one that will transform your work and consciousness but look more or less the same on the outside.
What does everyone else think? And congrats on the progress thus far – super impressive! Idea: Wait till the Sun conjunct Pluto in December and tune into your instincts then? You can also meditate during the Moon-Pluto Lunar Portal. It is marked on the Moon Calendar and a magnificent time to connect with Plutonic gut instincts.
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