To the inexpressibly intelligent and insightful Mystic,
I’m a Sun-Sag who (as I’ve groused about in the comments a few times) has had a hell of a time with Saturn paying me a visit for the last couple of years. In short order, I was offered what looked like my dream job – which I moved halfway across the country to pursue – only to be let go with no reason given (perhaps out of tact) after three months. Cue purging everything I couldn’t fit in my car, which is not big, driving straight back home to my parents, and taking the hugest ego hit of my life. That is, up until three months after that, when the EXACT SAME THING happened again, right down to the going back to my parents.
There was also the part where I found out that I have something like nine different food sensitivities that give me a god-awful autoimmune reaction and throw a serious wrench into my social life. I mean restaurants are close to a complete no-go, and food made by someone else is even scarier. Next to the job nonsense, it almost feels like an afterthought, but it has done some dreadful things to my interpersonal sphere.
Here’s the thing, though…here on the tail end of it, I’m almost afraid of Saturn leaving. Come Monday, I start a job that sounds like my actual dream job – home based with tons of travel, all kinds of autonomy, detail and organizing, just like my Sun, Virgo moon and Aqua ascendant love. And that fuckup with the food sensitivities has me down a full sixty pounds since last year, which cleared up so many health issues. There have been other lessons that haven’t been quite so difficult (figuring out I’m asexual, for one), but they’ve been just as life-changing, and in a positive way. It’s been a really rough time, but it’s given me so much.
But now I’m worried, for two reasons. On the one hand, I’m afraid I’ll revert to back to being the dumb kid who didn’t have the work ethic to keep two grown-up jobs in a row. On the other, my actual Saturn return doesn’t even happen until 2020, since it’s in Capricorn (12th house, in case it matters). So, I’m worried I’ll lose this newfound self-discipline once Saturn is done here. But then, I’m also worried it’ll all topple in a few years, once Saturn comes back. Can everything I’ve learned these past couple of years be sustainable? I’m mutable as hell (Mars in Gemini, lord help me), so “sustainable” isn’t really what I’m used to, but it’s absolutely what I want, now.
Thank you so much – your whole site has completely re-vamped the way I think about astro stuff, and I always appreciate your insight.
Thank you for the compliments! And okay, my thoughts on all this are as follows.
Saturn Transits do not revert. What Saturn changes does not change back. I know what you mean but Saturn is usually in charge of the domain where things endure. For instance, when there is a strong Saturn bond between people, that tie is significant and those people know each other forever, the affiliation only deepening with time.
Saturn IS sustainable which is why so much the oomph of a Saturn transit is in the sudden realization of what – in your life – is sustainable and what is merely flimsy, built on a hideous alcoholic composite of quicksand, bullshit and wishful thinking. It does not matter that you move back home twice in a row or whatever. What matters is that you are engaged in the very Saturnine task of building strong foundations – the job, the consciousness, the clarity around your sexuality.
If you’re THIS Saturn-aware now, your Saturn Return is just going to be the hassle of dealing with the by products of your success and security – envy, tax bills, charity obligations, the dentist etc. As for the food – it’s interesting as i have Saturn square my Sun right now and i have done one of those fancy food tests – amazing. I think it is useful to not focus on what you “can’t eat” or are “intolerant to” but to think of it as food that feeds your fierceness and counts as actual nutrition versus food that makes you feeble or just fat but not well nourished.
As for restaurants, it sucks but when you are in Saturn City you learn how to feed yourself – psychically and literally. Turn this into a strength! Self-generated amazing cuisine with unprocessed ingredients, no cheats and as organic as possible is totally the new Zeitgeist anyway. Congrats on being ahead on Uranus in Taurus.
All I’m seeing here is someone who has taken charge of a health issue and WON whilst also scoring an epic job. The big downside seems to be that you’re worried it won’t last – that it will randomly be snatched away from you. Sure, i get that the Pluto in Capricorn economy is vicious and in hyper-flux (robots, corrupt politicians, neo-liberalism, whatever) but this has more to do with your insecurities or self-worth I think.
You would not have this job if you did not deserve it and if the employer did not think you would be good at it/deliver them revenue. It’s not a “dream” job – it’s a Saturn job, it is real and it is part of your new foundation. Same with your newly made over gut and endocrine system via the revved up nutrition.
And Mars in Gemini s HOT. When Mars in Gemini gets fixed on a job, it gets done. My daughter has Mars in Gemini and can very easily turn out a world class productivity work performance for more or less anything if she needs to earn snazzy new sneakers. But seriously. congratulations. Remember: Saturn does not topple – Saturn builds. And so do you.
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