After a lifetime of dying your hair, letting it be is confronting. But there are psychological benefits to growing out natural hair. Pluto in Capricorn is manifesting as a return to our ‘dark roots’ lol. And the regrowth that occurs without the monthly pattern of hair dying is not just physical. It’s psychic.
The first real whiff i got of this new hair zeitgeist was when I went to see my Scorpio doctor. She appeared, limber and glowing as usual, but with a full head of her “real” hair, complete with silver. She is at her 2nd Saturn Return, so that’s not surprising but ever since I had known her, she’d colored it. We don’t even think about it, because that’s just what ‘we’ do. Now Scorpio Doctor is not someone who would wind up with gray/dark roots because of anything approaching neglect. She is like the polar opposite of any “letting yourself go” mentality. An Ashtanga obsessive, her nutrition is super on point, and she daily cultivates flexibility, core poise, and strength – mentally, spiritually, physically, etc. So, I asked her, w.t.f is up with this, um, new look?
Growing Out Natural Hair Is A Statement Of Self-Care And Confidence
Scorpio Doctor explained (this is me paraphrasing) that the latest reports on hair color were fuqed. That the formulations had barely altered in decades and that there were serious concerns with several ingredients. People who should know better (but are not appropriately informed) spend hundreds of $ a month sitting around with toxic gunk seeping into their brains and bloodstream.
“Right,” I said, “so I should be getting the natural hair dyes from the health food store.” Apparently not. The usual villains are there but with some minor baddies ostentatiously removed for effect. “Google,” she said, “resorcinol and para-phenylenediamine.” What’s weird is that my first reaction to Scorpio Doctor saying there was too much shit in these products to be worth the benefits was “I can’t.”
I mean, it’s not like the results of my adult-lifetime of hair dying are spectacular. Currently, i would describe my hair as fried blonde. A week before seeing Scorpio doctor, I was lying at a neck wrecking angle over the basin, smelling the fumes of the stuff being rinsed off. My scalp was burning and itching as I heard a colorist say (for the umpteenth time over the decades) that they were going to use to toner to “bring the color down because my hair throws up warm.” I was thinking about how over it I was.
Intelligent Women Sitting Around With Toxic Gunk Seeping Into Their Scalp And Bloodstream
My first adventure in hair dye involved a box of Ultra Blonde tipped on blonde hair that had mysteriously and unfairly turned mouse as i approached peak puberty. That came out canary-yellow with orange streaks and fried the ends. So I fixed it with Magic Silver White to the point that it went purple. Then I added a toner on top and began my affair with Extreme Damaged Hair treatment products. That was when i was 15, and this cycle has been continuing more or less since then. When i was older and had the budget i introduced hairdressers into the scene.
I have not seen my real hair since then. And nearly everyone I know is similar. I once glimpsed it when i was at Saturn Return and with a little bit of what i thought was white paint or bleach weirdly staining one strand but no! “That’s your first gray,” said the hairdresser but don’t worry “we can deal with that.” I was like ‘thank god’ and went back to reading my tabloid magazine while the gunk sunk in.
So after googling a la Scorpio Doctor’s recommendation, I realized that hair dye is potentially responsible for a lot more crap than I realized. Then, searching with terms like “how to grow hair out naturally without looking hideous,” I realized there is a whole movement out there about this. The entire return-to-roots ideal as cultural zeitgeist has picked up momentum recently. People also often do it at checkpoint transits like Chiron Return and Uranus Opposition.
The Concept Of Regrowth Has Resonance
I discovered these two excellent books (about going gray but applicable for anyone wanting to step off the dye cycle) – Going Gray and Gray Hair Adventure. There are chic silver chicks like Yasmina Rossi/Cindy Joseph and some radical feminist rants about how (basically) women oppress themselves via hair upkeep. And the growing your hair out for health and authenticity movement seems aligned with yoga, removing toxins from your diet and updating your vibe for the era.
Women like Scorpio Doctor, Yasmina, Cindy, and Co certainly put paid to any idea of growing your hair out going along with gaining a million kilograms and sitting at home in your massage chair, drinking liters of gin, watching police reality shows while you order cats online. It seems to be coming from a place of empowerment.
So I am going to be letting my dark roots grow. The idea of regrowth has resonance. Growing out natural hair is a statement of confidence and self-care. It also involves letting go of an illusion or an ideal.
I could flip in six weeks and repeat history by racing out to score some Ultra-Blonde again, breathing in great sighs of relief as the familiar fumes waft up. Maybe fried is better than real? Perhaps I still want whatever it is i was trying to attain at 15 enough to risk my health? I hope not, but you never know. So where are you at with truth in hair?