Emerging From Shadow

Filed in Mars

Rithika Merchant

Mars is nearly out of Scorpio – where it has been for most of the year. Even when it wasn’t in Scorpio, it was.  That’s as in Warrior God Mars moving into the muck-raking sign of Scorpio early in the year set a whole series of events into motion. It was referencing Saturn in Scorpio (2012 to late 2015) AND Pluto in Capricorn. So one way or another we have all done some version of psychological colonic.

I was emailing with my friend (and gifted intuitive) Marcella Kroll about health & self care – she responded to one of my emails with this zinger which is SO NOW that i was all about “fuq please let me share this“.  It was in response to me saying that it sounds corny but being better with your self-care totally ups one’s psychic powers – in fact, sometimes i think that what we call – say – B12 or cholesterol probably has a magical name and function also.

Not corny at all! The self care is crucial. Now more than ever we have to in order to keep up. I really believe that we are going through some serious evolution right now as a species. So all these shit storms are showing up to show us what needs to be upgraded. And honestly the sadness for the fleeting friendships and changing scenarios is passing too. I can’t, nor do I have time for people that make me feel like I am hard to love.

I’m here to do my work, not be part of a fucking spiritual fashion show. It’s not always pretty. It gets messy, and sometimes downright disgusting dealing with your shit. But if you are in this work to truly be there for others, then you have to sit in the damn mud while feeling it all, and LOTUS ON! It’s been an absolute eye opener to see who sticks around when shit gets weird. I’m also fucking stoked on the people I have been meeting in the last month. Crucial new minds and real deal folks that want to do the work. It feels good. And peace to the rest. I have no ill will towards them, just love, and freedom to move onward.

Looking forward to Jupiter in Libra….NEXT! HA!

XOXO

The lotus reference is a la how the lotus looks so serene and beautiful because it sucks its sustenance from the gunk at the bottom of the pond. The more gunk – the smoother and brighter the petals. Concrete over that crap (the defeats, the failings, the pain, the sleaze, the regret, the trauma ghosts, the whatever) and no lotus.

Another metaphor that feels apt for Mars nearing the end of his long trek through Scorpio is the emergence from a journey through a dark forest, stately and ancient but still scary. I feel like the amount of personal demon battling and psychological muck raking most of us (society, arguably, also) have been doing is intense.

Thoughts?

Jung

 

Dark Forest

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Allyleoaqua
Allyleoaqua

I love you mystic. I moved to Austin tx about 3 years ago, it’s been a really lonely and dark time, sort of a lot of people making me feel like I’m not worth it… I have had to choose myself and love myself dearly, recent changes include a baby kitten with an actual arrow marking on her back, her name is “arrow” a self care routine that I honestly never thought would be so rigorous, I got a little face brush that looks like a dry skin brush, it’s a game changer, and a serious commitment to attending classes… Read more »

ChiMM Member
Chi

Crash testing astro hacks while ive got the net active x

ChiMM Member
Chi

And gemini can now sing two nursery rhymes xoxox

ChiMM Member
Chi

Ok per jason bournes us passport dob is virgo 27 August, but after a quick fact check online, now i want to know more!

vikingwoman
vikingwoman

Day 3 of a 30 day parasite cleanse. Serious muck. (Inspired by my husband’s colonoscopy in a few weeks, I suggested a colonic to him before the event. I then thought I should have a go but do the cleanse beforehand).

So yes. I expect to get some surprising “downloads” in the next 30 days. Lol

VSLR
VSLR

Mars over on my 2nd house. No wonder money has been so hard to sort out. heard back from a really good job I gained an interview for. Beat 169 people to be in top 6 so they said dont be disappointed. Trying to get out of my current job/charity I work for. Qi vamps the lot of them. Its draining but means I can pay my bills. So much jealousy, pettiness, unprofessional attitudes/work ethic. I always get the interview but never the job. This must have happened over a dozen time and now it just feels like I am… Read more »

Saoirse Kirke
Saoirse Kirke

Where’s a PUCA when you need one?

VSLR
VSLR

Forgive my ignorance, what does PUCA mean?

Saoirse Kirke
Saoirse Kirke

Search here for plutonic uranian career advisor. Genius.

Saoirse Kirke
Saoirse Kirke

He’s one, and not an ignorant question.

TripleLMM Member
TripleL

I have Neptune in Scorpio 6th sq Saturn on Pisces Midheaven natally. I think my whole life has been an unbalanced, balancing act between delusion/addiction-glaring reality. Ever since the April 2014 GCC flashpoint, I have been doing the personal demon, hard yards. I come from a long & inauspicious germline of highly functioning alcoholics/living on the streets alcoholics. I won’t even go into what lousy choices I have made in men over the years. Chasing after those unavailable types has been my modus operandi. After being a pretty heavy drinker for over half of my life, I am able to… Read more »

PiMM Member
Pi

Hey Mystic you were freakin right about the interesting communique. 0_0 Mercury trine uranus *trine my descendant* FTW. how-evah……………. I had to turn down the offer (some may recall my self inflicted emo sandstorm re the capricorn) because of current Pi-oriented big-up lifecommitments which are part of the scheme where I relocate my feet and solar plexus after the whole Scorpio era. Part of me feels like drop-everything-and-go was the Right Thing To Do, i wonder if uranus retro and then back will Do Stuff. best thing is, mars residency in scorp means i barely dgaf any more in all… Read more »

PiMM Member
Pi

oh dear, freudian typo?
“Part of me feels like drop-everything-and-go was _NOT_ the Right Thing To Do, ” i mean

ChrysalisMM Member
Chrysalis

OMG Pi was it from the Cap?? He took his time. That’s Caps for you, lol

PiMM Member
Pi

Chrysalis I am learning something from this, if I’m so caught up that I end up feeling like it’s a hall of mirrors, it IS a hall of mirrors and I need to reflect on myself… Not other person… Well to a point i guess.

Pegasus
Pegasus

The art work on today’s scopes blew me away. As a subscriber for aeons, the art work seduced my LIbran Moon immediately when i is saw the blog. It was a true sacred space when sacred places were being deemed sacred by mucho preparation and saying the words. Global Angst have had global angst since ’95 and my Doc said take a valium but i knew about the gyn-ecology theory. That when the Ascention-ists (sp?) appeared and a call for planetary midwives for the rebirthing of Giaia. 20 years later and i have Chopra’s Life after Death-the burden of proof… Read more »

jennaleighMM Member
jennaleigh

Oh my god.

I can’t, nor do I have time for people that make me feel like I am hard to love.

ChiMM Member
Chi

It’s like a storm and now has settled, or like when a scared possum comes out of the bushes into the open. i feel calm waters now.
xoxox

ChiMM Member
Chi

Wise words, thanks

GeminianMM Member
Geminian

‘I can’t, nor do I have time for people that make me feel like I am hard to love.’

Wise words, wise counsel. Thank you for filling my cup. Let the phoenix rise x

virgosunMM Member
virgosun

I also have mars in scorpio in my chart. Does that mean I get a double whammy?

Laura
Laura

Love this <33

A_J_MM Member
A_J_

No mud, no lotus.

Kgpisces77
Kgpisces77

Jaysus Mystic – just when I think I cannot love your posts and writings any more than I do – out you come with this absolutely amazing post!!

ChrysalisMM Member
Chrysalis

No mud, no lotus… apt for me as I deal with Mars through my 4th and coming to terms with certain family of origin issues. This past week I’ve been using the analogy of a bucket of merde to describe what I came into the world with. If there is something good to come out of my recent 4th house trials it’s that I am more resolved than ever to somehow turn my mud into a lotus. I’ve also completely lost interest in Blue Devil. It probably won’t last but right now I feel like I never want to drink… Read more »

aquasunrise
aquasunrise

What a great realisation. A really good committment to you.
Now, only if I could get to the bottom of my vice…neptune, delusions, oh yes that’s right, impossible and unrealsitic idealism! lol, Is there a withdrawal program for that one?

Scorpie
Scorpie

Haha. Neptunian delusions.

This Neptune/ Saturn square has been a doozy! And here I was thinking “oh nothing to do with me”.

Pffft I have Neptune conjunct Sun!
Lucky it’s in the 10th house so when the planets align I can channel into my work but I wouldn’t be human if delusional love zombie issues didn’t pop up. Especially with Venus in libra. In love with the idea of love *sigh*

ChrysalisMM Member
Chrysalis

Hey babe great to see you around!
Yeah the square has been tough, squaring my sun and oh yes well on the other side there is Pluto/Uranus being squared also, plus on my IC and opp my MC.
I’m doing bodywork, exercising, paying down my mortgage. What more does Saturn want from me?? 🙂

JokermanMM Member
Jokerman

Mars left my 4th a few weeks ago. It is much happier in the 5th, despite the Scorpio lag.

AnkhRising8.0
AnkhRising8.0

“Im here to do my work, not be part of a fucking spiritual fashion show.” Preach!

PiMM Member
Pi

like Competitive Wellness. one is never cleansed enough. long live the New Puritanism lol

AnkhRising8.0MM Member
AnkhRising8.0

A witch’s work is never done.

sphinxMM Member
sphinx

😀

davidlMM Member
davidl

Yeah, the previous mars retro was in my 4th and I became melancholic and for the the first time in my life a little depressed, my babies are all growing up, I’ve spent the last 20 years raising them and now what will I do ? … so at the beginning of this one I thought ok, it’s mainly in my 5th and 6th so maybe it will be a little easier ? Nope. It really has been difficult, in ways I’m not sure I can even describe ? Basically this ram has felt quite stuck. My usual Aries skill… Read more »

JokermanMM Member
Jokerman

“To be a rock, and not to roll”
LZep

davidlMM Member
davidl

That’s profound P, exactly where I’m at.

aquasunrise
aquasunrise

Well there’d be some here who probably recognised they wanted children but could not have them; circumstances, relationships, etc. I have friends, beautiful people who would have been wonderful parents and it just did not occurr, yes and maybe for important reasons…someone I met had a hysterectomy in her thirties after three kids, and she is devastated…I could only have one; doctors orders no more as mortal risk. Solution: creativity in me. Lol, we have this awol neighbour who keeps having children, each with a different father, but she loves her kids, they are really loved, in all her capacity…in… Read more »

PiMM Member
Pi

Maybe just chill and read some good books. Maybe with Chiron and Uranus all up around your Sun MC etc this is time to become a Teacher.

davidlMM Member
davidl

Chill and read a book 🙂
Omg that’s what I’m talking about. Noooo !! Sitting by the heater in my slippers with a nice cup of tea.. Please help me god it’s worse than I thought !

Ampersand
Ampersand

Add it to the list, son, add it to the list (see below).

Ampersand
Ampersand

It is a pity that you’re not a middle-aged woman, like me, because then this ennui would probably not be happening. This is because you spend vast amounts of your spare time plucking new and surprising hair out of your own face because otherwise you would look like Chewbacca, and have little left for anything else.

Any other men in the house? Lol

PiMM Member
Pi

David. Chill. This is me talking. 9th house Pi with a 4th house phobia. Books, as a Life Concept, imho, do the following: refresh by sending us into the worlds of others feed new ideas into our minds are conversational fodder for you-never-know-who-will-appear inspire, expand, educate, move, deepen, shift etc. Lets you stop, breathe, gives you time to absorb the little intuition particles that are floating around. you ignored the part about the teacher option btw 😛 I don’t nec mean school teacher. don’t you have uranus transiting all your aries stuff now, and soon to be on whatever you… Read more »

davidlMM Member
davidl

I always count my blessings Pi x and at your age I had none of it. No partner, no money, nothing. The day I decided like you that none of it would ever happen I met my partner and the rest is history. If there is anyone here I pray will find it, it’s you honey.
Truly x you know I adore you. It’s coming x

venus
venus

you just got lucky David. It’s hard to meet people in this Tinder / online dating world where nobody is really interested in getting to know someone because there’s always another option not too far away.

CleverUserIDMM Member
CleverUserID

^^^^^ so much this. i’m too old to be single in this new world paradigm. Hi David. Nice to meet you. I would give the world to be where you are at. My advice would be to start combing through all those hopes and dreams you had as a kid and start fulfilling them. do stuff like jumping out of airplanes, or backpacking through costa rica, idk, jump into adventure i say. that’s what i would do. there’s so much life to be lived, and you’ve got a lot of the mundane neatly accomplished, that stuff so much of us… Read more »

PiMM Member
Pi

oh yeah also i never said you had to be at *home* while reading : P

Ampersand
Ampersand

I think maybe you’re struggling with too much choice? For ages I was only able to use a computer at work, so I couldn’t look at everything on the internet that I wanted to (not that I am into anything dodgy but I was just trying to be a good employee and not take the piss). I kept thinking “If you were at home you could surf to your heart’s content, how fab that would be”. Then I got my own computer and I sat down and looked at the screen and thought “You can look at anything you want”,… Read more »

davidlMM Member
davidl

i know one thing about myself , I’m the worst teacher you can imagine ! You know when someone starts at a new job and they give you a sort of mentor to show you the ropes. Well when I worked in those environments I was always the last person the boss would choose to mentor. The poor souls that I was given would either run screaming in tears from the building on the first day or be found huddled and shaking in the bathroom. No, I’m truly ruly an Aries. I can only lead by example. I’m the one… Read more »

Ampersand
Ampersand

Hahaaa, your post. OMG D’s a raging meth addict, bwa ha. Oooookay, so not a teacher then huh?! Scratch that one. I know, write down a list of stuff under a title “There’s No Fucking Way” and see if there’s anything left afterwards?

No I don’t remotely think you should get over it, I see your pain, I have Chiron in Aries 😉

PiMM Member
Pi

Love the no fucking way list. clarifying what we totes don’t want is also enlightening!

Ampersand
Ampersand

It worked for me. On mine it says “Cannot work in an office” which scratches out at least two thirds of the jobs. But it is true, I cannot.

sphinxMM Member
sphinx

You are the lotus go suck on mud.
Haha. You know, either feed the homeless or go get into the Aya and ask the Vine of Souls what she advises.
Do you want to hear you can go home!? Maybe find a way to do that from here and support that aspect of self?
😉

PiMM Member
Pi

Why don’t you choose a different substance every month, but make it an illicit-but-allegedly-mind-expanding substance. hit it a few times then write up a fresh blog post or get a mate to film you / interview while under the influence, hey bam new TV series you could call it 56-down (instead of 7-up) (or however old you are)
make sure you list me in the credits (co produce/ writing credits k thx)

Ampersand
Ampersand

Looking forward to the ayahuasca one.

marsbar
marsbar

I have a Saggo friend dealing with the empty nest thing and he just loves his new found freedom. He and his wife have gotten even closer and have returned back to their old passion of rock climbing together. Maybe revisit old things that were on backburner if they still resonate for you?

JokermanMM Member
Jokerman

I tried clock rhyming
but didn’t have the timing
I’m a poet
& hadn’t factored that in.

davidlMM Member
davidl

Not an empty best thing yet, one is travelling, the other 3 still live here with varying needs. When the nest is empty we will go bush, up north somewhere and days will be spent hiking, camping, exploring. That time will come, but right now I still need to earn a living to pay for school fees etc, and continued support of 3 teens. I know it sounds weird that with all my blessings I feel stuck but I just wanted to express it to say to people that although on the surface a lot of people in my situation… Read more »

Ampersand
Ampersand

It’s still transition time for you then, Uranus in Aries being all about transitions, and it does like to go into reverse a few times like a truck running over your head, just so it can make sure you really.really.really Get It. So you can see a time when all the kids will be gone but it’s not happening just yet. I reckon things might feel better when Uranus gets into Taurus, then you might be able to actually build/do something else, that you are currently only able to think about as a concept. Are you at all frightened or… Read more »

davidlMM Member
davidl

No feelings of surprise etc, just looking back and thinking I always wanted to change the world and even had my chances ! I still have that dream.
its a bit like I ended up with everyone else’s dream 😉

davidlMM Member
davidl

North node 4th house , Libra !!!!!

Ampersand
Ampersand

What’s your wife up to for the next twenty years? Perhaps you can start up a world-changing organisation from home with her. 🙂

sphinxMM Member
sphinx

I think you are the perfect age/position in life/energy level to take on local politics and start a grass roots movement that will catch like wildfire and cause despair in many older people. Hail Davidl! Long may you reign!

davidlMM Member
davidl

Hmmm, I can’t tell you how many people have suggested politics !
Friends, family, even my local politician!
Thanks for your encouragement Andy x

sphinxMM Member
sphinx

Change the world a little bit – inspire a LOT 😀 4th House is the realm of the home and hearth – Libra is the politician’s golden key to the Door of Public Service. Destiny in Aries to shine and lead with charisma and mental panache! You know you got it, 😉

Ampersand
Ampersand

What Sphinx said ^^^

cynthiaMM Member
cynthia

The last Mars/Saturn cycle was initiated in August 2014 at 17 degrees Scorpio. We are in the final culminating phase of this cycle and the next Mars/Saturn cycle begins in late August at 9 degrees Sag

TripleLMM Member
TripleL

Def worthwhile info for me – thanks for imparting it, cynthia. Thumbs up, & a wink.

marsbar
marsbar

YAsss! Fuck the spiritual fashion show! So true! Right now coming face to face with an ugly relationship truth about myself. It has been so long since I have been in a sane relationship with someone that I am fighting feelings of boredom, wanting to rock the boat, and to break up. I am so used to drama, so used to having to same someone (or myself), so used to uproar and volatility that being in a normal relationship is now frightening. I am like a shelter cat that has survived an abuse scenario and placed in a normal home.… Read more »

dizzarinaMM Member
dizzarina

It may sound cliché, but you really are halfway there by seeing it exists at all.

marsbar
marsbar

Thanks! It was kind of a shitty sudden feeling of being in a scooby doo sort of movie and unmasking the villain only to find it was you all along. But now to find a kriya or whatever to speed changes along…

gogengoMM Member
gogengo

This is speaking to me on so many different levels – I have Uranus at 23 Scorpio + Mars has been hitting me hard As I write this, a wildfire blazes just miles from my home, a home in which I have lived for almost ten years. To watch these mountains go up in flames is a frightening but what I’m hoping will be a cleansing experience. It looks like a war zone outside but no mud no lotus!! I keep reminding myself that this is the work of KALI MA!! Re: self-care – I teach yoga full time and… Read more »

rachelMM Member
rachel

This is very apt for me as my recently solar return was the day of the most recent moon/neptune conjunction–and I in fact did drink too much alcohol and had a terriblevery clear hangover the next day and am resolved to abstain from alcohol for at least one solar return and check back in at that point–perhaps quitting for good? I have been doing my numerology based on my birthday every year for the past few years, just really got into doing my solar return chart though. So this past year I was having a number 2 year based on… Read more »

sphinxMM Member
sphinx

We have 70 more years of Kali Yuga to go.
There is much in the way of helpful warning from our ancestors about the 29,920 year journey and its impact on us as our Sun & co. completes its journey around the central Sun.
This is the life journey of the stars who have their own ascents and descents, their own ‘natal charts’ and transits that create our macrodestiny.

rachelMM Member
rachel

I lived with some (rather intense and tunnel-visioned) Bhakti folks who insisted that Kali Yuga was still on for like, many thousands of years.

The whole scene was very cult-like and thus I am somewhat like, not super into getting into all of that, LOL.

It is very fascinating though, and I very weirdly know about a US politician who is (secretly) a devotee of the spiritual master as the entire farm suddenly was instructed by said spiritual master to run her campaign in 2012…

sphinx
sphinx

Yes, I am more interested in the bigger cycles that govern our planet etc. is more my point. I certainly don’t have exact dates! I just like the idea that we are subject to even greater ideas and cycles than the smaller transits we study here.

Mm
Mm

This: “And honestly the sadness for the fleeting friendships and changing scenarios is passing too. I can’t, nor do I have time for people that make me feel like I am hard to love.”

Thank you x

ICPlutoMM Member
ICPluto

Only last week I was listening to a discussion of the concept of enantiodromia. Right there, I was reminded that “the way up and the way down are the same.” Which, I believe, based the Jungian notion that every descent is followed by an ascent. All becoming is circular. It may sound simple, but it was a fiat lux moment for me.

Saoirse Kirke
Saoirse Kirke

That word!

Thank you icpluto

astraeagoldMM Member
astraeagold

‘And peace to the rest. I have no ill will towards them, just love, and freedom to move onward.’

Yup. A lot of forgiving – of some significant folks, and of myself – with thanks for the time we had, no more need to dwell on the hurt that led to the parting of ways.

Rather, realising that the clock is not about to be turned back, that is fine, deeply fine. We can all just move right along.

And somehow it all just washed away. Like a mud facial, leaving soft new skin underneath.

dizzarinaMM Member
dizzarina

God I just love this post, Mystic. Including the images!

“nor do I have time for people that make me feel like I am hard to love.”
This really resonated. Sometimes my family makes me feel this way. But then other times I think this is just my own projection onto them.

Man, these days I feel like I’m living in a hall of mirrors.

sphinxMM Member
sphinx

We are creating the world around us as much as partaking of the world as created by others. Mirrors need to be blasted away!

I suppose accepting the idea we are hard to love is one of the biggest dangers to our ego possible? When we are running at best on the power of light and love that concept can really drag us down.

dizzarinaMM Member
dizzarina

I suppose the middle way would be to accept the parts of ourselves that are hard to love (seeing that very clearly these days!), and forgiving yourself for them, as you forgive others.

sphinx
sphinx

Yes, I understand that feeling of clear self awareness too. I do feel my Asc is meeting people ahead of my conscious mind a lot lately. What is your Asc again Dizzarina? The hack about the 1st house really got me thinking how it is such a pivotal one..

dizzarinaMM Member
dizzarina

It’s Leo, so getting lots of action lately (the Asc that is, not me).

What an interesting idea, about the Asc meeting people before the conscious mind does!

marsbar
marsbar

Oh goodness! You just reminded me that my mom said something about me being hard to love the other day, but i zinged her with a , i guess you better try harder lazy slacker since you made me. I told that to a capricorn of all non-lazy peoples…. Lol. This was after there was a shouting match on the front lawn in front of the neighbors about where i was going on a sunday night at 8 pm. Saturn finger to the air mudra for you mom when you treat your closer to 50 y.o daughter like a crazy… Read more »

CentaurusMM Member
Centaurus

Capricorn mum and a Capricorn Mars, Venus, Moon and you just took me for a flash ride back to my teens Mars! OoooEeee 😀 Now with a different head on…. I said earlier up this post that what others say says more about themselves than it does the person they say it to. So.. projections and mirrors yes. We all have bits of ourselves we find hard to love. These can either be embraced, pushed away to become projections and unloved or we can work on integrating every part of us into the whole. Honestly… even the shittiest bits of… Read more »

JokermanMM Member
Jokerman

CT, your first sentence in the last (major) parargraph explained projections soooo succinctly. I I have searched for the meaning of projections and nothing nailed it like your explanation. Most of what I’ve read got/getz bogged down in too much psycho-babble that they did not get their message across. You said it straight and simple.

Thanks

CentaurusMM Member
Centaurus

Hehe that’s lovely and you’re welcome PF 🙂

I have been known not to ‘ramble on’ and just nail it. Sometimes the nuggets of gold are buried in a well of words but I understand for some folk they like it straight up with no sides. The ups/downs of a Mercury rets.

Still truth is truth is truth (irrespective of message or messenger) and it ALWAYS has a ring to it (imo and just truth :smile:)

Ampersand
Ampersand

“i guess you better try harder lazy slacker since you made me.”
Oh to be a fly on the wall for that. Well done.

CentaurusMM Member
Centaurus

What a ride! Well.. perhaps that sounds a bit too upbeat! What a crawl through the damp floor of that forest broken only with the glimpses of light and the edges by scaling the occasional tree to orientate. Bruised knees, skinned shins then dense darkness thins and we squint at the brightness off the sun. Man have I missed my Saggi joviality. Saturn ain’t helping but I have enough 8th action anyway so I am looking forward to Mars out of Scorp and back across my Sun soon.. again. And who knew I’d be saying that? The upshot is this… Read more »

sphinxMM Member
sphinx

Liking this description of crawling through a damp dark forest. Though its felt like the sysiphus backpack was on and I had a broken leg too to drag too.

Feeling a bit Sansa post the battle of the bastards. Scarred up and secure in the knowledge no one can protect anyone.
But I did have Saturn in Scorpio on my Moon in the 6th for ages before this too.
Mars was like the military camp after the war.

CentaurusMM Member
Centaurus

Bahahaha… Sansa!

Someone get this woman a splint for her leg!

IMMEDIATELY!

That is an ORDER!

No! Get her a chariot! Pulled by Arabian Stallions and laden with soft Marrakesh cushions, silk shade and refreshments!

That is an ORDER!

I had the Neptune ride.. 7th.. well, actually we shared it 😉

sphinx
sphinx

🙂 A splint and silk plumped chariot sound really good about now, thankfully i am somewhat on the mend. That Neptune ride, nothing like Saturn on Neptune for a freezing cold glacial wake up call. x.

Cardinal QweenMM Member
Cardinal Qween

“What a crawl through the damp floor of that forest broken only with the glimpses of light and the edges by scaling the occasional tree to orientate. Bruised knees, skinned shins then dense darkness thins and we squint at the brightness off the sun.”

All of this!!!!!

CentaurusMM Member
Centaurus

That must have been you I spotted in the distance at that last tree dreamyj 🙂

FireTryin'MM Member
FireTryin'

Yep, all of that. Mars in Scorpio has been squaring off my natal Mars and Sun for EVER. Just keep lotus-ing along. There’s an extended, drawn-out, OUCH written in my journal this morning. So yes, I’m feeling the pain. I’m looking forward to a time where my internal milieu is not all sturm und drang. Because, I need more than a minute of peace each week. Self-care hack that I think is of saving some of my sanity–I finally bought a sleep mask. I have not slept through the night for years. YEARS of waking between 2-4am, if not earlier… Read more »

PiMM Member
Pi

Oh yes. These things are gold. I have been using an airline mask or soft scarf tied around my eyes. Helloooo diy blackout. Zzzzzz

Lux Interior Is My Co-PilotMM Member
Lux Interior Is My Co-Pilot

I had the BIGGEST fuqing relelation last week. So amazing. I have saturn in secretive scorpio, so it’s not like I’m gonna write it all over the interwebs but yeah….talk about seeing the light after churning through the muck!!!!!

Finally in a position (mindset) where I can BE the lotus.

PiMM Member
Pi

i want to describe it as a kind of psychological digestive process. it wasn’t / isn’t a “cutting away” or a process of discrimination. everything recirculates in the same place and becomes increasingly murky and foetid until you start to realise what are the nutrients and what is the crap. so to speak.

aquasunrise
aquasunrise

Yes I agree. What are the nutrients? What is the crap, indeed? Maybe I have it all back to front? People say for marriage better or worse, etc, well this year I discovered I didn’t really even have any vows of potent meaning, to me, it just seemed a show, or public display…my husband was in a “public relations drive” to a huge audience…an in-law of his family designed our rings; it seemed all very sudden, his decision. So we married hurriedly in disagreement spiritually; he out of pragmatism, me out of romance and hope…he endures all, I am constantly… Read more »

Leo on the RiseMM Member
Leo on the Rise

O MY SHITTING GOD WHO IS THIS FABULOUS WOMAN MYSTIC?????

The Venus FlyMM Member
The Venus Fly

Yep.

No wonder the five planet Aries with his Moon in Scorpio and Mars in Kataka had intense depression the last year. That’s a LOT of cosmic stimulus! I did the work when the eclipses triggered me so I’m kinda coasting yet desiring some epic adventure 🙂

CleverUserIDMM Member
CleverUserID

you know, i have always understood, intellectually, the no mud, no lotus concept, but frik, this year has been hard. pretty much EVERYTHING i have known has been stripped away, and i have become a walking “ain’t nobody got time for that” meme. life has been utter shite. lots of mud and sitting in the gunk and rising, rising, rising, waiting to bloom. its been excruciating. really glad to know it’s not just me and there’s alight at the end of the tunnel, because this is REALLY wearing thin. i have a bunch of scorp in my chart, wondering how… Read more »

LauraMM Member
Laura

Oh hey, are you having a Pluto conjunct Moon transit too?!

CleverUserIDMM Member
CleverUserID

i’m not really knowledgeable enough to know how to figure out if i am or not … :-/ i’m quite the newb to all this.

LauraMM Member
Laura

Aw yes, thank you. No mud, no lotus x

Tansaway
Tansaway

Carl Jung – what a legend!

melissa cornell
melissa cornell

oh my gosh mystic. yes!

Aqua-cap-GeminiMM Member
Aqua-cap-Gemini

I literally had the same “self care & increase of psychic powers” self conversation on the way to work this morning. I’ve been doing a juicing-reset the last 4 days and I notice the difference. I eat pretty clean as it is, but had been emo-ing out on the chocolate-sugary-chip-variety of placatory substances lately. Totally not like me at all.
Great post mystic

JokermanMM Member
Jokerman

“Frankie Lee & Judas Priest” is the Bob song for this hack.

” “It’s not a house”, said Judas Priest,
It’s not a house, it’s a home”

JokermanMM Member
Jokerman

Shoulda been on hacks.

PiMM Member
Pi

Yes I’m in with the forest thing.
It’s been weird.

scorpiodawnMM Member
scorpiodawn

and hello mars in my 7th! which is scorpio. one more month….(tries to keep head down, lol)

VenusRulesMM Member
VenusRules

Just arrived in my 7th today, as Uranus goes retro. Goodbye endless 6th house grind and workplace irritation!

baristagemMM Member
baristagem

Totally!

scorpiodawnMM Member
scorpiodawn

this resonates. had to block my best friend from my fone and fbook. she got shitty coz i wouldnt give out a fone number without asking the guy first. then it escalated. im kinda glad coz im not sure if i want to see her anymore…but man it really got my adrenaline up. hate confrontation, but sometimes u cant avoid it, its real life. feel sorry for her in a way-shes never had to take responsibility for anything…and shes struggling now. difficult conversations…i have things i wanna say to her that i wonder if theres a way forward afterwards..or mayb… Read more »

sphinxMM Member
sphinx

Yes.. My bestie has been depressive and isolated herself from me while we both have small kids who like each other and husbands who get along. But our relationship has been feeling like something that is tolerated by her no matter how hard I have tried. We have not spoken for five months after I expressed poorly via text my upset. At first I felt so upset but I just can’t be half a friend or today 3/4 a friend, or tomorrow 1/4 because that is all she can handle. I did my best to serve her faithfully and be… Read more »

scorpiodawnMM Member
scorpiodawn

yeah…its all new territory for me…tricky waters…

sphinxMM Member
sphinx

Peace to us all! I get it feeling more Saturn too. It’s like Mars is an physio therapeutic echo of Saturn doing his Scorpio surgery last year.

scorpiodawnMM Member
scorpiodawn

yeah peace to us all

BlueLady
BlueLady

“… nor do I have time for people that make me feel like I am hard to love”
Yes!!! This!!!
Have had some serious acceptance to do around family member behaviour and treatment of me. A psychologist asked me recently why I would be concerned with what a “redneck and a hypocrite” think of me? Whilst not one to enjoy labelling people as a rule, to have it put so bluntly really helped me remove myself more from needing the approval of others, who I don’t respect anyway.
Interesting times ?

Ampersand
Ampersand

“I really believe that we are going through some serious evolution right now as a species” YES! We are moving from 3rd density into 4th, and if we do the work we will be rewarded with things magical from beyond the veil. It’s a spiritual ascension. I’m trying to raise my vibration, and to be a positive person to be around, a kind person, someone who smiles at people in the street. I mean I always have done this, but it was in a no-boundaries kind of way, I let myself be open to all sorts of abuse as a… Read more »

Ampersand
Ampersand

AND ANOTHER THING lol The picture of the forest….. ooh god. Did anyone have awful nightmares during Mars in Scorp (and Saturn)? The picture reminded me of a dream I had about Stephen King’s Pet Sematary, where I was the one climbing over the pile of bones. Had loads of dreams of things falling on me, rocks, trucks. One thing I learned about all this Scorpio is that you don’t have to say things with WORDS. Simply moving away from the bad scene is enough. Words can be used against you. I am a particular fan of the Mystic mantra,… Read more »

BlueLady
BlueLady

Love your strategy! Reminds me of the “Grey Rock” approach I came across when looking for ways to deal with the narcissist ex – just be as boring as possible, no reaction, no taking the bait, and eventually they move on to another target where they get the reaction they’re after! ?

Ampersand
Ampersand

Haha, yes I have head about Grey Rock too! Glad it worked for you. Strategies good. I hit up the “What would Sun Tzu do?” quite often on the oracle. Useful. I love doing vague. I’ve got a Vague Bingo grid in my head and if I can check them all off that means I have won. My husband enjoys sending them up, which is quite amusing too. If they say something critical he now says (in a sort of John Inman from Are You Being Served voice: “Ooh, well that’s ME told off!” You can literally see my father… Read more »

JokermanMM Member
Jokerman

Xmas IS the bs time of the year. Such a fuqn faux foney frivolous freakshow in a frenzy fit frazzle fest.

Esp if it is not snowing in 43°C heat and you can’t sing carols like Deutcheland’s singing sensation, Heintje. More like you were grateful for hospitals being open over the silly season bcos your head met a door-jamb at high speed.

Ampersand
Ampersand

B/S you got that right. Especially when the Easter eggs and valentines shit come out on Boxing Day.

AlouettaMM Member
Alouetta

Great plan! Years ago I got sick of the plastic bullshit of Xmas with the folks, so I now do it every second year (or less) and the rest of the time I enjoy an ‘orphan’s xmas’ with friends. Have fun in Spain!

Ampersand
Ampersand

Muchos gracias! I love an orphan’s xmas too, I’ve had some brilliant ones. Best one, I was 20, still in college but couldn’t face going home. Egg and chips for lunch because you’re all skint, huddled in one room over one bar of the electric fire, where we did a secret Santa, the rules being that you had to buy your gift from the local petrol station. I got King skins, a mars bar and some screenwash. I didn’t own a car.

CentaurusMM Member
Centaurus

Power to you A.

I always find selective audiences best for somewhat taboo topics unless I’m in the mood to rattle a cage. I always find it helpful to remember that a person’s response says more about them than what it says in response to what I/you said. And when the you insert ‘parent’ with ‘ex of theirs.. awful neighbour, qi vamp they know etc then the position becomes completely valid eh.

Christmas can be a headache and to that end who was the idiot who decided we need to do it in July as well? Pfft

Ampersand
Ampersand

Thanks a lot, it really helped to read that. Yeah it kind of blows my mind when I describe what has happened, and if that was a husband of mine doing those things they would grab my arm and shove me in the direction of the women’s shelter and slam the door behind me, but if it’s your parents it is somehow ok and the onus is on you to do the sorting. It is a mind-fuq when your parents are spreading lies about you to anyone who will listen, about how you are mentally ill and promiscuous and were… Read more »

CentaurusMM Member
Centaurus

Yes there are some great people here and YOU are one of them Ampersand. Glad to have helped 🙂 and I hope you don’t give it a second thought whether you’ve shared here/there too much or ‘banged on’. I definitely didn’t want to invoke that strain of thought in you ad don’t think that matters one bit but yes, here is safer than other places. I think it can come down to people generally having trouble understanding some things they haven’t personally experienced and then only being able to imagine the situation from their own standpoint. So…that just helps to… Read more »

Ampersand
Ampersand

Thanks love, and no you didn’t invoke that feeling in me, it is my persistent over apologising about taking up space in the world, I’m going to work on that. Also, I think I have been conditioned into being “over truthful” after a lifetime of mother being like the gestapo. I like what you said about non-disclosure being like a form of self-care. I have to shake the feeling that keeping some things to myself is dishonesty. It is actually best for myself and best for all, I get you about the personal experience thing. Lots to think about from… Read more »

JokermanMM Member
Jokerman

I coulda written that.
Duh! Disclosure again

PiMM Member
Pi

Vibe crushing and stuff. Moving, not needing words. All yes. Yes yes yes. It hadn’t occurred to me, the scorp thing not requiring words (me being mercurial and all) but with yes that massive scorp transit and other things, this is one realisation I’m much better at now Going away for Xmas is totally a thing. I have friends (I.e.they are a couple) with dysfunctional families and last year they just thought, Fuqit why even bother? So instead had a blissful coupla weeks elsewhere. It’s that easy. Grieving the loss of your parents even tho still living. Oh yes. It’s… Read more »

Ampersand
Ampersand

It is that easy, you are right. I don’t normally do that : action without consulting my other half (Libra Sun, Pluto, Uranus), but it was money I earned that he didn’t know we had, it’s totally paid for and he doesn’t have to worry about taking on extra work for us to be able to do it. I half-consciously saw the spectre of Christmas looming and I worked my bollocks off to get a fund. Mars going Sag, conjuncting my Venus really soon. She’s got a ticket to ride and she don’t care. Yeah it’s a bit of a… Read more »

Ali
Ali

Oh… I think you’re wonderful. Just wonderful. xxx

Ampersand
Ampersand

Ali, you brought a tear to my eye, hope you have a blessed day x

AstroGeekMM Member
AstroGeek

Dude. Muck-raking is an understatement … and yet, I see the benefits in these small, seemingly superficial ways. Case in point, I bought a tiny little pair of track shorts over the weekend and have been wearing them outdoors ever since. 1 – It’s blastedly hot. 2 – I work out and my legs look great. 3 – They don’t even show any cheek. 4 – This is the big one though … WEARING SHORTS OUTDOORS DOESN’T GIVE MEN THE RIGHT TO SAY THINGS TO ME, OR MAKE ME FEEL SELF-CONSCIOUS. I had some fuqed up stuff happen to me… Read more »

PiMM Member
Pi

Ah yeah I get this.

AlouettaMM Member
Alouetta

Oh that’s great! Go you and your short shorts!

AstroGeekMM Member
AstroGeek

Thanks for understanding! 🙂

BLISS WITCHMM Member
BLISS WITCH

Thank you