This is a dispatch from a multi-Sagittarius/Scorp Sun/Ascendant – aka Saturn Central at the moment – subscriber of mine.
With Saturn doing his low ride through my very spacious 12th house for 2.5 years AND crossing over my Scorpio sun AND Scorpio ascendent, I’d taken up residence in a crypt.
Sure, I’d done some nice stuff with the drapes and the furniture but there was zero fun or lightness. I combed over Mystic’s daily dispatches looking for clues about working with Saturn and bingo bango, there was this:
Knowing that complacency does not breed the Awesome. You have to generate the life force yourself; that is the Law of Awesome. Be bold and mighty forces will come to your aid. “Law of Awesome”
And so the following Sunday I found myself busting out of the crypt and at a 5 Rhythms dance class in Sydney. Can I explain how audacious this was for me?
I am no dancer, I have zero grace and my body is all hard angles and uncoordinated limbs. But I was there, along with another 100 or so peeps, all shapes, sizes, ages just to dance and ride the wave of the music. Once I put the monkey mind on pause trying to account for what the fuq I was doing there, I found myself swirling around the room, dancing with strangers, and other times alone.
Two memorable dance moments. At the crescendo of the dance party, I hooked up with some lithe male, easily 15 years younger than me. We were both bathed in sweat and while dancing near each other we moved ever closer to the point where we were intertwined and then dancing in a way that would have been banned in at least 14 states of the USA. It wasn’t sexual, rather, it was sensual and for a few moments I dropped the Saturn skin and just revelled in body to body contact of being supported as I leaned into him and feel him push and pull me against him.
And then this: I had not slow danced with another male since my partner J died back in 2002. Holy cat, J was one hell of a dancer. But as the dance party wound down and the tempo dropped, another fella came into my orbit and we started to slow dance. I so badly wanted to return to my crypt but I hung in there, ugly crying on par with the watershed moment in Truly, Madly Deeply.
Like most life shifting moments (and life shifting can happen in small increments, it does not have to be epic in scope) , I don’t fully understand what this all means but I know the weirder I went with Saturn, the better. Mystic is bang on: the stay stuck and you’re fuqed.
Image: Chuck Groenink
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