Ask Mystic: Leo On The Verge

Miles Aldridge

Dear Mystic,

I can’t help feeling like it’s a stroke of luck that I am (blissfully) ignorant about the aspects and complexities of my chart…other than knowing the I’m a Leo, with Leo Rising and Moon in Gemini.  As I am in possession of particularly active mind and prolifically rampant imagination. Too much insider “knowledge” may just fuel the cognitive fire…it happens!

I wait every day for you to write something about what in the actual fuq us Leos could possibly be in the midst of at the moment because it’s blatantly and oh-so painfully something…
All the Leos I know, myself included and from what I can assertion, IN PARTICULAR are being dragged back and forth through the Swamp of Unrelenting Angst, pulled kicking and screaming through the Brambles of Anxiety, forced to drink from The Cup of Soul-Ravaging Sorrow…you get the drift.
Isn’t Venus *meant* to be awesoming up our vibe??
Hasn’t Mercury stopped it’s backwards thang?

The past week has been,without a doubt, one of the most emotionally and mentally challenging periods of my entire life and THAT is saying something, believe me!
And what triggered this you may ask?
WHO KNOWS!
Did something happen to warrant this level of despair you may wonder?
NOPE!

Look, despite being a Leo, I am a proud, card-carrying and highly functioning Introvert. It’s my extreme sensitivity, my perceptiveness, me being a sponge for anything and everything that makes me need to retreat and regenerate…
But this…the way I’ve been lately is ridiculous and disproportionate and SCARY as Hell!

I’m strong, Mystic.
I feel “stuff” but I dive into it’s heart, process and always emerge stronger, wiser, more wonderfully eccentric and authentically Me.

Not so much this time…
I literally feel ravaged. I feel life my Life-Force is down to less than one bar. My chest bones literally ache. I’m scared…and I don’t get scared. I’m deeply, deeply lonely and I never feel lonely!
And I just don’t feel “it” lifting…

To make things even more harrowing…I’m doing dalliance with a Scorpio Male.
Very early stages, taking it slow because I want to and it’s worth it (for the first time in my bloody life!) and things were progressing so sweetly and openly-honestly-mutual-interest/both-on-the-same-page-ly, then last week…BOOM! A weirdness descended. A distance. A coolness…
In the spirit of honestly and saving face, a conversation was had in which I gave him ample opportunities to pull out, light-hearted get-out-of-jail-free cards were gently handed to him and honest reassurance that if he’s not into this any more, it really is ok and I’d rather know…
But no…he insists he doesn’t want them, doesn’t want an out. HUH???

I know NOTHING of Scorpios, let alone Scorpio men! They are so alien and foreign and from what people have said on forums on here…scary!
I’m trying hard to hand it over…trust…go with the flow. But I find this hard at the best of times and that way I’m feeling at present means it’s so far beyond me.
it almost feels like something isn’t letting me. Every time I “give up”, something happens with him that blatantly says “don;t give up!” You know??

(other delicious morsels include NOT getting a job I absolutely, 100% thought I’s get today, beyond Fuq-ed finances, and not even being able to successfully bake a cake and baking is one of my most awesome SUPER POWERS! *sob*) =reverse Midas touch???

So I’m wondering…
Are any other Leos experiencing this Uber-Angst?
Or am I finally going INSANE?
Or is there “stuff” going on??
But mostly…
Is this going to end soon?
Is this horrible fragility and sadness and confusion and fear going to lift?

Thank you Mystic, so much.
You have no idea how deeply I both need and appreciate your wisdom about this.
I really feel like I’m at my wit’s end.
This is not Me…

And if by chance this gets published…a huge thank you to all the wisdom and love and humor and awesomeness I know I can count on from you ALL 🙂
Plus BIG “I know. I know” Hugs to my Fellow, big-hearted Lions.

Most sincerely yours…
J

Dear J,

Okay so i under-estimated the thwack from that Solar Eclipse in late March and then that was followed up by Saturn moving into forceful aspect to Jupiter in Leo (that little bit of business is done by the end of July – more in the Horoscopes for July up soon) AND Mercury Retro with Mars also in Gemini.

But i thought it was mostly a vortex of crap for the Mutable peeps.  Your peaceful little garden of whimsical Moon in Gemini with Mars trampling all over the gardenias could have felt compromised though. And NEPTUNE square your MOON – which is what the Mercury Retro was triggering  – can really do a number on you. You need to up the YIN.  The acupuncture, the yoga, the sleep, just baseline self-care. Don’t screech around the brambles of anxiety, cultivate your – i don’t know- lotus of serenity.

Okay, so your dilemma – Mercury is out of shadow this weekend and Venus ON Jupiter next week is legitimately excellent. But Saturn lurking in Scorpio challenging Jupiter is, well, there. So the ideas, glam, enterprise and romantic potential of Jupiter is all there but tempered by Saturn in Scorpio demands. That is, to drill deep, get the foundations right, conquer ancient angst and bring your A Game.

So would it help if you could see recent travails as cues evoking just such things?

As for Mr Scorpio, he is probably just gloomy with Saturn in his sign. If he is a Muggle, he would have NO idea. He would have felt “done” in early 2015.  He would have thought certain monsters all conquered. He would have been adjusting his gladiator’s victory wreath but no…what’s that stench of metal and brimstone, oh fuq, the vault is opening again.

Saturn transits are not usually the sort of thing you want to share.

So give Mr Scorpio till Saturn gets out of Scorp/Venus is Direct – aka September and then assess.  Analyze your finances and devise a plan – because that is totally sucking up to Saturn and you will feel more in control once you have a plan, even if you just part pay things. And seriously, the cake?  Maybe your new spirit guide is gluten free?

And, for perspective + inspiration, the genius new Ikea flatpack houses for refugees.

Yes there is a good dimension to Pluto in Capricorn.

What does everyone else think?

Image: Miles Aldridge – Vogue Italia

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BoldLionessMM Member
BoldLioness

Well! I’m a Leo with Libra ascending and Capricorn moon and I feel totally smashed: walking into walls complete with total angst and anxiety up the wazoo! NO LOVE IN SIGHT and this is supposed be my time for THE GREAT ROMANCE!!!! Argh! I am miserable with a fierce tan…. Roar!

LiberatingVenusMM Member
LiberatingVenus

Good for you! People can and do have successful relationships post divorce/LTR – not everyone is a “rebound” per se, but it sounds like the Scorp needs some additional time for self-reflection and to figure out what he wants so he doesn’t give off mixed signals. That’s a big transition; one that takes a lot of self-awareness to navigate through so one doesn’t wind up simply transferring all their “stuff” (read: baggage) onto the next partner. And it *is* a protracted grieving process – you do mourn the loss if the relationship mattered to you at all. So I think… Read more »

JanieBird
JanieBird

Yes, I’ve been divorced for 11 years now and that relationship, my marriage, lasted for 12 years and was my first and only at that stage. (I’m only 41 so as you can see, I got “married” very young). I’ve had a few successful relationships in the past 11 years since the divorce. To me, success isn’t defined by the length of a relationship really. But I AM wise enough to know that the first few years after ending a long term relationship (in his case 14 years) can be a bit of a roller-coaster. So much to process…discovering who… Read more »

JanieBird
JanieBird

Hello again all you wise, generous, lovely people! It’s J here and I just wanted to take a moment to respond properly and also fill you in on a few developments since I actually sent the above post to Mystic last week. Regarding Mr Scorpio first… There are a few things I should mention. 1. while things were progressing really sweetly and slowly and gently (very unlike me and very new but so nice), it hadn’t gotten serious and we hadn’t had *the* conversation about the direction we were heading. It was heading in that direction though… 2. He is… Read more »

misskismet
misskismet

Omg. Worst night ever. Met and slept with a Scorp guy from Tinder two nights ago. I’m gingerly testing the waters of f buddyism. Dude was fit and laidback and nice. I was um… acting like a crazy bitch (stress at work, drank too much). But at least in a fun way. Last night I drank wayyyyyy too much, texted him and realised he was 100m from me. Got mad when he replied a tad too slowly to hang out – marched up to him and slapped him. This a day after he told me he got his mouth punched… Read more »

misskismet
misskismet

I’m a Libran Sun, Capricorn rising, Scorp moon. HOW DID I MANAGE TO FUG UP SO SPECTACULARLY. *buries head in mud*

sphinxMM Member
sphinx

My Scorp Moon helps me do amazing things as well. I am not going to go into detail, but I kind of assaulted an ex in a bar.. we still laugh about it today, lol.

sphinxMM Member
sphinx

Don’t be sad, you sound like a barrel of laughs!

Hey, at least if he sticks about now he will know you at your worst? It can only get better.. 😉

misskismet
misskismet

Aww thanks. I’m mortified and kind of laughing at/majorly annoyed with myself for losing such a catch of a f buddy! It was slightly humiliating though, I was trying to cuddle up to him to say sorry and he was just pushing me away (although he did pinch my cheeks when I put on my puss in boots face) – walked straight away from me and his female friend jumped into his arms right away! I walked off.. 🙁

JanieBird
JanieBird

Oh Babe!!! I shouldn’t be giggling… It’s J here btw… I’m starting to gather that Scorpio men can often VERY much have this affect on us! Seriously! Apart from the guy I mentioned in the original post, I’ve since realised that I do actually know one other Scorp man and he does my FUQing head in! He pushes buttons that I didn’t know existed…gets reactions out of me that are just NOT me! Can make me hysterical and crying after one (insensitive) comment! I can be sensitive but NO ONE causes this reaction in me… I’m trying to be friends… Read more »

sphinxMM Member
sphinx

Run like the wind.

Ms.
Ms.

lol this is exactly what happened with my scorpio moon friend!

BlessingsMM Member
Blessings

Hello Dear J, Dare I say… What I’m getting is, ‘clearly and consciously let go of the guy, and tell him too, and if it’s meant to be, it will be, later.’ You may very well be getting mixed up with his mess and not even know it! Take some time to to stabilize in your “lotus of serenity,” (nice one Mystic!) If it’s meant to be with him, he’ll be back in the scene in the perfect time. If not, you will be thankful of having not had to go down a road that is not for you. Shine… Read more »

JanieBird
JanieBird

Hey, it’s J here…
Well…I have an update for you that I think you’ll like! 😉
about to write about it below…
And thank you so much for your advice and wisdom 🙂 xxx

maru67
maru67

Well, this Leo (Sun, Scorpio Asc.) felt a brief respite and now it’s drudgery again. Work work work, no play, although this is mostly mental. Three steps forward, two steps back.

Mm
Mm

I am a Leo with Scorpio rising so has been a really tough couple of years!! Was soooo excited about zap zone being done and all ready for super positive times so have been a bit shocked by the challenges/emotions of the last month to two months. So I can relate… But there is something at least relieving about knowing you’re not the only one, and it’s not just you making things worse… Last weekend I had a huge meltdown about an ex that broke me beyond all measure last year… One which I felt like I was moving on… Read more »

tw:leoMM Member
tw:leo

i read this last night and still am looking for words. leo sun, gem moon, saggo rising. i feel like the past couple of years have been like this for me and just recently i have found some of my spark again, in part due to meeting new friends who really bring out my extroverted nature. i still feel lost a lot of the time, and apprehensive of progress (because it’s been so long); the “dredge” as hdq put it IS totes fo real. but i think i am on the up & up, especially with all the eureka moments… Read more »

Mm
Mm

Oh I really relate to all that tw:Leo, especially feeling quite lost in terms of who you are… Had a tough situation last year which just left me decimated and trying to rebuild brick by brick but finding myself worried at times I will never feel ease again, that I will always feel a bit lost as to who I am. But this week got some clarity about career and feeling like I have a way forward… I guess the thing about rebuilding one brick at a time is you get to choose which bricks! And I have found bricks… Read more »

tw:leoMM Member
tw:leo

yay! i love this! glad you feel forward-moving! we CAN choose our bricks – and getting comfortable with our shadow side should totally be seen as a good thing, even if it’s scary or hard (or, sometimes, dull!). one of those challenges we have to face in order to evolve!

xx!

JanieBird
JanieBird

HI! It’s J here… The feeling lost bit = YES!!! I mean…I know who and what I am, intimately, but right now I have absolutely NO idea WTF I am meant to be doing (apart from being a parent, but my girls are 15 and 13 now so needing me less…). I’m usually super sure and fired-up and passionate about what to do next, but I feel nothing! I feel completely…lost! So…I’ve asked to be shown and in the meantime I’m just waiting and watching while I sort through and make sense of this fog I’m in. Sighs… Thank you… Read more »

tw:leoMM Member
tw:leo

😀 xx
we’ll find our way!

Bibi
Bibi

Hey J! I’m not as savvy with my chart as some here but like you have my basics together: sun Leo, Aqua rising and moon Scorp. My take is it’s the Saturn fest squaring us cats. We’re not equipped for that kind of energy. It rolls in like thunder and it’s just always THERE! My usual sunny self merged with my rational aqua stillness has been rattled these last two years and I, arrgh, even became cynical. BUT a light went on with a lovely bit of totally surprising love business in October and it’s still in dev. I’ve the… Read more »

hdq
hdq

Girlfriend. You have a Gemini moon and you don’t know your chart?!? Get thyself to google and mind-binge. Nourish it!! You will feel SO much better.
Ruined cake is so mars in cancer – betcha you’ve got something there.
This sudden switch to water energy has been super intense. I still maintain that Saturn in scorp is better than in sagg, but the dredge. The dredge is real, holy shiz.
Many blessings. Your crushingly lonely sliver of a bar of life force is my norm, and it’s not fun. Xxxxxx

JanieBird
JanieBird

Ooh! it says you posted this at 11:11am and I’ve always been haunted by the 11’s. There are lots of theories behind what it means. but I often find that whatever I’m thinking or listening to, or in this case reading, when I see it…I pay extra attention to. So I’m SO going to get my chart done and familiarise myself the fuq with it! 😉 xxx

Prince Stolas
Prince Stolas

Totally OT here, but I am so excited about the SCOTUS voting that gay marriage bans in the U.S. are unconstitutional. I feel like the U.S. might be catching up to the rest of the 1st world soon.

hdq
hdq

I was just about to write the same!! What awesome news to wake up to, and what a fabulous expression of the current astro!! Libra moon even. Whoooooo!!!

tw:leoMM Member
tw:leo

YES!!!

Cher
Cher

Feeling exactly like I am a Leo on the verge..and on the verge of what I do not rightly know…I too have Gem moon and Scorpio lover. I am trying to make ethical choice and get out of a work place where the muggles are not only clueless…but have enourmous power and abuse it…(I can’t even begin to tell them how much I am not….and will never be one of their flying monkeys!)…but unlike J….I am having different vibe from all the angst….like its there but I am not feeling is.. it…meh!?….Rather I feel more honed…sharp….and dangerous…like all it will… Read more »

leolizaMM Member
leoliza

12th H Leo sun/leo rising/venus/uranus here…I’ve only noticed the Jup in Leo as being an weighty issue lol. But as of the last new moon I’ve started trying to be healthier (no bread, more protein etc). It seems in the last few years (with saturn being in my 4th squaring all these lovely things) I’ve been more in hiding…spending lots of time by myself…feeling like something should be happening soon (?dont know what) Today is my venus return in leo…getting my nails done lol, shouldn’t i be winning the lottery?

leolizaMM Member
leoliza

ooh also Jupiter conjunct my Leo Uranus ….

Jokerman
Jokerman

I feel good.

JanieBird
JanieBird

First things first… THANK YOU Mystic for posting my whing-a-thon and for you perspective, guidance, wisdom and advice. So, so much appreciated. But I will elaborate more tomorrow… 😉 Hello Everyone, it’s J here (as in J who put this querie to Mystic) I had planned to write a lovely long reply/update tonight but I’m overwhelmingly zonked and couldn’t possibly put more than two intelligent words together right now… BUT…I just wanted to say thank you to you all, for your wisdom and humor and understanding, for your advice and most all for your empathy and being brave enough to… Read more »

ElectroMM Member
Electro

I think that it’s totally sweet that you did so many personal replies! Keep us posted & I hope it helps to know so many Leos (and other lovelies) have your back 😉

JanieBird
JanieBird

I am so enjoying connecting with you all and I am very grateful for everyone’s input and wisdom and sharing…the least I can do is reply personally.
I just off-loaded an huge blather down there…
More to come later! 😉 xxx

tw:leoMM Member
tw:leo

heheh! <3

VictoriaMM Member
Victoria

Life since January has been crushing, like a heavy immovable object on my chest, says this Sag sun, Leo rising, Virgo moon. FIrst got zinged by zap zone in January, with lingering effects, then, May relationship debacle (called out in Mystic scopes, btw…) As for the anticipated benefit of Venus in Leo, still waiting for it to manifest, quite frankly.

Sassy
Sassy

I feel as though I’ve come to a grinding halt this week too. There was just nothin’ left. After a year of non stop work and and relationship angst which has cured me once and for all of the delusion I need a man, I just went to bed for 3 days and read a book. 3 days off in the middle of the week….totally introverted…I got over the guilt after day 2 : ) Today I woke up with ENERGY and bounced back into DOING mode. Guess I just needed to BE for a while….. I learned something this… Read more »

ladyleo
ladyleo

This sounds so familiar. I’m leo sun, aqua rising . Also introvert. I feel like I’m on a rollercoaster as i navigate through new and interesting possibilities in career, love, life in general really. One day I’m feeling excited, relaxed and comfortable with where everything is going and then, wham! I’m feeling restless, impatient and totally giving in to my feelings of dullness, general blah-ness, wallowing in it, letting myself sink. Love just needs to happen but keeps seeming like it’s getting further and further away. Jupiter and venus in leo seemed like it was going to be the ultimate.… Read more »

ladyleo
ladyleo

actually. I just read my scoped for the weekend and for aqua rising it if you’re looking for the “when will I feel sorted” vibe… and this pretty much sums up what i’ve been hanging out for. A few other comments mentioned they were aqua sun. maybe it’s a leo and aqua thing?

Sammmy
Sammmy

Snap. I’m a Leo sun Aquarius ascendant too (Taurus moon. Mars cancer) and I have looked at the skies and thought, hmm I have seen this before. good things meant to happen ra ra ra. And what happens? I just get a major yearning for something good to happen but life just ticks along per usual. Let’s hope all is Leo’s have get the Midas touch this time!

JanieBird
JanieBird

Hey Gorgeous, J here…
I could have writen that!
Sigh…
Just bloody enough, yeah?
Thank you for sharing, seriously. So great to know its not just me!
Anyway, I’m going to expand/reply tomorrow as I’m so freakin’ tired right now…
Thanks again. xxxx

davidl
davidl

I feel like I’ve been brought to a standstill. For an Aries sun gem riser that’s extremely confusing and painful. The last 18 months have been like a steam train that has slowly but surely run out of fuel. Grinding to a halt over the last 2 months. I’ve become this big chunk of metal sitting on the tracks in the middle of nowhere. Exhaling. Wondering if the universe has given up on me and will just let me sit and rust away. Uranus is just days away from conjuncting my sun. Maybe It can get the fire going enough… Read more »

davidl
davidl

Forgot to mention. Images of women smoking I find extremely hot !!! Not sure why ? I may be at a standstill but nothing stops Aries horn ! Nothing.

Jokerman
Jokerman

I find some women smokin hot

supakaliMM Member
supakali

Freud might have something to say about it

Jokerman
Jokerman

What would he say? I just couldn’t resist the play on words. And channeling S Micallef, “Do you find all ppl equally attractive?”

Ms.
Ms.

femme fatal 😉

Lindsey
Lindsey

Perhaps it’s because I’ve been around the block several times but 99.9% of men are simply NOT worth our very precious time and energy let alone writing to Mystic for help to figure one or any of them out. If someone happens to be in a great relationship with a wonderful man, consider yourself blessed beyond measure, similar to being blessed with incredibly resilient and enduring health. It is RARE ladies. Stop trying to figure them out, stop everything concerning them and focus on YOUR life. Because YOU are your caretaker.

LiberatingVenusMM Member
LiberatingVenus

“99.9% of men are simply NOT worth our very precious time and energy” Respectfully said, I must say that I don’t believe that at all. It would seem to me a bit jaded of a perception. There are worthwhile people out there and I’d hate to generalize like that. But I do agree that if more women were grounded and centered in THEMSELVES rather than having an external locus of identity that constantly revolves around their relationships, this would be a very good thing. It’s all about self love, and as Mary J. would say… https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BvGbmEuV_lA “How can I love… Read more »

Jokerman
Jokerman

86% of generalisations are sweeping statements; the rest are just hyperbole.

Lady L
Lady L

Lindsey, you speak the truth. I second your sentiments wholly and fully. Thanks for stating it so eloquently and concisely!

These are the FACTS. Not everybody likes the truth.

Men are lovely. Relationships take more than ‘lovely’ though.

I so agree with you re: investing in self. Once commitment to own life is in place, it’s wonderful how Life (capital L) and headspace ‘opens up’ for so MUCH MORE than romance/relationship drama.

I dislike drama. Prefer DELIGHT!

Jokerman
Jokerman

To arrive at 99.9% Lindsey must have met and known a 1000 men – @ least (any less indicates fractions of men were involve. Thats hard on the heart for a start! & then find 999 no good you’d have to wonder who is having the difficulty???

As l said an argument based on hyperbole.

Lady L
Lady L

Could Mr Scorpio be draining your energy?

I am old skool when it comes to love matches.

No way Fire Sun (Leo) will ever match long-term with Water (Scorpio).

Fire needs Fire or Air (and vice versa).

Water needs Water or Earth (and vice versa).

ElectroMM Member
Electro

This leo married a virgo. Oopsie.
I needed his earth tho.

skarabMM Member
skarab

Don’t worry luv, this water sign married an air sign aeons ago, and still enjoying to the max. I admire his Airy ways (tho infuriating … er, i mean challenging at times). There are many other variables other than Sun signs for a happy relationship.
The only hard rules i believe in are Truth and Communication and the will to exercise them.

Jokerman
Jokerman

Yes to that as a starting point. Other close planets important as well house on house stuff.

LiberatingVenusMM Member
LiberatingVenus

Oh, the Scorp yo-yo-ing….! Don’t take him at face value, hon – that’s the thing about Sorps; you really can’t. They’ll test you endlessly and a lot of them have a hard time getting over their own compulsion to flex those spellbinding muscles and see just how much power you’ll let them have over you. And they rarely realize this is exactly what they’re doing. Fuq THAT shit – homie don’t play dat! I say withdraw ASAP – make your hot, beautiful little tookus very unavailable and give the boy a reality check. If he gets it, great; if not,… Read more »

JanieBird
JanieBird

Hello, it’s me…Miss J.
I’m about to do a broad reply below but I wanted to say to you that I *think* you’ll be rather pleased by what I have to say re Mr Scorpio!
Thank you for your advise! So resonates… 😉 xxx

LiberatingVenusMM Member
LiberatingVenus

*smooch*

Glad it resonates, hon – will await further deets <3

LeoAscendAriesMoon
LeoAscendAriesMoon

Thank you. Wow There are no Mistakes in Life only Blessing on Blessings.

HoudiniMM Member
Houdini

Leos are ravaged by the Scorpio in Saturn square- that’s how I explain it. We had the Zap Zone, but we also had Saturn squaring our Sun… Like a ruthless sadist making sure our spirit is completely broken. And now we have a final visit to the scene of the crime! Yes, we are on our knees, thank you. As a Leo, I am having a very similar experience. I have been RAVAGED these last couple of years. Thought I was on the road to recovery, resurrection, new starts etc but something was simmering and now it had come to… Read more »

HoudiniMM Member
Houdini

And just wanted to add that most people I know intimately are going through Hell. More like a prolonged, Plutonian descent into the Abyss….. Nothing has been left unchanged.

Ms.
Ms.

There appears to be 2 of us no? 😉

LeoAscendAriesMoon
LeoAscendAriesMoon

Wow You put it perfectly a sadist Returning to the scence of the crime Perfect. Desperate to break your spirit.

ElectroMM Member
Electro

Leo sun, scorp rising, and a bunch of gem planets here. It has been intense. I have been feeling drained lately but it’s the cue to recharge. I’ve been forcing my Sagg moon on myself while also doing the chill things like drawing with pastels and laying in the grass to feel better. We don’t allow ourselves enough time and space to reflect and just not rush around. Even if you can’t afford the reiki or acupuncture or your cakes are a bust, find something else that works. We are always evolving and changing and I just remember that the… Read more »

JanieBird
JanieBird

Hi! Thank you 🙂 (it’s Miss J here…) I’m actually what’s known as a “balanced extrovert” as in, I’m beyond great and vivacious and hilarious in social situations (as long as there’s not too many too close together) but I really need to then withdraw and recharge and process. Most people wouldn’t even guess I’m an into wet because I’m such an obnoxious show-off! ? But I’ve become away that during times like these, when I’m really struggling, I tend to sway a little fat over to the (unbalanced) introvert side. It’s a coping mechanism I think… Anyway, thank you!… Read more »

scalycat
scalycat

You have summed me up again. Are we twins?

ShadowMM Member
Shadow

This is the first time I have contributed and I’m looking forward to Astro Hacks. Ive been following the comments and have been learning as I go but this will be a great.

Cynthia
Cynthia

Forgot to mention, I am a Leo as well, with my Sun, Pluto (Leo) and Mars (Virgo) in the twelfth house, conjunct each other and the ascendant.

Cynthia
Cynthia

Me not so good with words, and am new to better understanding my inner/outer life astrologically, but my intuition, in sensing the zeitgeist and trying to act on it, tells me the following. Letting go of win lose power dynamics by really feeling your pain, the stuff that sucks on your end of it, will help forge new ground. But first you must bury that stale energy in an unmarked grave and cultivate strength in not returning to it. Over and over again, stick it and then feel the results.

JanieBird
JanieBird

Thank you 🙂
Believe me…I have NO problem really allowing myself to feel it all…the pain, the sadness, the unnamed angst, the anger, the anxiety…all of it. It wares me out physically, but boy do I dive right in there! I’m a big believer in the power of submerging oneself right into it. I think it’s very important…
I tend to cry a lot in the shower. I think it’s the water and the cleansing and the washing it all down the drain…letting it go.

Cynthia
Cynthia

Thanks back. Great to have the feel it all and deep encouragement. Pluto has stripped me bare, knowing that I need this application added to my new operating system.

shopgirl26
shopgirl26

My heart hurts for this frustrated fellow Leo. I’m Leo, Virgo Rising, with my Moon in Aquarius. I’m so grateful for this period Leo’s are going through. I remember mystic posting about amazing shit happening soon for us (this was back in Feb) and I knew in my heart of hearts, this was going to happen! My hub and I started in Jan to try (v.v.v casually) for a baby, and by March, we found out we were expecting. I’m taking all I can get during this period Leo’s are having. Wasn’t Saturn around us for quite sometime a few… Read more »

JanieBird
JanieBird

Hello 🙂 It’s J here!
CONGRATULATIONS!
And thank you for your understanding and your genuine optimism. I can really feel
It. Thank you 🙂 xxx

Prince stolas
Prince stolas

Sort of confused by this post. In one section writer is all like…nothing happened to make me all despaired. Leos are strong..raar! Then as you read, you find out love problems, money/job problems, and cake problems… These are serious problems esp the cake one. ..well *i* consider cake important. They def. warrant a down mood and I am surprised you don’t think they warrant one just because you are strong? Did you previously have these problems and blithefully ignore feeling angsty previously i wonder? Anyways, while technically nothing has changed, what has changed is your perception. I blame saturn, but… Read more »

Prince stolas
Prince stolas

Lol..my spelling and grammar is atrocious here. Give gratitude…how many times did i use the word previously …:p

ElectroMM Member
Electro

Personally, I’m a fan of “gratirude”. That could be a thing, like when someone gives you crap and you’re pissed that they are so rude but the lesson makes you stronger and you feel gratitude towards them.

HoudiniMM Member
Houdini

🙂 love that, Cosmic Phoenix.
Sometimes typos propel the meaning of words to another level. I liken them to little fortune cookies. – They are saying something to you. –

ElectroMM Member
Electro

Yes! Especially in this age of auto correct.

My all time favorite was “catboat” when I was trying to type “cardboard”. I imagine little kitties in sailor hats in a whimsical sailboat.

ChrysalisMM Member
Chrysalis

Ha! My autocorrect always changes ‘natally’ to ‘fatally’ when I am talking about some crappy transit lol

supakaliMM Member
supakali

and was it you who was experiencing some excellent beadwork? or scorpbot?

ChrysalisMM Member
Chrysalis

‘Twas the lovely Scorpbot !

KBMM Member
KB

Oh wow, J. Feel you. Feel you big time. Leo sun, Pisces rising, Scorp moon. Have always buzzed around feeling incredibly, genuinely lucky, confident, joyful and trusting all is as it should be and having faith in the process. Have spent this year feeling paralysed by anxiety and doubts I can’t even really identify. Just a weird, not myself draining feeling. I used to be the girl everyone thought was drunk all the time – big, happy, sunny energy. Now I order takeaway for one and start wigging out about who can see me, what they think etc. I have… Read more »

Prince stolas
Prince stolas

Wow the timing! I did reiki this week too. The practitioner kicked me out actually. They said that i didn’t have much that needed to be worked on after the first 15 min. Felt so honest. I have been working on myself like crazy.

Also there is nothing wrong with feeling lonely. It is an impetus for change. 🙂

KBMM Member
KB

That’s very funny. This guy basically said the same to me today too. Same here. Guess I just need to be patient and the learnings will show up eventually.

Good point – thank you

JanieBird
JanieBird

Hey Darlin, it’s J here 🙂
Thank you!
Thank you for sharing and reassuring me that I’m not the oy one and not going fuqing MENTAL!
So exhausting…
I’m trying to sit in it too but boy it’s a thick, morose fog this one…
Will reply and elaborate more below but just wanted to say hello and that I totally get it and…I dunno. Bring on some niceness…please! xxxx

helloiseMM Member
helloise

First time commenter.Aquarius Sun, Sag Moon, Gemini Rising. I resonate so strongly with this post that it’s ridiculous. Have been a weepy mess all day today over a relationship situation I thought I had handled and figured out. I guess not–all the disappointment and pessimism I’ve been pushing down just erupted today and I’ve been walking around crying whole valiantly trying to distract myself by doing the laundry. No real trigger in the Muggle-world… but I checked my chart + current transits, and what do you know, Venus in Leo is squaring my Chiron in Taurus. Ha!!! Suddenly I find… Read more »

ElectroMM Member
Electro

I have leo sun square chiron in taurus in my 7th house. Venus was on my sun very recently. Look up squares are your superpowers post in the archives. Part of the lesson for me – and I also have Chiron opposite my ascendant – is to learn how to open myself in a relationship while also being myself. You know, not getting swallowed up by it all. Not an easy thing to learn. My husband (of 12 years, this life biz doesn’t really get easier) just called me too guarded the other day so I guess I still have… Read more »

helloiseMM Member
helloise

Oof. Thanks so much for this–the independence/intimacy paradox in relationships is a huge learning challenge for me as well (Cancer NN in 2nd/Cap SN 8th plus Saturn squaring the Nodes, and Moon-Neptune conjunct in my 7th). I find myself swinging from stubborn loofness to all-consuming desire to merge.

Chiron in the mix just makes it all even more “hurty” and raw, doesn’t it?

ElectroMM Member
Electro

I have moon – neptune also, Sagg 2nd house. It’s an intense one! I have been into astro for a while now but I feel that I am still learning to understand the impact of this placement and how to navigate it.

Yes, agreed about Chiron. Sometimes he comes out in full force too. Raw indeed.

JanieBird
JanieBird

Hey Babe, it’s J here!
Just wanted to say thank you for sharing your oh-so-fuqing-similar angst and that I’m going to respond and elaborate below later.
Glad to know its not just me!
xxx

scalycat
scalycat

Hiya J, You have just summed up my existence for the past six months. I am also Leo with a Leo rising but my moon is in Libra and minus the Scorpio love interest. Thank you for so eloquently expressing this. I do not share your gift for words. Your ability to mainline my consciousness onto the page is greatly appreciated. My chest bones hurt too – the funk will not lift. To be exact – the funk lifts in small bursts only to descend again. I need to be creative to do my work effectively – I can barely… Read more »

lou
lou

That summed up just how ive been feeling too. I have a stellium in leo squaring saturn in scorp. And pisces rising and moon. I keep waiting for the gloom to lift but there always seems to be another square or retrograde to get through. It sure seems to be dragging on. Cant wait for brighter days . Im over it.

JanieBird
JanieBird

Hey Darlin, it’s me J 🙂
Thank you.
Yeah..,I too get those short bursts of “Im walking on sunshine” and think YAY and then it’s like its ripped out of hands…like a cosmic candid camera where someone somewhere is laughing and saying “ha! You didn’t actually think you were going to be happy and have some nice stuff happen for a change, did you?!”
You know???
Anyway, I am to elaborate and respond more broadly below, but just wanted to touch base with you and say “Yup!” 🙂

ponwah
ponwah

Long time reader, first time poster…. Leo with Gemini rising who is totally feeling the sentiments of the letter writer. My long term Sagittarius with Cancer rising partner has gone incommunicado since March and now work seems to be imploding too. 2015 is shaping up as one of the worst years ever, keeping looking at scopes for hope but not much it seems 🙁 waits until September, really?! :'(

supakaliMM Member
supakali

I’m meh as well. I thought the Jupe-Uranus thing would be ace but it’s just upping unexpected shizz. No fun, not yet.

Savannah
Savannah

Oh gawd!! J that sounds mightily familiar to this multi Aqua, the opposite of Leo. I don’t have much advice but listen to Mystic & others. It’s just one of those times that’s seemingly non freaking stop. Sort one thing then the next is hot on your heels. I think relationships can cloud what needs to be done but the bastards keep coming at you, you know, with their charm & shit. Urgh!

JanieBird
JanieBird

Ha! 🙂 That made me smile…
It’s Miss J here (as in the J from the blog)
Yeah the bloody bastards DO keep coming at us! WTF?
And…”I’m just a gal who can’t say no!” 😉
Yeah, it really does feel like it one thing after another! The other day I was like “Seriously??!”
Freakin EXHAUSTED!!!
Anyway, plan to elaborate and reply more below all these comments, but just wanted to say Hi and thank you 🙂 xxx

sphinxMM Member
sphinx

This extroverted seeming introvert acting Leo is kinda feeling ‘meh’. I don’t know about drinking from sorrowful cups of angst or whatnot, but been a disappointing week.
(Saturn back in my Scorp Moon is always a dampener).

Wasted 300 on a gift to a sib for pampering who let it expire then gave it back to me. When I asked the practitioner to help me out they told me sib had made & cancelled apps a few times then not turned up.

Feeling a bit like my cat when no one bothers to rub his tummy and ruffle his cheeks.

supakaliMM Member
supakali

i just gave my pussy cat friend a reassuring rub for you x

Porkchop
Porkchop

I am going to give each of my kitties a cuddle now too!

sphinxMM Member
sphinx

*purr, purr* Thx guys!!

Porkchop
Porkchop

What a dick move by your sib! That is like my dream present!

sphinxMM Member
sphinx

Yeah, me too! Was excited at the prospect of using it..

PorkchopMM Member
Porkchop

Splurge on yourself next time and get your sib a book or something. Can’t change people and they sound unappreciative.

Rox
Rox

Phooey ! In many ways…such a thoughtful and generous gift for body/spirit/mind on your part. Confident the kindness will return to you in unexpected ways tho sphinxy, I have always felt your insightful kindnesses here at MM’s. Will also bestow pats on my lovely kitteh who is btw willful to a fault these days lol. Venus/Jupes in da house Rawr haa You kinda like my stone sistah too xx

sphinxMM Member
sphinx

Thank you Stone Sistah!! Haha, that’s cute. Thanks for your kind words. I am very fortunate in my life and grateful for what I am surrounded by in terms of my little nuclear family. Rawr to all the kitties! I have two now, they are just adorable and have given me so much!

Prince Stolas
Prince Stolas

Sometimes sibs are like wtf. Are you *really* related to me? lol.
Sib has no idea how lucky they are to have been gifted with that. Sounds like my sib.

sphinxMM Member
sphinx

I got jibbed in the sibs department. 😉 That’s what you get for incarnating in hasty, impulsive fashion.

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