For the past 4 or 5 years I have managed to stay away from the love zombie trap. I have dated, been the dumper and the dumpee. I have quietly and peacefully hermitized my self when i felt I have needed it. I have given loving and grounding advice/ support to my friends who keep themselves in constant love zombie mode. I have been in control of my emotions, actions, squelching most lower neptunian influences. But the peeps I have been dating, well lets say there have been no spark.
But this summer I started a postcard/ snail mail friendship flirtation with a cute hippie/rambling skater boy turned med student. Total paper sparks!!!
About a month ago I was traveling through his town and we decided to meet.
For me it was instant attraction.(He is a Capricorn with Aquarius rising)
The first time we sat down and started talking a little voice in my head said “I will make out with you tonight!” He smelt like catnip to me. We had a wonderful day/night together conversing about travels, art then later in the evening dancing together in dark corners away from the crowd at a music show.
I left the next morning and on the way home I felt it. My emotions started to take over my rational brain.
Three hours later, when I reached my house, I immediately started to cyber lurk. I’m not on facebook thank god, but there is insturdgram and other sites for me to gaze upon. I figured out his birth chart sans the actual time. I started calculating our atro compatibility. I was fantasizing about the future. I mean I would totally move there! It will be amazing etc etc.
But I was at war with myself. The other side of my mind told me to stop it. I told myself all the things I have been telling my friends. But I couldn’t stop!!!! ahhh! I made a diagram. real facts of the encounter vs my unrealistic desires. This was no help!!!
A week later I received two texts from him, one stating he had a great time and the convos we shared had a profound effect on him. The other text came a few days later, stating that he doesn’t like text, talking on the phone, only likes writing snail mail. ooof. (not good for me as I love chatting on the phone and communication in general)
So basically this is an unavailable person. But deep down I wished that he would say “I don’t like these things, but you are worth the trouble”. That he would like me enough to talk on the phone and develop a relationship that is more than just one night. (total fatasy!!!)
Why??? Is it my sun, venus and eros in Pisces that has made me vulnerable to unrealistic love?
Anyway, I feel the effects fading. I let myself lean into it. Stopped fighting with myself, but have stayed super aware of what my mind is doing.
So I tell myself it is okay to I feel this way as long as I learn something from it.
Anyway thank you for letting me vent. I can’t wait to read your new book!!!
Is there ever an instance when being a love zombie is good?
I was wondering this because lately I have been dangerously close to becoming full blow cynical about dating/mating.
My little trip to love zombie land has taught me to lighten up a bit. Not to become so obsessed with “where is this going” and to enjoy the adventure.
Anyway thanks for listening,
Sun Pisces+ Gemini rising+LEO moon= warm mist
(I actually frequently dream that I am mist)
Love and blessings to you,
Water body with a Leo heart
Water Body, this does not sound Love Zombie ish to me. Maybe a tiny bit but even the fact you checked yourself screams NON-ZOMBIE…you know? Also, it is natural to have feelings/desire for someone you’ve been with and with whom you share chemistry/rapport.
Let’s not worry about YOU in this instance – let’s look at HIM. Send us the dude’s astro details and we will assess. Capricorn with Aquarius Rising makes snail mail explicable – he thinks it is more private, he is trying to buck the obvious convention, he likes the elegance, he wants to analyze your handwriting, he is a stationery snob so will have the thread count of your paper checked out, he is a Luddite and fantasizes about coming over to smash up your computer before seducing you. I mean he clearly likes you.
And where is this at? Are you writing snail mail to him? I think that is cute – did not Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie recently exchange correspondence thus? In fact, it’s AWESOME. You could WOW him with stationery fetish standard letters. In purple ink. In fact, if you have his address, we could ALL write to him.
Image: Miles Aldridge