This short paragraph by Joan Didion is literally the best and most evocative description of Saturn Return in Aquarius ever. It’s from an essay she wrote explaining why she decided to leave her adopted city of New York at the age of 29.
All I ever did to that apartment was hang fifty yards of yellow theatrical silk across the bedroom windows, because I had some idea that the gold light would make me feel better, but I did not bother to weight the curtains correctly and all that summer the long panels of transparent golden silk would blow out the windows and get tangled and drenched in afternoon thunderstorms.
That was the year, my twenty-eighth, when I was discovering that not all of the promises would be kept, that some things are in fact irrevocable and that it had counted after all, every evasion and ever procrastination, every word, all of it.
I still get cold chills reading that last sentence. It is so Saturnine.
What I love about this, aside from her eloquent poetry, is that her Saturn is square Mercury. So she had Saturn Return in Aquarius, and that squared her natal Mercury in Scorpio. She turned her melancholy and difficult decision into an iconic essay. It quickly attained classic cult status and established her as a writer of note.
The return of the Time God to his natal placement accentuated that terse square alignment, eventually evoking this great work.
And, beautifully, Mercury is her ruler. She’s Gemini Rising.
Joan Didion – Goodbye To All That
Image: George Hoyningen-Heune