Mercury Retrograde Fuqery

Helmut Newton

Zany astro right?  If you are a subscriber, please make sure you read the Daily Mystic for Wednesday as it explains the what the fuqery in more depth. 

I have NO front door due a couch being delivered apparently in another dimension and NO identity (birth certificate/passport also in alt dimension) and the it-appeared-suddenly-as-Mercury-went-Retrograde-amazing-office-space offer is, in fact, massively skewing toward the weird the more i know of it.

YES even astrologers get offers etc during Mercury Retrograde and think WOW that’s epic, who cares, right? or schedule a couch delivery and then watch as the things turn farcical only without cute Channing Tatum type characters.

Plus, of course, throbbing away in the background, is the jungle paleo pulse of Jupiter-Uranus, prepping us for the Zap Zone of April. 

But hey, the Daily Horoscopes for Thurs are up, the Tarot is coming along magnificently – it is over 100,000 words and they’re being refined now AND i am about to put  up a post about P.I.A.B. t-shirts. 

How are you guys going?

 

Image: Helmut Newton

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katiep
katiep
February 22, 2014 2:50 pm

Okay, so this is the first time I’ve ever commented… Didn’t Merc Retro start on Feb 6?? Somehow I just put this together… Feb 7 at 5:00 am I had fraudulent activity on my pay pal account Someone bought $200 worth of Starbucks in Canadian dollars – I’m from the US. About 5 minutes later I started receiving spam messages – one after the other – probably around 500 of them. I couldn’t keep up with deleting them. Changed my spam filter, saved the changed, but I didn’t realize that it didn’t update the change. So, for the next two… Read more »

leogroover
leogroover
February 21, 2014 7:50 pm

Most zany week for 9 months. Playing Midnight Oil really loud explains it all and on the hooch big time
what ive got though this last week was a baptism of fire seriously.
new job, piss poor organisation, (not me of course) kept leonine grace throughout mostly.

If
If
February 21, 2014 9:57 pm
Reply to  leogroover

Playing Midnite Oil really loud. : ). I so get this: has gotten me through many “fuq this shit” moments over the last, what, 3.5 decades!

Virgo Ellie
Virgo Ellie
February 21, 2014 7:48 am

Hello.. I know I am not here supporting you all as much.. so I am sorry but can anyone comment to this. I am in despite need of trying to understand relationships. I have NO where to go. If you are going to recommend counseling.. I don’t have the money and need instant communication otherwise I go down this awful path of thinking too much and beating myself up. Me = Virgo Sun / Libra Rising / Leo Moon New Guy = Pisces sun (I don’t have his times) boooo Started off very aggressive with him and it wasn’t a… Read more »

calypso
calypso
February 21, 2014 8:16 am
Reply to  Virgo Ellie

he’s not sounding like a catch Elle xx

cool it your end, wait n see?

calypso
calypso
February 21, 2014 8:39 am
Reply to  calypso

sorry love, that was a bit flip.

I was going to say step back and let him reveal a little. But I think you’ve done that (well done!)

Now, how is this making you feel?

Virgo Ellie
Virgo Ellie
February 22, 2014 1:12 am
Reply to  calypso

Thank you Calypso..not flip to me. xo!!

S
S
February 21, 2014 8:55 am
Reply to  Virgo Ellie

VE I have a few ideas. 1: His had his fun and now his done, 2: Hurt pride “cool your heels”, I am still virile look at me and these babes. Emotional man child with no clue how to deal with the situation, 3: Player. Either way I’d say. Step back and don’t look at what his doing online, because that’s an image of projection. Wait and see if he contacts you and find out where his head is at. Pisces dudes can be all about the chase and the passion is off for them when the kill (conquest) is… Read more »

catfish moon
catfish moon
February 21, 2014 2:05 pm
Reply to  S

Totally agree on these 3 assessments.

At 38 I have no time, desire, or lack of pride/esteem/selflove for this behavior…..

So regardless I would move on.

Virgo Ellie
Virgo Ellie
February 22, 2014 1:11 am
Reply to  catfish moon

Thank you! xo!!

Virgo Ellie
Virgo Ellie
February 22, 2014 1:11 am
Reply to  S

S .. Thank you! xo!!

akapluto
akapluto
February 21, 2014 9:17 am
Reply to  Virgo Ellie

Ew Pisces men. Sorry. The Pisces moon men are even worse actually. I am not a relationship expert but I’m getting there, lol. I’ve more or less been put through the ringer with men and with my true node in the 7th I wonder what its all leading up to. Now, first and foremost everything depends on the individuals involved. If this guy seems like a flippant slut and he’s going around talking about girls you may have to take that at face value. Some guys are actually like that and it doesn’t mean anything more. Or maybe he’s hellbent… Read more »

Vslr
Vslr
February 21, 2014 10:52 am
Reply to  akapluto

VE….if this is the beginning then do you really want to continue on? You have standards remember? There are always signals in the beginning and he’s shown you his true colours now don’t try to paint over them.
If he truly wants you and only you he’ll change his ways.
Much love and hugs xx

Virgo Ellie
Virgo Ellie
February 22, 2014 1:10 am
Reply to  Vslr

Thank you!! xo!!

Virgo Ellie
Virgo Ellie
February 22, 2014 1:11 am
Reply to  akapluto

Thank you!! xo!!

Elise
Elise
February 25, 2014 6:32 pm
Reply to  akapluto

I actually love men with Pisces moons and Pisces Asc tho I don’t know any Pisces suns that I’m crazy about……

Love 12th house moons….

I associate it with my Sun/Neptune conjunction… Need some serious depth in a man to be able to converse at all beyond joke jokes.

Good to throw some Leo in there to balance the Pisces.

akapluto
akapluto
February 26, 2014 2:38 am
Reply to  Elise

It’s odd, I love Pisces in general, and I’m very Neptune strong in my chart. My best friend has the Sun, Moon and Mercury in Pisces.

I guess what I meant was the negative experiences I had with Pisces moon men were actually the worst of all because of the sheer confusion. They’re the kind who “love everyone” and have no boundaries so even when they’re dumping you it still seems like they’re into you because they still want to be around you and kiss you and arRRRGGGGHHH. Ok the vampire boy has the moon in Pisces. I said it.

Elise
Elise
February 26, 2014 3:40 pm
Reply to  akapluto

Haha oh no!!!!

Yes. It’s true about the boundaries. They can be a total issue.

Pisces is a case of the girl with the curl right in the middle of her forehead…. “When they are good, they are very very good. But when they are bad they are horrid.”

That’s so me too tho that I feel like I can’t point fingers.

Virgo Ellie
Virgo Ellie
February 21, 2014 12:22 pm
Reply to  Virgo Ellie

Thank you ALL!! I really appreciate it. It is so hard to find people to talk to about dating or people who even want to talk about it. I don’t want to badger people. This new guy I wanted to set better boundaries with.. I need to learn how to set boundaries. I guess I need to get out there more to do that. The thing that I don’t want to do is sleep with so many guys! IT is NOT me. Yes, I slept with this one within 2 weeks (yikes) because I knew a lot about him and… Read more »

MiM
MiM
February 22, 2014 5:05 pm
Reply to  Virgo Ellie

VE, am not really authorised to give out relationship advice, so please take what I say as you wish. All I know is when it’s something good, it is NOT hard work. All r’ships take work of course, but I mean that the knowing of whether it’s real, whether both parties are on same page, especially after sleeping together, should be quite straightforward. A phrase that has liberated me with men who play games is “He’s just not that into you.” It sounds brutal, but, if accurate, is kind, as it reveals the truth. Nothing better or more beautiful than… Read more »

akapluto
akapluto
February 21, 2014 6:49 am

Update… I dunno if anyone is still on this post but I just had an horary chart cast by my astrologer friend… seeing how bang on accurate she was about some previous events, I decided to ask her how I would feel about signing the least for the New York City apartment…the outcome was bad!

She said there would be struggle and some regret, plus the ruler of the fourth is in the 9th house, meaning i have some traveling to do to find my home. Interesting, no?

Horary is sooooo coool

Blue Moon
Blue Moon
February 21, 2014 6:56 am
Reply to  akapluto

Interesting development Pluto. I’d heed that advice if I were you. I’m thinking you don’t really want this place in NY down deep and somewhere in you you know it. It’s almost like when you meet a person and on paper they are everything you wanted, they tick all the boxes but the chemistry isn’t there. That’s what this real estate “romance” feels like to me. Like a shotgun wedding on a mercury retrograde in NY You sure you’re done with vampires? I’d say N’orleans is calling. NY sounds like it is sucking you dry. Whatever you do I wish… Read more »

akapluto
akapluto
February 21, 2014 8:56 am
Reply to  Blue Moon

Hahah yeah TOTALLY. It’s like there is always some tempting poison apple just to test me. Last time I tried to leave it was the vampire himself who came to me as that apple. He was, and maybe is, everything I ever wanted in a partner, and yet that still managed to go awry. I guess we are both in way too pivotal a place in out lives to get enmeshed. Still, if it was ever right I’d go to hell and back with him. Strangely enough, he is the one who first brought me to New Orleans ten years… Read more »

Elise
Elise
February 25, 2014 6:26 pm
Reply to  akapluto

Have you read Women Who Run with the Wolves? The chapter I’m on right now is called Self-Preservation: Identifying Leg Traps, Cages, and Poisoned Bait…….

If it doesn’t inspire you, let it go!!!!!

akapluto
akapluto
February 26, 2014 2:34 am
Reply to  Elise

No, Elise, but I have a feeling I should. The problem is, this city doesn’t inspire me but the vampire boy does. I’m saying vampire because he looks like one, not because he sucks my qi or anything. But broken hearts suck your qi…

Vslr
Vslr
February 20, 2014 10:51 pm

Neptune squaring my natal mercury in 12th house virgo. Its supposed to make me confused right. Well I am confused these days…correction i havemoments of utter dreaminess like I am lost in my own world. Brain fogs too. But that could be due to food allergies. It seems to me that i manage ok most days…preperations for exams keeps me busy that on those days my minddoesn’t even wander over to the past because I am so pleasantly focused on the moment, but when it does, its like a volcanic eruption of feelings, tears, a heavy heart that I can… Read more »

akapluto
akapluto
February 21, 2014 6:47 am
Reply to  Vslr

Sounds like there’s more to this than mercury…pluto mars maybe? They say the best way to know if someone is trustworthy is to trust them. But that’s hard in the Pluto world…

Vslr
Vslr
February 22, 2014 9:57 am
Reply to  akapluto

I have Pluto square venus natally. No mars aspects or transits. Which is why I am surprised i am feeling this anger. Its not all the time just a few days or a few intense moments and then it goes leaving just sadness behind.

catfish moon
catfish moon
February 21, 2014 2:09 pm
Reply to  Vslr

seemed from what I read on your earlier post that your comments were saying you didn’t feel right about it, didn’t want to do it. Something is holding you back. Listen.

Vslr
Vslr
February 22, 2014 9:56 am
Reply to  catfish moon

Are you referring to my masters application posts? If yes, I’m in a good place mentally with that. I eventually applied which was my firsts tep to moving on. I am not attached to the outcome. Whatever happens hqppens. This post was about this deep sadnessa I am feeling at the moment. How did I sinks so low with the EX…that he could walk over me so easily. I guess my lesson from saturn transiting my 2nd house has truly been about what I value. I have really been forced to start paying attention to how my actions show I… Read more »

Maria
Maria
February 20, 2014 10:14 pm

I just want my sleep back. Yawn…

Blue Moon
Blue Moon
February 20, 2014 4:29 pm

I woke up this morning to find I have hot water once again. Yay!
X

Ms.
Ms.
February 21, 2014 12:11 am
Reply to  Blue Moon

had similar joy last week after boiler war with slumlord

Andromedas
Andromedas
February 20, 2014 3:18 pm

Beautiful Hidden Dragon Queen, this is a great time to live up to your Avatar name here. You must be so raw and confused. I am overwhelmed just hearing what’s going on for you. Can you see a counsellor to help you prioritise your life at the moment? Crisis Counselling? It’s not psychotherapy, it’s to break this situation down both in terms of responsibilities to your kids, financially and what you want emotionally. Where is Saturn in transit for you at the moment? So wish I could be there for you materially. I truly believe you have lots of people… Read more »

hdq
hdq
February 20, 2014 6:55 pm
Reply to  Andromedas

darling andro, you are wonderful. 🙂 thank you. 🙂 saturn is finally, after a year and a half, doing nothing in my chart! the tip of a sun-SN yod, but that’s it. 6th house. no, this is all chiron-pluto-neptune energy. a slow-motion cheese grater. stuff that just has to be sat with. surrendered to, and sat with. retrograde is a blessing, really counseling: grumble grumble heath care sham system grumble grumble mental health crisis grumble grumble i am acutely aware that the me i am studying to be could not help the me that i am. grumble grumble i do… Read more »

12th house virgo
12th house virgo
February 21, 2014 2:25 am
Reply to  hdq

Don’t let the big, emo transhits wash you away. We need you here in the daily with us. xo I think Saturn transiting your 6th house would appreciate you finishing your yoga teacher training. Did you pay for it already or is it cost that made you quit?

hdq
hdq
February 21, 2014 7:22 pm

I’ve paid for half of it. Think I might be able to pick up next year. A big part is that I missed a bunch of classes while in Ohio sitting hospital bedside. Plus I feel in no way ready, but next year… I think we’re going through similar Chiron transits. Yours to your nodes, moon, and mercury (yeah?), and mine to my Jupiter Saturn Pluto and Neptune, but no matter what, Chiron all the way. The meditation guru talked about the longing for liberation, and everything in me thought: NO! What a cop out!! There is work to be… Read more »

Andromeda
Andromeda
February 21, 2014 4:11 pm
Reply to  hdq

“i am acutely aware that the me i am studying to be could not help the me that i am” I am sure you are helping you the best you can! Who wouldn’t struggle under the yoke you have on your shoulders right now? Gem always says, “we sink to the level of our training, we don’t rise to the circumstances”. That’s a Saturnian statement in my mind. But even if it is, what can have been your preparation? If this is motivated by “chiron-pluto-neptune energy. a slow-motion cheese grater” if it is such powerful reformation energy, then.. not much.… Read more »

hdq
hdq
February 21, 2014 7:31 pm
Reply to  Andromeda

Thanks, beautiful. My toro side thrills in being a tree. drawing up nutrients from the deep, being rooted in stillness. It’s the perfect image. 🙂 Me not being able to help me is a combo of monetary (make too much to qualify for low-income health but not nearly enough to afford therapy of any sort) and geography (researching group therapy for class (and personal) and was horrified to find the utter and dismal lack.). There is motivation and purpose in this realization. I don’t think that anyone can be truly prepared, but I do think that we can raise our… Read more »

hdq
hdq
February 21, 2014 7:37 pm
Reply to  hdq

Scratch that, btw. We cannot raise our baseline, but it can be raised (by the higher us? Who knows) for us.

hdq
hdq
February 20, 2014 2:47 pm

ah, it’s been a retro. computer, phone are both at max and intermittently going out. got braces off and consequence work (tho not from lack of hygiene, just placement) is costing as much as the braces…. which is not a big deal, but it means i am officially in debt for the first time in my life. unexpected car repairs. utter fog about the future. crab’s parents have stopped sending me updates- i’ve been gone a month and it feels like a lifetime. total muddle about how that’s going to turn out. is it my future to change diapers for… Read more »

Andromedas
Andromedas
February 20, 2014 3:19 pm
Reply to  hdq

Soz, below.

Pi
Pi
February 20, 2014 3:33 pm
Reply to  hdq

This must be such a difficult and upside-down time for you dearest hidden-more-than-usual Dragon Queen. Everything’s complicated and hard to deal with (both emotionally and materially) and people we need / wish were next to us are maybe not there. It sounds like you’re processing a lot of deep intense stuff for yourself. Carbs to me are care and self-comfort. This is the least of your worries perhaps? Just make sure you have balance with nutrients so that you keep on a level…? I wish I could come by and make you some nice tea and give you a big… Read more »

hdq
hdq
February 20, 2014 7:00 pm
Reply to  Pi

yes, it’s like the center is gone. eventually a new gravity will arise. in the meantime, i would love a cup of tea, and pour you one too. thank you. 🙂

Pi
Pi
February 20, 2014 9:27 pm
Reply to  hdq

one day at a time honeybun XOX

calypso
calypso
February 20, 2014 4:07 pm
Reply to  hdq

sigh, I wrote a big long message and Merc Rx ate it – in essence, love to you HDQ, and take your time with those big decisions xx

hdq
hdq
February 20, 2014 7:02 pm
Reply to  calypso

aw, love to you too calypso. 🙂
you know, it’s such a blessing to be able to take one’s time. the answers always come eventually… 🙂

akapluto
akapluto
February 20, 2014 4:17 pm
Reply to  hdq

aghhhhh!!! sorry to hear that your mental scape is so foggy. There’s gotta be some clarity around there somewhere…

hdq
hdq
February 20, 2014 7:03 pm
Reply to  akapluto

it’s ok. fog is one of my favorite weather phenomena. 🙂

Chrys
Chrys
February 20, 2014 11:14 pm
Reply to  hdq

HDQ I have struggled to understand all that has happened in your world recently. All I can say is you have shown so much courage, humanity and dignity that you inspire me on a daily basis. Who cares about yoga and braces and all that. Just wake up each day and do what has to be done. Sending you love and strength xxx

hdq
hdq
February 21, 2014 7:09 pm
Reply to  Chrys

Thanks, chrys. Me too. I feel like it’s not something that can be, in the present, understood. Someday, in hindsight, definitely, but for now, you’re so right. Fuck the superfluous. Xxxx

Also that olde astro (and Vedic, maybe, not knowing much about it) notion of the SN as a makefic, I so buy it now. No matter how one spins it, ’tis fuqed.

12th house virgo
12th house virgo
February 21, 2014 2:23 am
Reply to  hdq

Where is Saturn? Don’t forget to do your Saturn. Saturn is going into my 3rd house. I have decided, much as I love my lonely, I am going to ask neighbor’s for help. I hope you let help reach you too, dear.

hdq
hdq
February 21, 2014 7:15 pm

I have Saturn natally in the 3rd and wish I had some great insight for you. Small talk bad. My siblings seem to respect me no matter what a fuqstick I am… do I recall you having sibling issues? Apologies for faulty memories. Perhaps an opportunity to reconnect/heal? Neighbors can be a serious blessing. If they’re cool, they drag you out and force you to stop isolating and accept some peer support… I am beyond blessed with wonderful neighbors, and send those vibes down to you! Xxxx

12th house virgo
12th house virgo
February 25, 2014 2:10 am
Reply to  hdq

I always think of Saturn as a bad thing – would be great to have it bring healing to those areas. My sibling relations aren’t the greatest – only on speaking terms with 4 of 7 siblings. My new neighbors seem really nice. I am going to have to rely on them more now. I hope they’re up for it

Pegasus
Pegasus
February 20, 2014 1:00 pm

My inner Artemus would like an Irish Setter, a Rottweiller, Mamalute and German Shepard but that lot would need a group of peoples to care for them not a white single trying not to be elderly, woman.
Is this why peoples get married and have babies so as not to be alone?
Two more months of work and i’ll be debt free (debt accrued from taking nearly a year off) then plan my escape to northern NSW where the weather suits my soul, or just planet Elsewhere but Here.

akapluto
akapluto
February 20, 2014 1:26 pm
Reply to  Pegasus

Perhaps you could get a nice mix of all those breeds?

Pegasus
Pegasus
February 20, 2014 1:33 pm
Reply to  akapluto

No no no, pure bred only, those strains are only mated with same species. You know with a pedigree as long as your arm.
GO TO NEW ORLEANS, even if it’s just for the music.
Believe there are some super sexy vampires living there, according to Anne Rice. Such sleazy steamy sophistication resides there.
With the internet now one can plan to the nth degree.
One of my have writers James Lee Bourke’s novels are set in NO and surrounds, so i feel like i know it.
GO.

akapluto
akapluto
February 20, 2014 4:12 pm
Reply to  Pegasus

hahah, I just finished up an unsuccessful dalliance with a sexy vampire- eastern european, black widow’s peak, reacts badly to garlic- the whole nine. I think I’m done with vampires for now. I do plan on going to New Orleans…but does it have to be now? This job an apartment offer me a huge nugget of money and freedom that’s hard to find…I could do a lot of travelling in the next 6 months and end it with moving to New Orleans…that sounds exciting…

Blue Moon
Blue Moon
February 21, 2014 6:50 am
Reply to  akapluto

That’s funny Pluto
I found some vampire dvd’s today and was like, “these do not belong in my home anymore”. Just a feeling but a strong one. I get that

akapluto
akapluto
February 21, 2014 8:50 am
Reply to  Blue Moon

Yeah they’re sexy but a bit of trouble

Pegasus
Pegasus
February 20, 2014 12:51 pm

The 5 month old ratite i was going to collect is actually 2 years old, so nada as their lifespan is usually 2 years and a few months. The special caring breeder i found has stopped breeding due to the respiratory disease inherent in them. Won’t buy from a pet shop, too unknown for health issues. Does this mean i have to get a boyfriend instead? They are usually much more trouble than a rattie dammit. Could i handle a visit to the dog shelter i wonder or if it would be too heartbreaking for me, looking into those ‘take… Read more »

Pegasus
Pegasus
February 20, 2014 1:27 pm
Reply to  Pegasus

Mercury retro memory! Said that before. Doomed to repeat myself endlessly?

Andromedas
Andromedas
February 20, 2014 3:09 pm
Reply to  Pegasus

What transits do you have to your 6th House Pegs?
What planets and what rulership do you have there?
Pertains to the furry family members.

Pegasus
Pegasus
February 21, 2014 10:50 am
Reply to  Andromedas

Late reply Andy, URANUS transiting 6th in Kataka & about to move into 5th still Kataka.
Am really klutzy at interpreting astro but shall look into that aspect.
Tells me no fast decisions as still yearning to change states/countires, thinking a pet would settle that issue and keep me here in ‘god’s waiting room’ as Adders is sometimes called due to ageing population.
x

Andromeda
Andromeda
February 21, 2014 4:33 pm
Reply to  Pegasus

Found this on cafeastro: “It would be wise to find work that offers you not only variety and stimulation, but also the chance to invent. Progressive, part-time, or unconventional tasks hold the most appeal to you these days”.
Hmm. It doesn’t really seem animal astro does it? Unless you do work part time in a shelter or caring for other people’s animals part time.. I don’t know! But Uranus doesn’t seem very nurturing at the best of times.

Andromeda
Andromeda
February 21, 2014 4:33 pm
Reply to  Andromeda

But yes, you would be feeling full of antsy-ness and wunderlust with that astro!!

Andromeda
Andromeda
February 21, 2014 4:38 pm
Reply to  Andromeda

p.s. is your 6th Aries ruled?

Blue Moon
Blue Moon
February 21, 2014 6:48 am
Reply to  Pegasus

Pegs, get another pet rather than a boyfriend. Pets are the universe’s way of saying “don’t lower the bar”
It’s mercury retro
Chill
X

Pegasus
Pegasus
February 21, 2014 10:52 am
Reply to  Blue Moon

Blue-ie i think we both have 12 house action going on re lovers and both work with men, therefore are in tune with their deeper psyches which makes me (you?) prefer animals 🙂

Blue Moon
Blue Moon
February 22, 2014 6:32 pm
Reply to  Pegasus

Mwhahahahahaha I live in a flat in London so I can’t have a pet here. But jeez I would if I could. Yeah. I have a sh*t load going on in my 12th house. Moon, Neptune and black moon Lilith, true and mean just one degree apart, creating a black hole more than a corridor. Unakalie (the snake charmer) is conjunct Lilith and she sextiles my sun and mars. Basically that makes me “the woman scorned or hidden. The Other Woman. Classic But it gives me psychic abilities and makes me super powerful a la Tantra and I tend to… Read more »

akapluto
akapluto
February 20, 2014 11:04 am

Here’s the real existential crisis: if anyone wiser than me has and advice on THIS I’d love to hear it. I don’t love New York City. I’ve been trying to leave here for years but strange things happen that keep me here. The car blows up and I lose all of my money (that was two years in a row), then I meet who I think is the love of my life and he bails, only I’ve already got this sweet job and this whole plan to live alone and have to implement it NOW as I have been in… Read more »

Chrysalis
Chrysalis
February 20, 2014 12:14 pm
Reply to  akapluto

Wow… I so get this, the pull to chuck it all in and hop in the getaway car. If you don’t mind me chiming in here: I have a lot of Saturn action going on right now – squaring my ascendant, squaring my Venus and opposing my Jupiter. So I have no choice but to negotiate my relationship with him 🙂 I’ve said this here before but I’m starting to see Saturn as the bloke with the tool box. Perhaps Saturn on your ascendant isn’t about duty but about challenging you to decide what you really want for your life,… Read more »

Pegasus
Pegasus
February 20, 2014 12:38 pm
Reply to  Chrysalis

Yes, the holiday there yearly is a fine idea to counteract pulling up roots completely.
But being a multi Sagg, never want to leave destination for at least 12 months, holidays are more for full time workers not free lancers.

Have noticed many are feeling a sense of loss and last night thought perhaps i have to loose everything to gain more. LIke wipe the tape ready to reprogram true desires.

akapluto
akapluto
February 20, 2014 1:16 pm
Reply to  Chrysalis

Ah, chysalis, lovely of you to respond. You are totally right about trying to find the balance of how much of these two places I want in my life. Unfortunately, I do not have a “field” at the moment; leaving town means starting over absolutely. It would be very doable for me to show up in the south with my savings and get a job and a place and all of that; it just seems I am being given an opportunity right now with this set up being miraculously handed to me here in New York. Plus all of New… Read more »

Pegasus
Pegasus
February 20, 2014 12:33 pm
Reply to  akapluto

Pluto, how i empathise with you about being somewhere is not your speed. The desire to throw caution to the breeze and just drive away, even live out of the car if needs be.
As i pay a peppercorn rent (a ? of market value) cannot lose that by leaving. Sublet?
Think it’s a bit soul hurting not to be where your heart is not and yet sensible to be cautious, but why be sensible if it stops you being content with your environment.
Good luck with this dilemma.

pi
pi
February 20, 2014 12:45 pm
Reply to  Pegasus

Just saw this, pegs putting it much more clearly of course…wonderful wise woman that you are xoxo

Pegasus
Pegasus
February 20, 2014 1:01 pm
Reply to  pi

back atcha sweetheart. x

akapluto
akapluto
February 20, 2014 1:20 pm
Reply to  Pegasus

Ha, yes, living out of the car (I have a van) has often been a backup for me. Every time I’ve made it out of New York I was pretty pleased, and every time I’ve left New York (and in one instance, Florida) I was practically dragged away.

The last time I went to New Orleans for a month I cried the whole flight back to New York. It’s so grey here.

But you know, as evidenced by my love life, we don’t always want what’s best for us in the long run, that’s why I feel so much doubt…

pi
pi
February 20, 2014 12:41 pm
Reply to  akapluto

Your body knows when it needs change. My thoughts on reading your words were ” fuck it. Just do it. You can always move back if it doesn’t work out.” Life is for living. When you’re 90, looking back, what decisions would you regret making… Or not making? Fuq fear . controlling our behaviour like it’s all that. plus, no cold snaps in nawlins right?

akapluto
akapluto
February 20, 2014 1:25 pm
Reply to  pi

Pi, true.

No cold snaps, but plenty of heat snaps!

Guess I’m just a little sensitive to the idea of starting over right now. I do not feel very strong.

Maybe get this place and sublet it while I intermittently do some meandering. It is not often that I get a job that doesn’t care when I suddenly leave town. That’s kind of a big deal.

Oh, life…

Thanks for responding, all. I feel like a lot of people who frequent this site have a wealth of understanding for the ol unconventional existential crisis….

Pi
Pi
February 20, 2014 1:37 pm
Reply to  akapluto

that IS kind of a big deal!!! please, please take advantage, even if it is just for little trips here and there to refresh ze little grey cells. some light might sneak in start to warm the part of you that is not feeling very strong.. Starting over does take work. you are right. New people, new circles, new work, new dry cleaner, new doctor, new hairdresser… the little things. The discovery… As pegs said, maybe a visit? Maybe you want to revisit your friend, in your heart, and being in the physical place is a strong prompt for that?… Read more »

hdq
hdq
February 20, 2014 2:53 pm
Reply to  akapluto

GO TO NEW ORLEANS. GO!!!!!!! THE SIGNS COULD NOT BE CLEARER!!

sorry for yelling. 😉

seriously, though, i find that when it is RIGHT, there is always a seemingly perfect (aka your new apartment) to be made. fate demands loss. or something like that…

hdq
hdq
February 20, 2014 2:54 pm
Reply to  hdq

*choice, that is. got a little excited there. 😉

Raché(Aqua/Tauri)
Raché(Aqua/Tauri)
February 20, 2014 2:54 pm
Reply to  hdq

“Fate demands loss”! I am remembering this.

akapluto
akapluto
February 20, 2014 4:04 pm
Reply to  hdq

What signs? Haha. I see so many everywhere. For both directions. Believe me, I AM going to New Orleans…it’s just a matter of totally moving there right this instant or taking this apartment and using it as a base to launch from. Did I mention I am currently “displaced”? Semi-without-home?

We Libras like to say, “The grass is greener inbetweener”. Why choose when you can have both?

Kat
Kat
February 21, 2014 12:12 am
Reply to  akapluto

Go for Jazz Fest!!!! Yes-leap. On the plane you may have synchronistic chat about perfect opp- as in You’d be Perfect!!

Kat
Kat
February 21, 2014 12:13 am
Reply to  akapluto

Libras live in the Middle Way- sometimes we have to bulldoze it.

akapluto
akapluto
February 21, 2014 2:56 am
Reply to  Kat

True- and I have bulldozed my way there before…but that is not really how I’m feeling right now. There are more complexities to this situation then I have typed. Especially that this is probably the worst time of year to move to New Orleans and the best time of year to stay in New York and make a ton of money. ..

Ms.
Ms.
February 21, 2014 1:06 am
Reply to  akapluto

I wish I had the energy to write exact response but I’m lying here between manic no rest period. Totally relate. Its easy to get sucked into the opportunity flying around and see yourself as part of it but if you are at war you need a home. Roots grow up. The good thing about cities like that though is they are ports. you don’t have to live there you just need the right doors to come in and out of. xx

Ms.
Ms.
February 21, 2014 1:08 am
Reply to  Ms.

heh, try again roots grow up into trees into fruit, merc retro cutting out my sentences.

akapluto
akapluto
February 21, 2014 3:02 am
Reply to  Ms.

All errors forgiven! My left shift key is broken so there’s a lot of similar bad grammar going on. New Orleans has a lot of set backs for me, too…like, it’s not all peaches and cream. My perfect scheme is to take this apartment that just came up, sublet it whenever I want to leave town and use this freedom to find my spirit home/next move. Maybe I want to go to school in SF. Who knows? I also have been having a lot of fun in the summer in New York. Sort of liking this snowbird possibility. I also… Read more »

Ms.
Ms.
February 20, 2014 10:11 am

no front door lol well this is weirdest merc retro in ages I agree. Being ignored from company whom have my hosting when renewing my domain, appears to have been bought by somebody else and all my pro emails are bouncing let alone I have actually paid for the space and no one has gotten back to my polite professional wtf emails as I have an amercian company trying to sell it back to me for $US500. pfft. Complete idiot scripting over piece of paper not able to be handed to someone now a massive issue with no warning. Saw… Read more »

Raché(Aqua/Tauri)
Raché(Aqua/Tauri)
February 20, 2014 9:15 am

Peter-Pan-Pisces!!! UGH I RELATE. I’ve struggled with depression my whole life as well; it really feels like I was just born anxious and with this feeling of dread or something. I’ve ALWAYS had to manage it. I don’t expect to overcome it, just to manage it and consistently become more balanced and accepting of life and myself. Relevant words from my yoga teacher on a blog post about her father’s death: “He isn’t dead yet and yet, I grieve. Earlier today in the car this phrase came to me: I’ve been grieving since I was born. I was thinking about… Read more »

12th house virgo
12th house virgo
February 20, 2014 10:08 am

Thanks. I get lost sometimes. Like, things were going well with the Pisces and we bought a wet saw cause we were going to do a project together. He was standing there demoing it for me and teaching me about it and I had to walk to the other room to cry because I knew he wouldn’t be there for that when I needed him. I had both the experience and loss of the loss context of the experience. Does that make sense? I don’t know how to put it. But I see both what is happening and what will… Read more »

calypso
calypso
February 20, 2014 12:37 pm

I know what you mean about the loss 12V. I used to feel like this s a lot. I don’t any more. I don’t know why, but I have done a lot of clearing work in the last year or two including past life stuff. Rache’s teacher’s point about being born with something missing points to that perhaps being a source and a path as well? Stuff that doesn’t serve me in this life. Stuff that doesn’t even belong to me. DNA stuff. Family stuff. Stuff that belonged to the collective. Women’s stuff. I haven’t been able to do that… Read more »

12th house virgo
12th house virgo
February 20, 2014 11:52 pm
Reply to  calypso

Thanks, it does help to have you share it. I feel like on my path, I don’t get a guru. That’s my retro 6th house Jupiter. I have to do it. When I had a soul connection that resulted in me being like the bad Mom from Cafe de Flore, I found someone who taught me how to release a lot of residual emotions. But I realized even that didn’t cure me of depression. It isn’t depression over a thing or a desire to solve a relationship. Its realizing I run depressed and I should and can fix that. Only… Read more »

12th house virgo
12th house virgo
February 20, 2014 11:53 pm

Like – when I exercise I am grounded in my physical body and much more able to act as one than that getting lost-ness I described that’s been happening to me in relation to Peter-Pan-Pisces. I can’t believe I ended up telling him never to contact me again. I had a dream of him looking at me like “WTF?”

davidl
davidl
February 20, 2014 12:49 pm

Go back to the moments before the crisis, together if possible. How are you feeling, how is he feeling ?
Start from there together again and exchange reactions for responses. That’s my understanding of how 5th dimensional consciousness can be accessed and practiced.
If you both agree to just write off what happened the first time, really just dump it then you can come to a better conclusion for the now.
That’s time mastery. And a way to de saturnise our lives.

12th house virgo
12th house virgo
February 21, 2014 2:10 am
Reply to  davidl

I’ve done this with loves in the past but not this time. This time now is enough. Thanks, dear. It is true technique for working out relationship problems. But my depression is a me-on-me crime I have to figure out how to manage alone.

hdq
hdq
February 20, 2014 1:44 pm

those words of your yoga teacher really resonate with me, rache. that intangible missing thing- that’s pretty much how it is, right? i’d love to take a class from her. she GETS it. i’m halfway through my 200 hr certification and i can’t do it any more. my teacher, a lovely and warm aqua, DOESN’T get it. it’s all about experience. she’s known loss, and grief, but definitely not whole-life genetic or past-life major depression. the darkness that cannot be transcended by meditation, or by being more sattvic… the darkness that just IS, that is such an integral part of… Read more »

Veronica
Veronica
February 20, 2014 8:31 pm
Reply to  hdq

So Amazing HDQ,

you are shaping up to be an amazing healer with your ideas about emotional places that haven’t been touched on much before by yoga…prob cos you’re not afraid of the darkness 🙂

It’s part of the fire snake energy thing, IMHO, I know my fire snake partner who is an ex athlete had to stop because of back and other injuries.
that was a big part of his unraveling, as all the intense energy couldn’t be channeled and became destructive

hdq
hdq
February 21, 2014 6:58 pm
Reply to  Veronica

Ah, the journey your comment sent me on! Finding a suitable channel. Brought me back to my New Year’s cursing of the patriarchal cult, which I, for some reason, mentioned for the first time the other day to this ethereal faerie teen. She asked what it was like, and I replied (for real!) that it was nothing, just like opening a door. Before all the door posts. 😯
And thank you, you are kind. 🙂

12th house virgo
12th house virgo
February 21, 2014 2:14 am
Reply to  hdq

I agree with Veronica. You are shaping up to be an amazing healer and I am glad to have you as my friend. I realize that other who have not had to battle depression can’t fully understand it. And that’s OK. I am glad not everyone has to fight it. But it is so….I don’t know the word….humanizing?…. to have the understanding from you. “the darkness that just IS, that is such an integral part of the soul that the only thing that can be done is to accept and love it, and to be there for others who are… Read more »

hdq
hdq
February 21, 2014 6:59 pm

Love love love 🙂 xxxxx

hdq
hdq
February 21, 2014 7:02 pm
Reply to  hdq

Humanizing, yes. I’m firmly convinced at this meta-second that we are here to feel these feels. Full sensory immersion.

12th house virgo
12th house virgo
February 22, 2014 2:46 am
Reply to  hdq

I’m holding your hand, beautiful momma 🙂

Blue Moon
Blue Moon
February 20, 2014 4:31 pm

Omg Rache. I think we were separated at birth.
Just EVERYTHING you said. Yup

Virgo Ellie
Virgo Ellie
February 20, 2014 8:15 am

Found out this morning a HS friend of mine died. A big shock to my hometown and to all that knew him. Life is short! Love and play all you can! xo!!

catfish moon
catfish moon
February 20, 2014 2:07 pm
Reply to  Virgo Ellie

Sorry. xoxoxo
In the midst of the sadness of losing a friend as well.

hdq
hdq
February 20, 2014 2:37 pm
Reply to  Virgo Ellie

indeed. hugs!! xxxx

katakacato
katakacato
February 20, 2014 7:20 am

two days of little to no sleep. the roommates dog has decided to take up professional yapping. i’ve started listening to the shipping forecast with no idea as to why. moderate or poor becoming moderate or poorer. the few dreams I’m catching in my 10 or 20 minutes of REM sleep are pretty wicked tho. clear shallow lakes and crouching tiger hidden dragon type leaps above them. actually A LOT of water in general. it feels encouraging. embracing a more amateur absurdist outlook to deal with all kinds of current fuqery (including an ill-timed haircut.)

catfish moon
catfish moon
February 20, 2014 6:14 am

A friend of ours killed himself yesterday. Sad, not shocked. I don’t know any details. Concerned for our close friend who rented a room from him. 🙁

Veronica
Veronica
February 20, 2014 7:53 am
Reply to  catfish moon

I am so sorry to hear that Catfish xx

katakacato
katakacato
February 20, 2014 8:07 am
Reply to  catfish moon

how awful. sorry for your loss. 🙁

Ms.
Ms.
February 20, 2014 10:14 am
Reply to  catfish moon

the worst. hugs x

Chrysalis
Chrysalis
February 20, 2014 11:13 am
Reply to  catfish moon

Ohh that’s horrible. Sending love Catfish xx

calypso
calypso
February 20, 2014 12:10 pm
Reply to  catfish moon

yes, so sorry CM – love to you x

pi
pi
February 20, 2014 12:34 pm
Reply to  catfish moon

Oh dear 🙁 I am sorry for all in the circle there. Xx peace

catfish moon
catfish moon
February 20, 2014 2:06 pm
Reply to  catfish moon

Oh thank you. Sad, yes Then I saw dear friends of his, crying. Hard. Heard 2 songs back to back, about wanting to be there for someone in the darkness. ugh. He wasn’t one of our closest friends, but a friend yes, who we always spoke to and hung out with at the beach. He was kind to me, always asking how I was, where I was if I wasn’t there. Torro said he wanted to see me just the other week…. My boyfriend has shown a strange way of dealing with it. I’m not sure what to make of… Read more »

seagoat
seagoat
February 20, 2014 2:31 pm
Reply to  catfish moon

I don’t think there is any right or wrong way to deal with these awful but very human tragedies. We all have different ways of coping with the sudden loss of someone from our world. And the brush with mortality and the deep despair of someone close effects everyone in different ways. It’s like a ripple effect around the event. Hold tight Catfish. x

hdq
hdq
February 20, 2014 2:36 pm
Reply to  catfish moon

it’s complicated and anger is an integral part. he is likely to have a lot of working through it and emotions that don’t make logical sense, or proceed in an order that fits for you. hugs for the both of you. xxxxxxx

davidl
davidl
February 20, 2014 3:28 pm
Reply to  catfish moon

Hmmm, yes. I got a similar surprise some months ago when the husband of a friend commuted suicide, leaving the wife and 3 children. He was an incredible person who they his medical practice saved many lives. He had money , love, purpose…
No letter left, no previous signs of depression, nothing to explain.
The thing was the dichotomy of those just terribly torn up by this and those incredibly angry with him. I do think it’s a coping mechanism.

catfish moon
catfish moon
February 20, 2014 4:39 pm
Reply to  davidl

oh my, the shock of that….no real understanding or explanation.

I am sad, suprised, but not shocked. Not to say I saw it coming, but we all knew he had some issues. Just didn’t know how sad he was.

As far as Torro goes, he is processing, I know he is sad. But his disdain and ,to me, lack of empathy that leaned towards cruelty was a hard bit to swallow.

S
S
February 20, 2014 4:57 pm
Reply to  catfish moon

CM that’s such a tragedy and my sympathies. I can’t help but think your Torro is processing this situation in the best way he has learnt to deal with difficult emotions and situations. To deflect at the surface like he is presenting, suggests he has experienced this emotional place before. Not wanting to dive into that emotive sea again. It’s his way to regulate and self control his feelings and keep on top of things.

Andromeda
Andromeda
February 20, 2014 6:31 pm
Reply to  catfish moon

So sorry Catfish Moon 🙁
Pain on pain isn’t fun. Hope you get a breakthrough with the Torro, xx.

catfish moon
catfish moon
February 21, 2014 3:54 am
Reply to  catfish moon

Thank you everyone.
Still sad, as to be expected.
Torro has been gentle with me and had empathy for me, just not for our friend. Some of his comments directed at our friend were yucky.

But yes, this is not his first friend to commit suicide, I know of at least a few others. It sucks.

All the way around it sucks for those left behind.

Thank you again. Off to work now.

hdq
hdq
February 20, 2014 2:32 pm
Reply to  catfish moon

no words, just sending love xxxxx

Seagoat
Seagoat
February 20, 2014 5:20 am

It seems a lot of people are feeling a bit sad at the moment. Me too. Great to see everyone supporting each other. It feel line a passing thing, but it’s very acute … ancient feeling… A haunting … it belongs to the ocean. As far as Mercury goes…I am negotiating with airline to get a seat on a return flight home. I’m going home for good after 14 years away and I can’t get there until March 3 on an economy flight. All seats booked. They reckon. So I’m here in my empty apartment…on my own private transit lounge…thank… Read more »

calypso
calypso
February 20, 2014 9:55 am
Reply to  Seagoat

that’s beautiful Seagoat, about the ocean.

hope you get something good from your time in limbo!

seagoat
seagoat
February 20, 2014 2:22 pm
Reply to  calypso

Thanks calypso, nice of you to say hon xxx

davidl
davidl
February 20, 2014 3:23 pm
Reply to  Seagoat

Good luck with all that Seagoat x
I remember that feeling, was away for about 10 years and went home.
I had to stay with my parents till I found a place and work etc.
Some things had changed but so many things were just the same.
I put on 10 kilos in 6 weeks ! and sort of had a total life revision lesson over 2 months till I finally escaped !

seagoat
seagoat
February 21, 2014 12:49 am
Reply to  davidl

Yeah david. The tower walls gave way last year, and now there’s just this core me, and the (grrrrr) fuqery of this MR, and an empty room full of thoughts – life revisions as you say. The Limbo I had to have? Limbo is a good way to put it Calypso, because there is something liminal about this space – as david knows – but I will watch the calories they serve up here! See, I’m actually ok. I’m actually more than ok. I only posted because I was struck by the collective sadness that seemed to be weaving its… Read more »

Ms.
Ms.
February 21, 2014 1:04 am
Reply to  Seagoat

xx

12th house virgo
12th house virgo
February 20, 2014 4:49 am

Ugh. Peter-Pan-Pisces sent me pics of him ice climbing, which escalated into a fight with him claiming he’s “lost so much more than a partner” in this deal. I told him to let me know how much I owe him – $2K, $20K how much more do I owe him, being he lost more than a partner? Bullshit. Told him don’t worry about the cat and dog he left – just come get his shit. Why punish those beings for traveling with an f-up? Told him I’d drive his shit out to his Mom’s so he’s not out gas money,… Read more »

Veronica
Veronica
February 20, 2014 7:51 am

Maybe did not mean money? Someone to grow old with?

12th house Virgo
12th house Virgo
February 20, 2014 8:19 am
Reply to  Veronica

Nah. He used the word “quantifiable” in that his losses are quantifiably larger than mine. Dude was living in a tin can in a desert starving and laid off and now I am to blame for his losses. Classic. I really know how to pick en

calypso
calypso
February 20, 2014 12:17 pm

oh dear. sorry that it got turned into a contest of any kind, let alone of loss. such a shame when you’re so prepared to bear that extra cost of his animals without carry on. try not to take it on 12V x

Blue Moon
Blue Moon
February 20, 2014 4:28 pm
Reply to  calypso

Eish 12th H V. How awful. “He used the word quantifiable”. What a prick!

Veronica
Veronica
February 20, 2014 7:51 pm
Reply to  Blue Moon

Yep, what a tool.

12th house virgo
12th house virgo
February 21, 2014 2:19 am
Reply to  Blue Moon

I know, blue, its so crazy.

Blue Moon
Blue Moon
February 22, 2014 6:20 pm

Hey 12th house Virgo
I know it wrong to cling to resentment so feel free to ignore this suggestion but what I would do when falling into a LZ trance ( which obvs we ALL do post break up)
So what I would do is chant the word “quantifiable” like a mantra and use it to propel you to a yoga class.

12th house virgo
12th house virgo
February 21, 2014 2:17 am
Reply to  calypso

Ah, the pets are a blessing. I try to be mad about it. My hair stylist was like “who are you – Mother Theresa?” But, the truth is the pets bring me joy. I asked the oracle about them, if I was meant to keep them, if it was OK and not me just taking on karma from his crappy, short marriage (he got the pets with his ex). I told the oracle give me cat, dog, or 4 if I should keep them and I got the number 4. I have 4 pets now! They are good company.

MiM
MiM
February 22, 2014 4:17 pm

Good on you 12th HV! Pets rule! 🙂 Have been following your ‘story’ re: Pisces, and can I just say, well done for how you’re handling it. You are 100% RIGHT for saying to him ‘don’t contact me again’. Be very proud of yourself. AMUSING that he’s trying to frame himself as a ‘victim’ – please stand strong, trust your gut & don’t fall for it. Manipulative jerk extraordinaire! You don’t owe him ANYTHING. He is HISTORY, and it seems he’s just very unaccustomed to someone seeing the truth of him so soon. Haha to him, and well done to… Read more »

calypso
calypso
February 22, 2014 5:04 pm
Reply to  MiM

oh, hello Pisces 😀

love that man! Thanks MiM, I’ll look out those letters now.

12th house virgo
12th house virgo
February 25, 2014 2:09 am
Reply to  MiM

Yes, thank you for this!

12th house virgo
12th house virgo
February 28, 2014 3:51 am

Thanks twice for this! I came back to read it. Was so kind of you to type it out and cite the reference and all that. Thanks again.

Blue Moon
Blue Moon
February 20, 2014 4:17 am

Oh gawd. Plane.
Soz

Blue Moon
Blue Moon
February 20, 2014 4:16 am

Lest peeps think I’m slipping thru this merc retro totally unscathed I need to add that I was a bit. Ok a lot, flip in my previous post. To gain access to the pity party may I add that I just got back to a freezing flat and have no hot water and a sh*t load of admin and boring but important hassles of a similar ilk. I have been feeling elated today partly because I spent 12 hours on a plane in AGONY – most uncomfortable seat Ever, crying me feckin eyes oot Good thing about being on a… Read more »

Virgo Ellie
Virgo Ellie
February 20, 2014 4:05 am

Crap.. I don’t like this feeling. Job: I am still stuck in the mud with my job. My boss won’t tell me anything, she assigns work to me that eventually is cancelled and doesn’t tell me and she asked me to prepare Vital Goals that she seemed to be okay with and nothing is happening. (sigh) Romance: Ok people.. I don’t know how to handle getting to know men without sex. I wish I did but this Pisces guy could be worth some time.. but I am struggling. My darn insecurities are bad that will cause him to run! I… Read more »

calypso
calypso
February 20, 2014 12:19 pm
Reply to  Virgo Ellie

breathe sweetie, just let it play out slow, think how it could work for you this way, keeping risks low or something, whatever positive you can find in it x

david5379
david5379
February 20, 2014 3:40 am

I have read multiple places its really really important for mars pluto to regularly exercise, I have a mars saturn pluto thing and its really really important for me, I get so bad I might as well be foaming at the mouth when I stop working out. Depression is a tough thing and even people who have it good in all or most areas of life can go through it, don’t beat yourself up over it, and the only way things like this get “fixed” is inner work. I still haven’t even gotten a girl and I have made huge… Read more »

david5379
david5379
February 20, 2014 3:41 am
Reply to  david5379

and by “on that front”, I mean inner work

Veronica
Veronica
February 20, 2014 7:48 am
Reply to  david5379

Very interesting point you have made David, re the mars Pluto needs exercise…I have Mars Pluto Uranus. Hard to find exercise that I like other the yoga and walking.

12HV feeling for you, hugs if we were near each other, we could go to yoga together xxx

calypso
calypso
February 20, 2014 12:24 pm
Reply to  david5379

could depression be about Moon 12v? i don’t even know where your Moon is….Leo? Can you find a way to feed it? hey, David, I like your points. I think to clear this stuff once and for all does require inner work, and it’s like a job in a way, at some points in your life when the time is right. Especially I like your point that “If I met someone awesome too early I might have become self satisfied and stayed stagnant with certain problems”. i feel like that. I’ve had work to do that I had to do… Read more »

12th house virgo
12th house virgo
February 21, 2014 2:08 am
Reply to  calypso

So sweet of you to notice my moon – yes, Leo moon. Leo is just on my 12th house cusp, but the moon is at 13 Leo, well in my 11th house. Got my hair done and some new jewelry and flowers. Does help!

But living with this depression – just seeing clearly that is what I have been doing for YEARS – has been the real eye opener. Now I see it clearly and I have to change my daily behavior now.

Emg
Emg
February 20, 2014 2:34 am

Yup depression is one of mine too. But I’ve stopped seeing it as a negative and rather more a time for utterly clear and unashamed seeing. the world as it is, my life as it is and all the crap that has been. Then you can start to clear the path and walk onwards. It’s a time to muse at depth and to cleanse. Take it as being an ok place to be. Not nice but OK. You then also start to see that stuff that makes you alive, vital and delicious. It will return and you will be wiser… Read more »

VSLR
VSLR
February 20, 2014 3:41 am
Reply to  Emg

Hugs for you dear 12thHV! Feeling about the same as you at the moment and can’t seem to shake it off. Just this profound sadness that’s heavy on my chest. Cried into the arms of my friend last night. Still working through the residue and the bullying that went on.

This time will pass and we can hopefully take away the gift of wisdom from it!

Pegasus
Pegasus
February 20, 2014 12:43 pm
Reply to  VSLR

As i am trying (very trying sometimes) to remain positive, can’t help but feel a planetary rebirthing may be taking place.
A deep letting go of all we have accumulated
that doesn’t honour us. That will create a sense of loss unless we are so sure of what the replacement will be. Doesn’t the universe abhor a vacuum?

12th house virgo
12th house virgo
February 21, 2014 2:06 am
Reply to  Pegasus

Yes, here’s hoping good things rush into the void. I am not crying (yet) today. I really do feel I had too many tears to say it was over the Pisces. More like letting go of an ideal and welcoming hardwork in its place. Terrible what is going on in the Ukraine right now 🙁 Here’s to new birth!

Blue Moon
Blue Moon
February 20, 2014 2:28 am

Thinking of you 12th House V xoxo I had a few days of that feeling. Rusty spoon in the chest stuff. Cried the whole flight home. Old loves and broken dreams. I pretended it was the film but I wasn’t watching one on the plane. I had the images on but the sound turned off. It does feel like a smokescreen is lifted from the heart chakra when I get that feeling. Not to be glib but would it help to try to visualise this as a cleansing of that region to allow for better stuff re that reality to… Read more »

aqua lion
aqua lion
February 20, 2014 12:44 am

Hmmm, haven’t looked at this website for ages…. just glancing down the week. Today: Mystic has no door. Two days ago, the post was: A new door is going to open one way or another.

Well it seems to be working….

Losing my religion
Losing my religion
February 20, 2014 12:36 am

Had DNA results come back. 2.7percent Neanderthal
Figured that is very mercury in retro.

davidl
davidl
February 20, 2014 12:14 pm

Lol !! It’s really interesting though. I read Clan of the Cave Bear back in the 70s and formed some type of opinion on Neanderthals. It was a novel for gods sake but now I see her ideas from this novel sort of appearing in ‘scientific’ research. It’s so obvious to me that art really is the key to co creation and that imagination is our most powerful tool. Maybe if we just ‘imagined’ ourselves at say 90 years old, as strong, quick minded, healthy and happy, we could make it so. Were you aware of your Neanderthal roots before… Read more »

pi
pi
February 20, 2014 12:28 pm
Reply to  davidl

Lol! I’m somewhat reliably informed by various Gemini types that white (ish) people (I guess) retain a minor percentage of Neanderthal DNA.

davidl
davidl
February 20, 2014 12:41 pm
Reply to  pi

AHA !!! Gemini does this all the time. They read a novel, tie in the ideas from a few OMNI articles, turn it into a ‘fact’ and use these ‘facts’ at elegant soirées to impress and confuse.
During retros of course it’s just confusion.
Any one with gem asc would secretly know this. Hmmm.

Pi
Pi
February 22, 2014 2:21 am
Reply to  davidl

hehee its my MO too dude. but never intentional you know, to impress or confuse. that just happens, or not. 😉

Charley
Charley
February 20, 2014 12:27 am

Having the WORST most stereotypical Merc RX of my life, I swear I don’t usually feel it but this one is ridic. My year old computer has already broken twice, then hard drive failed for no real reason, lost 2 years worth of studio work from my external hard drive only for it to reappear, lost phone connections, power cuts, travel issues, miscomms, exe’s, ex crushes, the whole nine yards.

Good thing, it’s forcing me to address some of the less organised areas of my life, back up all my work etc, stop procrastinating.

R(aqua/tauri)
R(aqua/tauri)
February 20, 2014 1:33 am
Reply to  Charley

🙁 I am so sorry about almost losing all that stuff. I don’t care about losing STUFF stuff so much anymore but all my data and work? I would die. Glad it reappeared and you’ve motivated me to get myself a new external drive so I stop living in fear.

Blue Moon
Blue Moon
February 20, 2014 2:30 am
Reply to  R(aqua/tauri)

Sorry to hear that too. I saw a Ted talk about how we are becoming cyborgs or cyber beings once and how much it hurts to loose massive amounts of our data like that. Sorry 🙁

Charley
Charley
February 20, 2014 4:54 am
Reply to  Blue Moon

Thanks guys, it was a revolting experience, I literally fell to my knees and sobbed. Most Mercurial part of the whole thing was how it reappeared, so weird. Thankful that it was there and have spent the day backing it up on 2 other formats, boring but essential. Do it, if you haven’t, just do.

I hate the impermanance of the digital world, one malfunction and poof, gone but I wouldn’t be able to do what I do without it.

Double Happiness
Double Happiness
February 20, 2014 1:29 pm
Reply to  Charley

hearing you….

Blue Moon
Blue Moon
February 20, 2014 4:24 pm

Oh gawd me too. Charley it’s like loosing a body part. (To continue my cyborg metaphor and not to diminish anyone’s pain who has lost a physical body part). But nooooo Charley this shitz is REAL. It’s memory loss! Not to go all “Apple fan kid” on ya but have you considered Le Cloud?” That is possibly a silly suggestion since you sound really clued up tech wise and I am not. Hence my propensity for apple products. At the very least I have someone to blame if it goes wrong and being psychical pas agg on a mercury retrograde… Read more »

Quadrupled
Quadrupled
February 19, 2014 11:32 pm

My MR screwball comedy was scheduling a business meeting over coffee with someone I had never met, him telling me later he would come to our meeting with a male friend of his, me going to the meeting thinking I would have coffee with a gay couple, he coming to the meeting on his own while his girlfriend waited for him at another cafe. Between the time I figured out he was not gay but was attached, I liked him, more than I would have expected. By the time he invited me to join his girlfriend and him to see… Read more »

Pi
Pi
February 19, 2014 11:59 pm
Reply to  Quadrupled

that is screwball..! 😉

i hope your Kitty Diva comes back to you safe sound and repaired xox

The Leo Socialite
The Leo Socialite
February 20, 2014 1:08 am
Reply to  Quadrupled

So much love and empathy to you Quadrupled – my beloved cat called (yes i AM A leo) Ubastin passed a few months ago and i was SO upset…obviously. but want to share that the first full moon after the passing of this most special of cats, who had outlasted marriages been there when i bought home my first child from hospital and used to accompany me on midnight wanders – three weeks after he passed i WOKE UP TO THE MOST LOUD PURRING NOISE. Wandered around house and then finally smelt unique white flower smell that reminded me of… Read more »

Pi
Pi
February 22, 2014 2:16 am

that is just a divine little kitty story. and Quad’s dream as well. I love this. I still miss my soft, fluffy feline friend of almost 8 years ago now..

Quadrupled
Quadrupled
February 20, 2014 8:44 am
Reply to  Quadrupled

Thank you. She is not out yet. It is taking time but I am hopeful.

I know what you mean LS, we lost a cat, then he was in my dreams. Then I moved. Two days later after the move, in my dream, I opened the door of the new house and he walked in.

I don’t think they ever leave.

Hdq
Hdq
February 20, 2014 4:18 pm
Reply to  Quadrupled

Blessings to your kitty, and to you. Xxxxx

golden weave
golden weave
February 19, 2014 10:45 pm

During MRetro I always seem to get the opportunity to go back over something and get it right. There are always delays in MR, which turn out to be mostly fortuitous. Useful information is revealed. Today, I had a thought about what it would be like to meet myself, person to person. Would I like myself? If not, what would I want to let go of to change and benefit me, others, my outcomes? This is probably a MR opposing Ascendant type of thought and question.

akapluto
akapluto
February 20, 2014 4:08 am
Reply to  golden weave

I had this moment yesterday, too! MR just squared my AC and my natal Saturn

moved on
moved on
February 19, 2014 10:39 pm

Taking three 15 year olds to see Eminem in Brisbane tomorrow. I’ve checked, double checked, triple checked all arrangements, printed out everything in case communication devices decide to go off the boil or awol. Fingers crossed it all goes well!!!!! And I can’t wait, it’s been YEARS since I’ve been to a big concert.

freedom ala air
freedom ala air
February 19, 2014 11:05 pm
Reply to  moved on

Oh eminem would be amazing! I’m wishing I was going to the boss also, and thought I wanted to see dolly too! Alas I just got a house and all the moula is gone this week…. Just chillin

sunkissed
sunkissed
February 20, 2014 1:24 am
Reply to  Mystic

So glad for him. I’ve been looking at connections in my past chart. I found Pluto -Venus and North Node- Jupiter connections on my wedding day chart, as well as Saturn on my Midheaven, Uranus-Opp Asc.
On an unexpected loss, I had a Pluto-Neptune and NorthNode-Venus connections and Mercury was in the mix, like my heart was suddenly yanked out. But that’s just my chart because I have a hard venus-neptune natal aspect anyways.

Blue Moon
Blue Moon
February 20, 2014 2:21 am
Reply to  sunkissed

Me to.
I adore Marshal M.
I enjoyed that post MM and for some reason must have not commented. Sometimes I see the entire sidebar groaning under the weight of my random thoughts and am simply too embarrassed to keep “sharing”. For me and my big mouth sometimes NOT sharing is more caring.

Blue Moon
Blue Moon
February 20, 2014 2:22 am
Reply to  Blue Moon

Me Too.
Not to
Ugh
English is my first language. Really.

Double Happiness
Double Happiness
February 20, 2014 1:27 pm
Reply to  Blue Moon

hahah love it

golden weave
golden weave
February 19, 2014 10:32 pm

I don’t know that this Mercury retro is all that bad (other than the intense dreams that some people and me included, have been having over the weekend – which I put down to Mercury retro in Pisces/Aqua for sensitive folk), things are moving at a fast pace (finally) and I don’t mind the minor hold ups with some things. If this is the preview or trailer to April, then I bet there’ll be some great progress. Then again, I haven’t taken Mars retro and how that may play out, fully into account yet

The Leo Socialite
The Leo Socialite
February 19, 2014 9:33 pm

Got computer fixed because my daughter and her boyfriend had downloaded so many movies and games the thing could hardly function.

computer repair guy backed it all up on his remote hard drive and then by mistake put back my user data from 2005 so my email was a TIME WARP.

#freakedout #nostalgia #nevernotbelievinginmercuryagain

milleunanotte
milleunanotte
February 19, 2014 11:23 pm

Emails from 2005!!! *shudder*

milleunanotte
milleunanotte
February 19, 2014 11:26 pm
Reply to  milleunanotte

Hey holy jesus that’s too funny last Friday i viewed an old back up disc and saw emails saved in a folder from 2004… remembered who they were from and… shuddered. It would be too much to find them actually in my um, inbox.

Aries
Aries
February 19, 2014 9:14 pm

Oh, so funny – I dismissed this Merc retro as not really affecting me, then – Netflix crashed. Our Sky TV box has no signal. A professor wanting to interview me first didn’t get my email, then had problems with his Skype account. The till at work crashed. My bank card’s PIN was locked by a malfunctioning card machine. All in the space of 24 hours. I’ll never blithely assume I’m immune to Merc Retro again, hear that Hermes?!

scorpio_rising
scorpio_rising
February 20, 2014 3:36 am
Reply to  Aries

My PS3 died, then resurrected, then cable box refused to reboot after last Sunday’s update, right in the middle of The Walking Dead.
Computer died, phone acting up…just super intense Mercury cycle.

Pegasus
Pegasus
February 20, 2014 1:17 pm
Reply to  scorpio_rising

Just finished series 1 of Walking Dead & start #2
tonight. It’s scary mary, but enjoying it, whilst waiting for new Game of Thrones to be available.
Moon-Neptune conjunct mid-heaven….give me a fantasy anytime vis a vis reality.

scorpio_rising
scorpio_rising
February 20, 2014 2:58 pm
Reply to  Pegasus

good stuff.
Are you following Vikings too? If you like Game of Thrones you dig it too!

jxsta
jxsta
February 19, 2014 8:24 pm

Most intense merc retro i have ever felt… I have been experiencing stupid computer glitches at work; stupid…. Boss’ travel plans thwarted then re-instated 48hrs later. Work to-do list just not decreasing but increasing by the day… I am experiencing so much start-stop-start-stop action it is actually sending me mad. Seriously. My adrenal glands have been in overdrive last few days. Said to my mum i should be skinny from all the stress, but funny that food intake is squashing that theory big time!
Damn you Merc Retro, you’re sending me crazy.

Chrysalis
Chrysalis
February 19, 2014 7:53 pm

Honestly Merc retrogrades never seem to affect me badly. I have travelled overseas, bought stuff, changed phone plans etc etc in the past and it has never been an issue. I have Merc in Pisces natally so perhaps I am just used to fluidity in communications. Plus I always check details a zillion times whenever I do anything (Mars in Virgo).
Last week my workplace had a major email/internet fail and it’s still ongoing. Even though it’s a large organisation the systems never normally fail.
I am copping a pounding from Saturn tho’.

Charley
Charley
February 20, 2014 12:23 am
Reply to  Chrysalis

Were you born during a Merc RX period? I was and I’m usually fairly unaffected.

scorpio_rising
scorpio_rising
February 20, 2014 3:34 am
Reply to  Charley

same here. But this Merc in Retro seemed to pull me in under it’s magical chaotic spell.

Chrysalis
Chrysalis
February 20, 2014 11:01 am
Reply to  Chrysalis

No, Merc not retro in my chart but it trines Neptune. Figures – I am a storyteller by trade.
Four retro planets in my birth chart: Pluto, Uranus, Neptune and Mars. No wonder I’m so fuqed up lol

S
S
February 20, 2014 11:17 am
Reply to  Chrysalis

Interesting Chrysalis.
Uranus trine Sun and Mercury.
2 retro planets Uranus and Neptune.

Chrysalis
Chrysalis
February 20, 2014 3:10 pm
Reply to  S

Yes there must be a little mini-generation of us born with those outer planets retro.

S
S
February 20, 2014 3:22 pm
Reply to  Chrysalis

A mini gen or a sub gen. Sounds cool.
Perhaps because there is some natal retro energy in our charts, we don’t get the classic retrograde experience. Not that I am saying I want it, but that there is a tiny natal immunity.

PerfectPisces
PerfectPisces
February 19, 2014 6:51 pm

Well besides me being a bitch and dealing with a wonderful man double pisces like me (pisces Venus/sun ) I’m truly grateful ..being single for so long has it downfalls.. But I am worried about my future in the financial aspect of things .. ????????

Blue Moon
Blue Moon
February 20, 2014 4:15 pm
Reply to  PerfectPisces

You “being a bitch” like its a BAD thing?
I’m the cheerleader for bitches. Go bitch go!
Xoxo

Ms.
Ms.
February 20, 2014 7:25 pm
Reply to  Blue Moon

lol

Blue Moon
Blue Moon
February 21, 2014 6:39 am
Reply to  Ms.

Say.
Doh

catfish moon
catfish moon
February 19, 2014 4:52 pm

Good. Raining again, Thank You Goddess!!!!
Did weed the garden during break in weather. I’m so thrilled to see my plants spreading out.

AND My boyfriend’s boss stopped by. He wants to expand their garden and they need lots of help!! So excited. They are my love’s closest people to family.

Got my virgo on!(virgo rising and venus virgo). Did some organizing and a bit of downsizing and burning old papers. YES!

Pi
Pi
February 20, 2014 12:14 am
Reply to  catfish moon

oh it’s nice to demolish a paper mountain isn’t it!

hdq
hdq
February 20, 2014 12:39 pm
Reply to  catfish moon

Yes!!! Now if only it would rain straight for the next two months. Saw a giant rainbow on the drive to the kids school this morning. A good sign. 🙂 Gardens!!

Pi
Pi
February 19, 2014 4:28 pm

I kind of have less and less of a grip on my daily life and stuff. The vague-outs feel as intense as when Neptune was transiting conjunct my late cap moon . Wisps of melancholy/depression, kind of inadvertently antisocial or if I am social I don’t quite feel in the thick of The People in an ongoing way. Feel comfortable around scorps, Some saggitarians – people who get big ideas and emo states but don’t judge too much, are into ‘the conversation’. At other times am blasting AC/DC while I go running or swimming I’m the sunshine to remind me… Read more »

Pi
Pi
February 19, 2014 4:31 pm
Reply to  Pi

*in* the sunshine. Soz.

Andromeda
Andromeda
February 19, 2014 4:54 pm
Reply to  Pi

But exactly.

Down to the preference for Scorpios.
I can’t with Virgo’s atm. Or Aqua detachment.

Pi
Pi
February 19, 2014 7:46 pm
Reply to  Andromeda

yes… i love my virgos and aquas, they tend to feature the most regularly in my day to day life. But it’s the water and fire that seems to be working best for me right now.

calypso
calypso
February 19, 2014 5:26 pm
Reply to  Pi

is it just Neptune in Pisces Pi, is it nearing any personal planets? are you feeling ok health-wise?

I’m also no doing so well with judgment and what I consider to be anal schizz, pushy people and faux friendliness (unless it’s like, the checkout chick or equivalent). Turns out there’s a bit irking my working 🙂 The world is hard sometimes xx

as a Scorp i felt I should drop in 😉

Pi
Pi
February 19, 2014 8:00 pm
Reply to  calypso

xx
yes… it’s like, do you not think that i am doing my best here? and/or doing my thing which is not related to your thing at all? I don’t need to wade through your sense of superiority, kthanks

neptune is nowhere near anything in my chart – no aspects, nothing.
health wise.. i don’t know, fine I guess… just getting a couple of daily habits back in place slowly (get up in morning, some kind of exercise..)
thanks Calypso… xX

calypso
calypso
February 19, 2014 8:42 pm
Reply to  Pi

you’re welcome sweeheart, I hope the Sun shines bright for you this month xx

Pi
Pi
February 19, 2014 10:32 pm
Reply to  calypso

times like this I turn to music,
lo this comes up for me!:

cryin’ won’t help you,
prayin’ won’t do you no good

calypso
calypso
February 19, 2014 10:55 pm
Reply to  Pi

I think we’ve had this convo once before Pi – do you remember? About how you shouldn’t feel sorry for yourself, it doesn’t help? Is that a Cap moon thing? I say fuq LZ (they could be really inappropriate at times after all….) go ahead, cry and pray at will dear girl 🙂