Your Second Saturn Return
Sonic Youth’s Kim Gordon is an elegant and inspirational role model for handling your second Saturn Return. And, Saturn transits are better with age.
If you have not seen the excellent Elle mag interview with Sonic Youth’s Kim Gordon, read it. After a classic annus horribilus, the perma-cool muso is thriving; wiser and stronger.
The first Saturn Return occurs in our late 20s. It synchronizes with realizing that you’re not immune to various societal realities (money, tax) nor invincible to any kind of aging.
The Second Saturn Return Is Easier, In That Saturn IS The Time God
The second Saturn Return, 28/29 years later, is easier in that Saturn is the Time God. His transits and natal chart placements are easier with maturity. It’s harder because rather than dealing with merely turning 30, you’re more aware of actual mortality and ageism. You need to have a coherent, hands-on policy toward health and money while being vigilant against those who would “mark you down” merely because of the time you’ve existed on earth.
If you’re fortunate enough to make it to your second Saturn Return, you’re unlikely to have tolerance for synthetic relationships. You know who you are and have gracefully stepped out of previous roles or disguises. You know a hell of a lot more than most people give you credit for. Hilariously, you become invisible just when you can stand in your own skin and have worthwhile wisdom.
The second Saturn Return builds on the first and often echoes it in downright eerie ways. But you’re unlikely to be seeking to prove you can make it in the eyes of society or prove stability via relationships and children. The stability you seek is within and you no longer give a fuq about how you’re perceived. Flat abs by Friday is now more like Maintain Hip Mobility.
Flat Abs By Friday Is Now More Like Maintain Hip Mobility
Your life is an artisanal achievement, hand-hewn and fully conscious. At this time, you’re able to assess past defeats and disillusion without hardening into cynicism. Seasoned, you confront the unavoidable vicissitudes of life – cantankerous Muggles, financial challenges, deadlines – with far greater aplomb. If you could but combine your cool of today with – say – the thighs and liver resilience of your 20s, you would rule the world.
Kim Gordon confronted the breakdown of her 20-year long marriage to Thurston Moore & a life-threatening illness during her second Saturn Return. Now she is emerging, stronger and in Phoenix mode. She keeps “young” by not conforming and focusing on her work + creative vibe.
Some bits from the interview below – she’s a Triple Taurus with Moon on her Saturn Neptune conjunction.
That trait (being empowered by letting herself feel vulnerable) is much in evidence when Gordon discusses the recent past. She’s sad, and unafraid to show it, but she’s also clear-eyed about how the dismantling of some areas of her life has freed her up in others. “When you’re in a group, you’re always sharing everything. It’s protected,” she says of being in Sonic Youth. “Your own ego is not there for criticism, but you also never quite feel the full power of its glory, either.” She’s done with that for now. “A few years ago I started to feel like I owed it to myself to really focus on doing art.”
"Rap Music Is Really Good When You're Traumatized"
Gordon stayed home and listened to a lot of hip-hop. “Rap music is really good when you’re traumatized,” she says…
We’ve finished the dregs of our wine, and the sun has set. I’m interested in something Gordon was filmed saying about imprisoned members of the Russian activist punk band Pussy Riot: “Women make natural anarchists and revolutionaries, because they’ve always been second-class citizens, kinda having had to claw their way up.” Gordon nods as I read back her quote: “I mean, who made up all the rules in the culture? Men—white male corporate society. So why wouldn’t a woman want to rebel against that?”