Your post Respect for Taureans has got me marvelling (yet again) at just how fuqing eerily accurate your astro-knowledge is. Your dailies have got me jaw-dropping (yet again). You Are Genius!
Anyway, enough gushing, I have a query. I have indeed (as you state in your daily horoscope) been fighting a lover turned foe vibe precisely since Christmas. Me Toro, He Pisces. I want to know if anyone tell me what the fuq is going on with Pisceans at the moment? Okay Mars in Pisces. But what the fuq? Do Piscean Boys ever become Men?
Okay, after 8 years together we have had some difficulties of late (mostly financial). We have adored each other for so many years. We have a farm of rescued (some 100) animals. I love him very much, to this moment. The child within him brought the child in me back to life. I am ever so grateful for that. But with life comes responsibilities…At Christmas time Pisces boy leaves for a week with no notice (turns out taking drugs with wayward brother). Two weeks later he comes down with Bell’s Palsy (methinks three all day/night coke benders would lower one’s immunity to the point where the virus (if that is what causes the condition) would take hold). Pisces is on pharma steroids for the inflammation of the facial nerve. Pisces turns progressively psychotic as a result of the steroids (as a nutritionist I prescribed B12 & B Complex daily, plus took him organic blueberry-picking at the local farm on that weekend as the anti-oxidants should help too). On full Leo moon weekend just past (he Leo Rising) goes mental and gets violent (no biggie, I can handle his aggression, we are both male). Things get ugly…
Me, being Toro, digs heels in and states, I will not be with someone like that, what next a knife in the back whilst I sleep? We have no money at the moment on account of he not being able to work (hairdresser). So Pisces disappears for the last four days (not the first time) and is uncontactable and not returning calls. Meanwhile, for the last month I have been the Rock – working full time, doing everything around the house and farm, making it all as easy as poss for him. And I’m starting to think… Why can’t I, for a change, be the Glenn Close/Fatal Attraction Bunny Boiler? (Not that I would ever boil a bunny, I am vegan, but you get my point?)
So, my question, can any Pisceans tell me what the fuq is going on with you guys at the moment? Or is it just unique to my situation, Neptune/Chiron in Pisces, he being super-sensitive to substances and having steroids fuq with his brain, etc, etc?Thing is, I still love this guy so very much, and I so feel his pain, I so want to help him…I just have too much else to deal with right now (ie, the shared responsibilities he ran away from) to give much of a fuq. Though I am really hurting. And exhausted.
I know Neptune/Chiron (his health/family issues) is hitting him, and this fixed-square full moon fuqer just gone has catalysed things, but why do Pisceans run away from their problems? Or is it just me being Toro not understanding it? We have had 8 years of good times and bad times and always got through them. Or have I just been surrogate mother doing everything for him and it’s my fault for not setting boundaries earlier? This placid Toro is just about ready to gore some bullfighter.
Am I a Love Zombie? Should I let it go?
If you can shed any light, I’d be eternally grateful.
Gypsy Toro Feeling The Pinch. xx
Dear Gypsy Toro Feeling The Pinch,
Thank you for the flattery – it works on me! Unfortunately, i don’t think this is so much about what Pisceans are or are not up to, Mars, Neptune whatever – domestic violence is not suddenly crashingly appropriate just because you’re both men, right? I mean, did i miss some memo? And i am not actually an expert on Space Dust benders but it would seem logical that it would amplify nerve conditions. Sweetie, Boyfriend sounds like a fully-fledged addict & if this is the case, Boyfriend needs WAY more than organic blueberries, B12 and you gleaning more about Pisces from me and my peeps. Sorry if this is not what you want to hear but seriously?
As for Neptune-Chiron-Mars etc, i have been saying for a while now that (in general) Pisceans are polarizing – either cleaning up their act big-time or embarking on epic sleazy benders of self-destruction. Same goes for where ever you have Pisces in YOUR chart, you know? If you’re pure & authentic there, amazing magic opens up. I am talking life improving synchronicity and noticably enhanced psychic powers. Choose even a hint of grub there and well, you’re downwardly mobile real fast.
So personally, i think you should be outta there – or, as you’ve got the 100 foster animals (LOVE THIS) – maybe suggest Boyfriend looks into some other options. eg: Not living with you till he gets his shit together via N.A. or similar? And if you’re casting around looking for reasons to justify his violence, hun, you’re wading into extreme Love Zombie territory. You have a beautiful vibe to you – please don’t become a Love Zombie shacked up with a violent Qi Vampire on Space Dust?
But okay, it’s the Moon in Scorpio & i have had like a 1000 coffees – what does everyone else think? Am i being too judgmental here?
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