Dark Side Of The Moon Debriefing

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Eugenio Recuenco

 

So that Dark Moon before the New Moon on Xmas Weekend was pretty intense, yes?

Coming after an Eclipse and all.

It’s funny how, leaving aside the Christian aspects of it, that the modern Xmas is meant to be jovial – all Saturn, shopping and too much mead under the mistletoe – tres Jupiter.

But in ancient times it was always a festival of Saturn – the Saturnalia.

Between Dec 17 and 25 was like a flashpoint, followed by the chance to perform a massive neural dump of the past, crap habits, outworn pathways et al and then a super-Pluto enhanced New Startover Moon on December 24-25.

So how did you go?

Please, debrief your Dark Moon, Saturnalia and festive experiences here…You KNOW you want to.

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frans rilea khaous
frans rilea khaous

sorry about the excessive cursing :/ weirdness abounds

frans rilea khaous
frans rilea khaous

aghh!!! an aries pothead/mega-dealer has been living avec mon fiance et moi for the past two months, along with his baby mamma and 13 mo. double scorpio babe… striking natal notes: tight retro merc. conj. retro venus, conj. sun within 5 degrees in aries, the eighth house. our composite chart highlight: pluto dead conjunct the ascendant back to the nutshell.. the messiest arsehole i’ve ever met. refused to clean anything after himself, or help his babymamma with the baby, clean her diapers or wipe his urine off the toilet seat or clean up his little shaven facial hair debris from… Read more »

scorpiorising
scorpiorising

My daughter and I caught the flu, so had no energy prior Christmas to shop or prep for Christmas.
It took the joy out of it this year for me.
Otherwise, we were lucky nothing bad really happened.
My friend’s faired worse.
One was abused by a new bf and another had a fight with an abusive mother.
I hate how the holiday brings out the bad in others.

Baristagem
Baristagem

😯

My Dark Moon mantra was “Let it Flow, Let it Go…”

Letting go of the past was a huge dark Moon theme for me and a lot of things came up… so I just breathed and said my mantra. 😯

Baristagem
Baristagem

😯

I also went riding everyday – including xmas day and I haven’t even put on 1 kg! 😯

Anonymous
Anonymous

riding is cool. i went swimming (floating??) everyday – a pre-xmas retreat.

Baristagem
Baristagem

😯

I love swimming! 😀

weathergirl
weathergirl

As I’ve severed relations with the greatest Dramatists in my life (thx, pluto/moon transit), my holidays have ever thus been quiet. So quiet Christmas for me. No big dramas the day, but the lead-up was awful -probably the thematic culmination of every challenge this year. 2011 has largely felt like one big “NO”. My girl is struggling mightily –‘s been awful since last spring when all that Aries action hit. She has Mars in Aries and the explosion was quite a sight. Since then my ability to work has been largely curtailed, almost to nothing. The savings dwindling, the depression… Read more »

goldenfleece
goldenfleece

hi Weathergirl,
thoughts with you lovely seagoat. there was a post here a while ago, the wording read ”hold on, your miracle is on the way”…im wishing that for you and your little Aqua. xx

weathergirl
weathergirl

Oh, thank you. That is such a lovely thought. Sometimes miracles need a little ground work done. Bit like remediating the soil on your lot before you plant the garden. So many true metaphors in nature we forget! Perhaps 2011 was me remediating the soil of my own garden. Certainly a whole lot of manure got worked in! A part of me is so restless that likely I had to be full-stopped before I did myself (or anyone else) harm. Or before the proper conditions could be cultivated for anything to really take root. Ain’t I philosophical? But maybe, maybe…… Read more »

WOOHOO
WOOHOO

I thought this was meant to be a really auspicious Christmas Mystic? What the fuq happened? Seriously?

weathergirl
weathergirl

Auspicious doesn’t always mean joyful or happy. In my book “auspicious” means I need to take notes and get clear.

I got clear and I’m still taking notes.

On the astro note: Jupiter did turn direct, but isn’t really chugging up to speed. More like just waking up for a his long slumber. “Oh yeah [smacks lips], what I was saying…”

WOOHOO
WOOHOO

Very true. Sometimes my tunnel vision has “auspicious” meaning “things I want” and lack of patience wanting these things NOW. Haha. Oh well.

DeepSeaBloke
DeepSeaBloke

More heavy Saturn family stuff – on and on it goes … exhausted after months of this but quite enjoying the slower pace atm.

Christmas did have soul, it was loving, but it wasn’t exactly cheery. (Reminder to self: must dig up Monty Python DVDs).

On a brighter note, I’ve rediscovered cooking! Love people like Hugh Fearnley-Whittingstall’s ideas as starting points (now, there’s an interesting shabby-but-ambitious Cap person for you). But need other suggestions.

Aside from classics like Moosewood, what other brill wholesome food books would you guys recommend?

nat
nat

nice to see you DSB. Greens Restaurant in San Francisco produced some truly excellent (vegetarian) recipe books. I rarely use recipes when cooking but still find inspiring & new ideas from these books. The first was called The Greens Cookbook and the second was Fields of Greens, I think. Both published by Bantam Press. If you are in Australia, you may be able to acquire a copy of Philip Johnstone’s book when he was the chef at ecco restaurant in Brisbane many years ago. He did very clever but simple, repeatable things with food. At xmas I like to cook… Read more »

DeepSeaBloke
DeepSeaBloke

Thanks Nat! Philip Johnstone – as in Brissie chef? Great idea. Greens, also good. Sounds like a pleasant xmas you had – interesting menu. The other rediscovery has been Albariño (esp. Zios) – normally reserved for fab arty conversations at fab arty tapas bars. Perfect for summer food (here in OZ). As with many others here, this last year was a tough one – lost two close friends in the weeks after the mid year eclipse season both of whom I’d known for more than 25 years. Long grieving process. In recent weeks, it’s been all about aged care and… Read more »

nat
nat

Yes, as in the Brissy chef. The E’cco Bistro website reads like he is still there (I thought he had moved on?) but anyway there is a cookbook by him mentioned on the website. Thanks for the tip re Albariño – will keep a look out for it. When you mentioned heavy Saturn stuff I wondered if you meant death, dying, boundaries et al. Sorry to hear about your friends passing. It is tough. But we must all face it some how. I am having Saturn Opposite Moon transit at the moment. I have a little note to self on… Read more »

DeepSeaBloke
DeepSeaBloke

Both friends actually died in freak accidents weeks apart – phew! Two amazing people, both doing extraordinary things in their lives and careers. They had (or rather still have) strong networks of friends and family, so that has made a huge difference for us all. A message about living / loving in the NOW, if there ever was one. Another friend of the family passed away the day before the June eclipse after a long illness so at least that was expected. She was quite bats so we have many fun memories. And then … nah, that’s enough for today… Read more »

nat
nat

that would be “Sorry to read OF… ” Mars in Virgo grrrrr.

Greens Cookbook (a bright new version) is available from their restaurant here:

or via fishpond here:
http://www.fishpond.com.au/Books/Greens-Cookbook-Deborah-Madison/9781904943648?cf=3

FireyBovine
FireyBovine

Snap! I just bought Hugh’s Veg book as my xmas gift …
and in much the same spirit …
I haven’t been so besotted with a recipe book in years and I love cooking …
but to find a non-daggy vegetarian recipe book … it was big! (meaning, i can’t recommend any others so will watch this post myself!)

as for xmas cheer … my suggestion of a xmas family concert was actually taken up … and it worked … lots of laughs/ice breaker/refreshing

DeepSeaBloke
DeepSeaBloke

“Non-daggy” is exactly what I’m looking for so the Veg Every Day book is on the list!

Btw, love the idea of concerts and plays for Xmas.

shell
shell

I’ve not got it, but have been told that the CSIRO cook book, the healthy diet one, is quite good. That same person also loves Bill Grainger books.
If you like Asian food Charmaine Solomon did a huge Asian cooking encyclopaedia type book. It’s old. Recipes from every country in Asia. It used to fascinate me as a kid.

DeepSeaBloke
DeepSeaBloke

Charmaine Solomon – yes, found a copy here! As you say, an oldie but goodie.

FireyBovine
FireyBovine

and Wendy Sutton’s books are brilliant as well … Solomon endorsed 😉

equilibrium girl
equilibrium girl

Thank you so much, Libraquarius. I love your story and take on the wonderful world of hen ownership. I’m disgusted by the treatment our amazing feathered friends get in our culture. I could never eat a bird. I’m so lucky my Zooey found me (she pecked my shoes when I first met her – I soon discovered she had a serious shoe fetish!) and didn’t end up as a battery hen. You’re so lucky to have found your hen friends too. I imagine they got a wonderful life with you. I put a shoe on Zooey’s grave, a good pink… Read more »

scorpiorising
scorpiorising

Zooey sounded like a cool friend. I am sorry for your loss. I had a pet duck as a child and he followed me around like a little puppy.

thisisme
thisisme

Glad your tree was pretty. 🙂

scaleseverywhere
scaleseverywhere

Amid the fruit cake & decos I had someone fall on my kitchen floor in a heap screaming – other relations were far too self absorbed to notice how sad and traumatized this poor darlin’ is…….I started ranting that they all needed to start speaking the truth and stop coming to my place to unravel……my tree was pretty though……I am worn out…..families are sometimes a poison chalice we all keep supping from. Why?

thisisme
thisisme

My xmas was nowhere near as bad, mad, or sad as others here. But I empathise. As for the week before? Now there is another scenario! Best I dont dwell on it tho. Sleep and resolve and positivity are what I need more of.

12th house virgo
12th house virgo

I am so over Christmas. But I had so much astro weirding going on – I really want to just go back to the cyclical celebrations. I’ve got a six year old who loves Christmas. I had loads of synchronicities. Long note to post here, but it is so much astro stuff, who else would care? I had a consult done awhile back by an astrologer – not MM. I asked her to give me general info, not prediction, as I’m interested in soul growth. Apparently this is a rarer request, and I could tell she was uncomfortable. She threw… Read more »

fushia fairy
fushia fairy

wow…I mean, really….will have to marinate on this….as we have so much in common…
leo moons, virgo rising, virgo venus in 12th….

The rabbit doesn’t much matter. But she wouldn’t start the journey without it. And I’ve just returned from hell.
…..Oh so true.

But because I see the patterns people get stuck in, clearly and with compassion. I want to be of service, to tell them the dangers in the road and prep them for the excitiment of the journey they’re on. I see that clearly and I love that. ….
ME too!!!exactly.

Good for you! Good luck. I can feel your growth! wonderful!!!

12th house virgo
12th house virgo

Thanks! I also posted a rant to Facebook outting myself as an intuitive empath and noting the confusion that has caused me in relationships. It was unnecessary but felt good to own my power and vulnerability equally. I don’t have to be used by anyone for that. A low scorp aquaintence emailed me moments after that post asking me to do a reading for her. I sent her a note explaining it wears me out to do that for friends and included links to some astro sites. People can only value my time and skill once I do, damn it!… Read more »

Gneiss Moon
Gneiss Moon

(Nods.) I know. Ain’t that somethin’ ?
I have folks in my family that won’t even speak. I recently heard some relationship hit the rocks, and lord they couldn’t have got to me faster for a free reading if they had lassoed Air Force One. I did it for my Mother, but made it quite clear it’s $ cash on the barrelhead $ from now on.

Gneiss Moon
Gneiss Moon

PS. Sun/Uranus/Pluto in Virgo 9

12th house virgo
12th house virgo

My Gem friend told me I should have told the Scorp I would read for her but for a fee. Honestly, I don’t feel comfortable doing straight readings for cash because there’s no prediction to it – the future is a set of probabilities. I have karma goggles and people don’t generally want to see that stuff clearly. Too much accountability. I’m thinking of studying astro and doing intuitive astrology or something. Just so then I don’t have to self-guilt over not delivering a product. A chart is work. But, then again, maybe I’m making it harder on myself than… Read more »

Gneiss Moon
Gneiss Moon

The reading I described above was astro/natal/ bit of transits. How you feel about reading for family is understandable, you are closely invested in the outcome. Gave my Mom and Sis tarot reads – that is a good energy exchange, and I am happy to do theirs because they do so much for me and we are close. (Thankfully, good news in both cases) Other incident was obviously yet another uneven energy exchange in the family circle, (person has taken advantage of my Mom and Sis and that ticks me off) and the person volunteered me to do a reading… Read more »

fallen angel
fallen angel

Yo, 12th House…goodness you too eh? The ascent from Pluto strengthens our muscles of compassion, though we oft forget that we need to mete kindness to ourselves first. There’s no rule that says charging for your insight (rather than foresight as it’s not predictive as you say) isn’t possible. Therapy isn’t predictive. And sometimes all people need is a supportive, guiding energy to help them see beyond the overwhelming mire. Maybe this is the point where you need to go a bit Limbic on the plan and just go for what your gut tells you. What people can or can’t… Read more »

fushiafairy
fushiafairy

oh the virgo rising need to be qualified….I so have that…and yes it has held me back…

12th house virgo
12th house virgo

Oh thanks, fa! You made me almost cry. Thanks for that!

fallen angel
fallen angel

You’re welcome hon, behind the anger, lay the tears you know.. just take a step, and start interacting. It might be harder to be faced with how people react or say, but you’re in the real rather than just the theoretical.

You can do it! hugs

Gneiss Moon
Gneiss Moon

Indeed, that was very insightful, fa. It personally resonates with my Saturn Rx (self-doubt/writing) in 3rd moreso that my Virgo bits.
Lifelong learning will happen, so dive in now ! I have worked with students for years and the learning is a two-way street, always. Don’t be so hard on yourself, it is most important to make the connections with others, something will flip someone’s trigger, and that’s the important thing. 🙂 You are good enought now ! Yes ! thanks all for the insightful convos

Scorched Earth
Scorched Earth

Yes yes.. I gets it too! I have done a lot of intuitive work and shadow work and know of a lot of others that went through that process with me that charge for readings perse. They’re not psychic, they’ve not astro, they’re intuitive about working with shadow, soul and the bit I love the most.. well I love it all but am completely fascinated by the predictability of it all.. is patterning!! There are lots of different ways to approach this and I will say, if I can be so bold, that suggesting to yourself that you need something… Read more »

Aries_FTL
Aries_FTL

I went to what was supposed to be an ‘orphan’s Xmas… except that everyone knew each other and were old friends and I felt so damn ‘outsider’-ish that only an hour into it I feigned a sickie and got in the car and drove away. Quite an extreme reaction but I felt so ‘invisible’ and didn’t fit in at all. Spent the rest of the evening alone but happy in my own energy. In the past I would’ve stuck it out, hung in there, just to be ‘polite’. But this time I took responsibility for my own happiness and got… Read more »

Scorched Earth
Scorched Earth

Well if we’re using this as the confession box.. *grins* All 3 siblings are somewhat black sheep but I’m the one that flew the coop and went north. They’re all south and I rarely go back for Christmas. It’s often an illusion of a good time that ends up with me traipsing all over Melbourne visiting everyone separately coz they can’t share space. Yay, don’t I want to spend my holiday time like that. I did do calls to all, and decent chats leading in. Sis won’t do the day so it was the eve, same for mum as she… Read more »

Scorched Earth
Scorched Earth

Looking at tomorrows astro.. I reckon I’m on target for Saggi Sun and Toro Asc. I’ll hoist the sails me hearties and do it my way. 🙂

shell
shell

Boycotting Christmas and new year are completely acceptable and sane things to do. Faked ‘seasonal cheer’ is shite and prob why this time of year is so fraught. In fact if more people had the sense of self to say ‘no’ it’d probably be a much happier joy to all kind of time.
I had a lovely Christmas, i took a feast and some work to the beach, got some sunshine and ocean action, avoided a mental storm and didn’t have to pretend anything to anyone. Merry Christmas to me!

Scorched Earth
Scorched Earth

Ahhh.. many thanks Shell 🙂

Not seeking any validation but appreciate your reply.

Yes, faked cheer is worse than none imho.

Happy NY to you too!

shell
shell

Re that thing about thinking what other people will think of you. I totally get it, and still get it, but am much happier now in the position that really those other people aren’t actually thinking of you, or of they are, their determination of you as ‘loser’ is a reflection of them, not you. It shows much more strength of character to choose not to be social rather than do what is expected. Of course yes, we all have obligations that we have to attend to whether or not we want to, but there’s leeway. I got to this… Read more »

Tropic of Scorp
Tropic of Scorp

Hehe. I read that review in SMH Spectrum early this year. I don’t need to read the book, I’m already living the life. I spent Xmas on my own & will be spending NYE on my own too. And I don’t give a shit what anybody thinks. December would have to be my least favorite month of the year. All that enforced fun and expectation to have a good time. UGH!

ArienScorp
ArienScorp

While Christmas/Yule is an ok time for me, my mom died a couple of months ago and I refused to go to the funeral. I was told it was disrepectful to my mom. Really, was she there? I don’t think so. I wanted to honor what passed between my mom and I without a lot of relatives I have nothing in common with.

shell
shell

I’m glad you’re still about AS, I really like your perspective on the world.
xxo

ArienScorp
ArienScorp

Thanks, shell. Holidays off. It’s been nice.

fushiafairy
fushiafairy

Tomorrow I have a very important appointment….please everyone, can you send me positive outcome vibes for me.
I am seeing a doctor for disability evaluation.
I haven’t even given it thought, not worrying at all.
Now though, I am moving my energy to visualize understanding, clarity, positive energy between the doctor and me.

wish me luck!!!

Little Joey
Little Joey

I’m imagining it all done with a fabulous outcome for you!!

Scorched Earth
Scorched Earth

Wishing all the Jupitarian-Sagittarian luck I can muster 🙂

Wishing you the kind of rapport btwn doctor and you that leaves you feeling understood, cared for and supported!

andromeda
andromeda

FF getting what she wants, manifest, manifest, what her Divine Highest Good needs now! Xx.

WOOHOO
WOOHOO

Best of luck!

fushiafairy
fushiafairy

Thank you very much!!!!

weathergirl
weathergirl

looking forward to what comes of this, FF. Best to you and your doc.

Chrissy
Chrissy

Wow, I’m amazed to see that I wasn’t the only one who had an awful time in the days building to Christmas. Starting with my company sucking the life out of me making me work 15 hr days before our Christmas break. Then loosing my beautiful and very loved dog the day before Christmas Eve…finally barely avoiding a house fire while me and my children were sleeping. I was literally shopping and crying. When I finally had a down moment, I slept my days away. Finally, yesterday the depression broke like a fever. So happy to feel a cloud lifted.… Read more »

fushiafairy
fushiafairy

oh, so sorry for your loss. Hope you have a wonderful new year.

Little Joey
Little Joey

So sorry to hear about your dog….. glad to hear you are feeling better.

Little Joey
Little Joey

I spend Christmas eve lying in bed crying about how down I was and how I hated everything in my life to my poor confused Scorp b/f – it suckkked. Dec 25th was no so bad but the lead up was vile.

fushia fairy
fushia fairy

UGGGGGGHHHHHH
my sister is in awful relationship. I can’t stand it anymore. I may have to fly back and kick some ass. IT is destroying her, and my parents.
bummer.

Lucy
Lucy

The crescent moon flanked by brightly exuberant Venus was a nice touch. I felt like an F-18 going to a picnic. Excited and intense but when the two days of Christmas came, I was surrounded by slow moving humans, still hanging on to an old version of “how did I get here” rather than “how do I change”. I responded to other’s energy towards me rather than what they were pretending at and that freaked out a few people. Helped me to become more authentic myself. I will dedicate “and my most favourite person in the universe is…” to my… Read more »

12th house virgo
12th house virgo

That totally resonates with me. I posted a rant called “excuse my inner child.” Events from the past week made it clear to me that I will never “fit in” so long as that’s what I try to do. I cried with relief after posting that because I finally gave my inner child permission to be who she is unequivocally. I can’t believe it took me 37 years. But I can’t unsee that now.

Ali B
Ali B

I have to say my Chrissie sucked a bit too. Trying to be positive for my kids but all I want to do is plan next so that we are not here. Cant waste anymore time revisiting old wounds. Im outta here, next year. Time for new traditions

Glad ur back Mystic

ZappedVirgoGrowingBalls
ZappedVirgoGrowingBalls

Thank you Mystic for the heads up on all this! Even though the scenario was scary to me (leaving false security), I powered thru knowing that change is really my only option. Wish me luck!!!

StarInspired
StarInspired

Love it Z.V.G.B!!… Really must grow some Balls mySelf, “leave false security behind & power thru knowing that change is really my only option!”

Thanks! Really needed that Gumption to be modelled for me ; )

Taurus Vixen
Taurus Vixen

Ah forgot to add that I am nesting up A STORM! Seriously, HAD to go out the day after Christmas for houseplant buying adventure. Then the next day spent 4 frigging hours at Ikea buying things for the house. I’m newly divorce and after living here for 8 1/2 years finally making this house a home. Suppose I am getting my Taurus on right?

Tropic of Scorp
Tropic of Scorp

Jupiter is in Taurus at the moment and it recently went direct too. 🙂

neworder
neworder

Un Christmas Xmas – hi – I’m new here. 1eth house leo, virgo rising. I have had the weirdest upside year and all I can do is wait with bated breath for it to be over. Left my 2 year stiffling relationship w/cancer man. Possessive to the point of emotionally abusive? He would go through my things looking for what? I had no privacy. That was in sept, I finally ran. Some of my stuff is still there. In early oct I reconnected w/a virgo man I was in love with, but who would not commit to me before my… Read more »

neworder
neworder

I meant 12th house leo and virgo rising, oops

andromeda
andromeda

welcome neworder! Hope your new year brings lots of luck and love.

neworder
neworder

Thanks A! I feel the new year will be better, yes! Lots of love and luck for all!

Taurus Vixen
Taurus Vixen

Well I had a lovely and completely different Christmas than I have ever had in my life. This is my very first holiday not to be with family. Spoke with them but wasn’t with them. Went to friend’s house and spent it with their family.

Keenly missed my Virgo pilot who seems to have vanished at the moment. Wondering if this vanishing is permanent.

Unbelievable amount of death surrounding this Christmas. I know so many people that have lost a very close loved one right before Christmas. Heartbreaking.

ZappedVirgoGrowingBalls
ZappedVirgoGrowingBalls

Well, well, Mystic’s timeline of Dec. 17-25 has proved true for me this Holiday season! I quit my job of 16 yrs on Dec 20 to a speechless Cancer boss who is stuck in the Dark Ages and is misogynistic to boot. Happy Zap Zone to you, bossman. I have Cancer moon and rising so I was zapping too. Took a new job right next door with a young Saggi Gal boss who sought me out for my experience. I sell fine art in a resort town in Colorado and these two weeks are the busiest of the year, so… Read more »

Sassy
Sassy

Too ashamed to go into detail, but it involved gin, my ex Toro and me wailing like a lost crabby girl.

Taurus Vixen
Taurus Vixen

has happened to most of us!

fushia fairy
fushia fairy

sooo sorry….
hugs deary.

fallen angel
fallen angel

Oh baby girl, seriously, Xmas flushes out exes like termite treat. You are not alone!!! xxxx

prowlncrab
prowlncrab

🙁

Nuffin sadder than a gin drunk crabby girl made lost and sad by a tricksy, nasty Toro ex.

*huuuuuge hug* We are in the ZZone chickadoodle and I believe Pluto (the C**T) is in our House Of Getting Jerked Around By Assholes. Tsok – I haven’t been much better. I stalked my ex on a dating site and pretended to be someone else in order to talk to him!!!

~oh the shame~

Anonymous
Anonymous

you got it bad PC and so have I. I’ve been mightliy jerked around the last month and just told the “other” that life is too short for me to be waiting around for him- get over yourself. ha feels good

Sassy
Sassy

Thanks all. Feeling better. Stay away from gin and Toro men. 😉

Anonymous
Anonymous

Pulled into the vortex of in-law tension. Felt overwhelmed. Stood up for the sister-in-law everyone one disses. Tired of the shadow projection. Don”t think I made any friends.

prowlncrab
prowlncrab

Xmas sucked donkey’s balls. And I wasn’t the only one being a whingebucket this time. A lot of my friends had the shits for one reason or another. I’m just glad it’s over. Blaah.

Welcome back Mystic!

StarInspired
StarInspired

Well… After leaving a housesit, which had come to an abrupt & premature end after only a week (bcoz the woman became homesick whilst in Thailand)… I bounced around from place to place 5 times, during Qi Vampire time, no less, & finally, exhausted, just prior to Xmas, i made a totally sentimental & rash decision to fly back to the home-town to be with friends, family (splintered) & more importantly/delusionally, the Saggi Artist. This ‘choice’ had clearly not been thought out. I spent Xmas ‘alone’ & crying… but yes, in my home-town. Just not what I had mistakenly hoped… Read more »

StarInspired
StarInspired

Ps: The Xmas cards I bought this year, in a pack of ‘2 designs’, say respectively:
“I believe in Santa” & “I believe in Angels”…
& I’m beginning to see this is potentially a big part of my problem too.
I’m a Libran & with Saturn in Libra, perhaps it’s time for me to Man or Woman-the Fuq-Up & be more ‘Bah Humbug’ than ‘i believe in the Magic of Xmas or the illusion of sentimentality.

prowlncrab
prowlncrab

hahahaha. Yeah I pulled an oracle card off Colette Baron-Reid’s site re lingering angst/hatred of the ex. It said “rejection is God’s protection”.

I nearly threw the fuqing monitor at the wall.

Bah Humbug! 😉

StarInspired
StarInspired

Hear hear!

Welcome back Mystic!!

And welcome back everyone else too!!!… I for one, missed all of you ; )

StarInspired
StarInspired

Hahaha… Hilarious ProwlnCrab.

“Rejection is God’s protection”
If that’s the case, it seems I am now being protected from everything!!

“I nearly threw the fuqing monitor at the wall”…
Yep, a fabulous fuqing festive season.
Thanks for making me laugh Prowln xox

prowlncrab
prowlncrab

no worries … it’s the one thing I seem to do well (give others a giggle in the midst of pooshitfartyness) 😀

oh and yeah G O D … how about protecting me from meeting the fuqtards in the first goddam place eh eh? Wanker.

~ Don’t anyone dare reply to that with some poncy new age googoo lovey dovey peace and lentils crap or I swear I will deck you! ~

nat
nat

aaawww… Prowln, here you go….

*passes bowl of googoo lovey dovey peace & lentil soup*

*runs away laughing as poncy new age bowl flies past my head*

prowlncrab
prowlncrab

😆

good one nat! 😉

toomuchgoingon
toomuchgoingon

How do you let go of the connection (Karmic?) Sounds a lot like my situation but despite embarking on a completely new life sans husband and with everything to look forward to, no matter how much I try to let go, I can’t. Any tips?

fushia fairy
fushia fairy

oh….have more experiencing letting go of karmic relationships than I care to have….they are the only ones I am ever interested in.

breath.
learn something new that makes you concentrate…..how I learned to knit and play the flute.
when you think of them, say a positive clearing mantra.
Do energetic healings/visualizations of gently releasing energetic chords between ya’ll and say you are releasing karma.

Not cure alls, but they sure help the time pass while you disengage.

toomuchgoingon
toomuchgoingon

Thanks FF, tis hard to actually do anything productive whilst under the spell – nearly two years now; haven’t been able to read a book from start to finish since he came into my orbit and I have been too jaded at the office too. Have really tried loads to let go including lots of inner work and realisations, but he keeps popping back into my thoughts all the sodding time and if I ignore, then synchronicity and reminders everywhere I turn. His life has just changed very drastically a few weeks ago on the full moon eclipse (coincided with… Read more »

fushiafairy
fushiafairy

oh the synchronistic reminders….they are sooooooo tough. I am still getting those from ex scorpio boyfriend…and we broke up may 1. And I am totally over him. so that makes it even weirder. But he is so psychic and I know he has kept tabs on me…. The first time I kissed a guy after exscorp, we parted and I got in my car, and the singer on the radio was singing my ex scorpios name!!!!ugh, grr, blah. I turned the station quickly. me and exscorp bf just hung out on Monday, and it went very well. He got emotional,… Read more »

toomuchgoingon
toomuchgoingon

It has only ever been platonic , never discussed or ventured in the slightest due to him being in the public eye and married. We always got by on telepathy, lots of social events where we exchanged long lingering soulful looks when no one was looking and the odd brush by if I was lucky. Our connection has been one giant karmic frisson over a couple of life-changing years. It has been very frustrating but he has been a guiding light to me, so I have received good karma from him. But I believe fate is having the last laugh… Read more »

fushiafairy
fushiafairy

oh my….wish you the best. Those are hard situations to be in….
Hope you get resolution.

toomuchgoingon
toomuchgoingon

Thanks for understanding, not many people do. I doubt your saggy has gone if he has only just arrived but hope you get a resolution too.

fushiafairy
fushiafairy

Thank you…..
I am truly clueless on this one….sigh.
but weird how I can miss someone after such a short time. Truly sad about it today.

toomuchgoingon
toomuchgoingon

I don’t think these relationships are meant to be logical or understood. I try to just enjoy it for what it is, as it is special, and take a day at a time. No point having any expectations and resolutions don’t necessary come as part of the package but I live in hope someday it will make sense.

StarInspired
StarInspired

Ok Toomuchgoingon, this is where I drew the line re: this very karmic & wonderful connection of mine with tge Saggi Artist…. I had to look at the facts & took it out of ‘Amazing Connection/Wonderful Supportive Soul Mate’… & into Stark Reality/He’s Not Actually Leaving His Situation & Committing To Me!’ I’m a Libran & as stated earlier I have to be Saturn Girl, all grown up now & this is where I’m choosing to place my boundaries at present. I haven’t completely ruled out the possibility of him extricating himself from his current marriage etc, eventually… However, I… Read more »

Toomuchgoingon
Toomuchgoingon

I’m letting go and doing well (I think). Recent fateful events have made me doubt it is over but I have so much to look forward to elsewhere i must move on and live my life anew. There’s no magic bullet in these situations unfortunately but hearing from others is tres comforting.

12th house virgo
12th house virgo

I got rid of mine by seeing him clearly. I used my psychic sleuthing skills to uncover the source of his shame – he had been sexually abused by his mom from childhood until about age 16. I sent him a note saying I knew (his mother passed and tried using me to manipulate him). I told him I knew and he was still a worthy person. He identifies with being a bad boy. And I knew he made a conscious choice. Did i have to do that or was i just stubborn? Eventually I respected his free will because… Read more »

12th house virgo
12th house virgo

Oh, and check out stevegunn.net. He taught me the discipline I needed to see clearly. Rough work, but if you are in enough pain it may be worth it.

toomuchgoingon
toomuchgoingon

Found him (SG) to be an egotistical jerk, who spoke about himself for almost the entire session in between shouting at me and making me cry – there was nothing healing about the experience for me.

12th house virgo
12th house virgo

Thanks, SE! This blog is the greatest – such great souls on here. Macro-patterning? Not sure about that. I get intuitive info. So, for example, with scorp dude I saw his chart. But I also got a visit from his inner child – age seven or so – to tell me what his misunderstanding/ wound is. Then I connected to his energy space and realized he needed a smudge stick and salt bath. Then I freaked because I had so much info. I was afraid I was going to nag him to death. And I realized my “talents” have been… Read more »

12th house virgo
12th house virgo

Wow. I posted my Taft comment in the wrong thread. Anyway, regarding SG – I thought of him as kind of an alien. I decided to not take him personally. He helped me immensely by teaching me what I can do for myself. In any case, good luck on healing your soul and connections.

Raché (Aqua/Tauri)
Raché (Aqua/Tauri)

i crushed it at work.

i didn’t pick up the phone call from my (oh so recent) ex.

i stopped myself from calling him the day after (new moon; jupiter on my MOON direct)

the last few days i’ve been reading a lot and writing, planning my trips to LA and Panama with some girlfriends. moving on at the speed of light while honoring my feelings…stoked to be a free amazon lady livin in a warehouse alternately traveling the world!

andromeda
andromeda

Hm, did non stop healing during that dark moon.. Tried to control the energy so Xmas would be at least..polite? Popped a big rose quartz crystal in the well, apology ceremony on solstice to the original owners of the land with beach blessing and twin hearts meditation for Gaia, white sage smudge of Nana’s house all the family were in, then daily energy cleanse of house and pranic healing on various people! My Nana is 95 and had a lung issue and a host of things, dad has gout, spine damage, sister is going through divorce trauma and the list… Read more »

FireyBovine
FireyBovine

a lovely and different family xmas day, but the dark moon xmas eve gathering w my other fellow creators/family stirred up something that i seemingly delayed processing until these last couple of days, new moon energises old pains sometimes? helpless anger, that’s a hard one i find. the one where you walk past a lavendar bush, spontaneously say FUQ!! and swat the poor thing.

ArienScorp
ArienScorp

I don’t know that it felt start over as much as pointing down the long corridor of time to the end of Pluto in my Cappy 2nd and being told not to lose sight of the prize at the end of the era. More a reaffirmation, I guess. I had a lovely time with family this year and about noon on Christmas announced, Ok, we’re done with this, right? All this stuff comes down and back in boxes then? I was told I was bah humbug, but I explained I was New Moon and let’s get on with it. The… Read more »

FireyBovine
FireyBovine

shit! that is intense. i drove into the scene of a car accident the day after xmas … a very lucky escape … the trees bounced her rather than worse …

ArienScorp
ArienScorp

I was pretty shaken for a couple of days. Mom in a van doing the Christmas thing getting rammed by another car. Her van spun in slow motion till it looked like a giant reached down to grab her vehicle and smash it, brunt of impact on the driver’s roof. I wondered about the children and were there gifts bouncing around in the back and how her family was going to be told, Merry Christmas, your wife, mom, daughter, sister is dead. Sobering.

fushia fairy
fushia fairy

oh how horrid……
sorry you were witness.

A tragic reminder of how blessed my holidays have been. Thank Goddess.

ArienScorp
ArienScorp

Thanks. And glad your holidays were blessed.

andromeda
andromeda

That’s awful AS, sorry to hear that, it must have shaken you up considerably. I know three of people working at one place who had car crashes in the week before Christmas… odd.

WOOHOO
WOOHOO

My brother was in a car accident two days before Christmas as well. He came out unscathed thank the Heavens. It was a serious accident and his car was absolutely smashed to bits but somehow he only managed to lose a bit of bark and a volume of blood. Close friends revealed they secretly got married a few months back. Mother got engaged to her partner. Me. I have an alive brother and the happiness of my friends and parent. Somehow I managed to lose my new love interest. He just seems to have disappeared off the face of the… Read more »

ArienScorp
ArienScorp

So good to hear your brother is fine. The comments recently have shared a number of suddenly disappearing love interests. Odd! Wishing a wonderful love connection for you in the new year.

ArienScorp
ArienScorp

(Scratched WOOHOO and Love on a pink candle, rubbed it with find love oil, dusted it with attraction powder, place a gold celtic love knot ring over the candle, sprinkled love herbs and rose petals around it, placed a natural lodestone on one side and a rose quartz on the other and a red rose in a vase overlooking. Sending thoughts into the ether for you.)

WOOHOO
WOOHOO

That’s so sweet of you – I need all the help I can get. I moved to a small town with limited possibilites – knight in shining armour galloping over the horizon where art thou? Haha.

Still grateful for everything else, and for your kind wishes. I wish you all the best for a new year also.

As for the disappearing men? What gives? Seriously!

WOOHOO
WOOHOO

how cool is lodestone by the way?

fushiafairy
fushiafairy

sorry you have had the vanishing act done on you too…sucks.
I also live in a small town, so I know how slim the pickings can get….

got positive energy coming your way…
good luck and happy new year…

fallen angel
fallen angel

That is one Hell of a dichotomy there Woo Hoo. Your gains has thrown your loss up in stark relief, btw very glad your brother is alive and all is well with the N&D. But it’s a “wot about me moment” right? It’s the holidays and I think strange things happen to people during the season. I’ve had the same thing happen to me (if you check out my blog, look for the entries on the Long Lost Capricorn!) and it was a fuqer of a year. I’d just fled the Sewer, met the Cappo – it was amazing, but… Read more »

fushia fairy
fushia fairy

yuck…had the dark moon funk and my new saggy interest did a complete turn around….
oh well.
Realized I have to make some decisions and go for it. If I fail, Oh well. but this hamster wheel I am on is killing me.

fushia fairy
fushia fairy

HA …listened to this song while in dark moon funk….Tried to find other songs, but this one is just perfect.

equilibrium girl
equilibrium girl

Ugh, I had the most sobering, grief-stricken Xmas. My beautiful soul-mate hen (yes, my pet chicken aka little baby girl aka I have no kids so she is my one true love) got sick and at midday on Xmas eve, she died. I screamed. I fuqing howled like a banshee for hours and it still didn’t help – but I’m so glad I did try and vocalise the pain of death. Our society is so rigid and Victorian with displays of emotion. Fuq that. Death sucks. As an animal lover, losing a pet is earth-shattering to me – but my… Read more »

fushia fairy
fushia fairy

oh I am so sorry. Good you allowed yourself to express your loss.

lost 4 pets in 3 months this summer, so I know how much it hurts.

Good luck with this pluto transit.

Pisces with Sagg Rising
Pisces with Sagg Rising

A friend of mine who kept chooks used to say “You get a lot of love from a chicken!” so I don’t doubt how you must be feeling. As for re-evaluating, evolution and loss hurting – yep I hear what you’re saying. Sometimes I think that I’ve done all the character building I can do, can I have a little fun now? But wait, there’s more character building to come. AAHHHH!! In answer to your other question about do you need a husband etc? I’ve known some women who have husbands/partners who are just generally good blokes and they seem… Read more »

ArienScorp
ArienScorp

You’re having empty nest syndrome. Losses that matter hurt. Growth hurts because you don’t feel like you anymore, but a stranger. Dark thoughts are good, it’s the way to the light. Who you are got wiped out and after pouring yourself into being that person, you are faced with the work of starting over and making a new person. I always thought it wasn’t fair; I’d put a lot work into becoming who I was with my kids and then it was of no worth. Yes, the odd bit or piece remained, but it had to be completely reconfigured. Really… Read more »

FireyBovine
FireyBovine

oh that hurts, big hug lady,
weeping to let go, and sleeping to integrate …

have been a bit mucky myself … lonely yet too lethargic to connect with anyone …

xxx

Taurus Vixen
Taurus Vixen

Oh you poor thing. I sometimes thing that losing a loved pet is worse than a loved human. Think it healthy to feel what you are feeling without trying to shove it deep into a dark hole in your sole. To many times people try to pretend the loss is not as keen as it is which isn’t healthy.

You have my deepest sympathy.

Ali B
Ali B

I feel your pain. Lost my best friend dog of 15 yrs. Most grief I have ever felt. He was my grounding and I felt like I was floating above the planet for months.

“Until one has loved an animal a part of one’s soul remains unawakened.”
Anatole France

equilibrium girl
equilibrium girl

Thank you all so much for your beautiful thoughts. Feeling the light and love, for sure. xx But it’s so sad to hear all your stories of loss. Just shows how animals touch our souls. Ali B, your quote is wonderful 🙂 I so agree that death makes you a stranger to yourself – slate is wiped, start again… weird feeling. Plus it’s my b’day on the 31st which is always icky. Ageing, wrinkle-counting, more ‘shoulda, coulda, woulda’ thoughts (Ugh! Enough!) BUT I have taken all of your advice on board and I will embrace the pain/ growth/ evolution and… Read more »

Scorched Earth
Scorched Earth

I think your response to your grief was beautiful and honest EG. You might ask why I say beautiful as pain can feel quite the opposite but it is an expression of ourselves and we should never shun parts of ourselves that don’t initially appear beautiful thereby actually making them not.. and relegating them to the realm of shadow. Beautiful because you got to the core of some stuff that’s going on for you and your gorgeous animal friend assisted in taking you there although I’m sorry it came from loss. Yep, it feels like it should be suppressed, such… Read more »

fushiafairy
fushiafairy

yep…my friend who is january 1st has been hit by family tragedy….bad.
And his wife has confided in me she wants to leave him.

wishing all of you early caps much blessings on your pluto transits….
right in back to back ones myself….

My post on facebook today….

Dear Pluto, I was sad when you were demoted to dwarf planet, but since then I have had a realization. Your shadowy voyages to the underworld have really pissed people off. And you know, revenge is one of Hades’ dark lessons……..

weathergirl
weathergirl

Don’t have much to add to here, EQ, except that I’m processing Pluto over my Sun at 6Cap, and I understand the profound need to grieve freely. Proper keening is a lost art amongst the fair-skinned of us. Go for it, I say. It’s a workout that benefits body, soul and mind. For me, this is the second transit of three before I’m well and done with Sir Pluto next fall when he tracks back and stations direct w/in 6 arc minutes of my Sun. (Holy Momma.) The years immediately prior were Pluto transits to my Moon. OY. This conversation… Read more »

Little Joey
Little Joey

I am so sorry for your loss – losing a pet is just so, so painful. I still love and miss my pets past.

12th house virgo
12th house virgo

I’m sorry for your loss, love. But evolution hurting – fuq yeah its normal! And Mars is all in my Virgo right now, but that’s truth. Here’s Mars in Virgo talk – sometimes you have to turn into your pain. Instead of running from a nightmare rush into it and fight it back like a mythical dragon. That’s what myths are for – to document the struggle that comes from fighting inner demons. No one ever really sees that, you know? I had a past life reading that was kind of painful and I asked the reader, what do I… Read more »

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