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Yes, i know that technically this Full Moon just gone was like a massive Neural Dump of the past type scenario.  A clean-slate experience, if you prefer a more Virgo reference.

But you know how it was a Gemini Eclipse?  I am thinking it was also like a fight with the different personae within yourself.  For success in 2012, one of them has gotta go…or already HAS gone, if you’re doing this Eclipse thing right.

Thoughts??  And did any of you guys kill off an aspect of yourself this weekend (to be kind, not cruel)?  Or, did you just have general existentialist insights? One thing about a Gemini Full Moon – particularly an Eclipse – is that it will always leave you more tuned up and with the now.

 

 

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Joan
Joan

yes clean slade…so true this did happen things from the past old lil hurts and peeps emerged tot he surface…waiting to get dumped..out of my system! l never liked you anyhow stuff just feeling like shouting it out mercury 9th h here argh! But no! not wasting energy. This eclipse fell in my 10th h. and also things about my carrier kind of came up. Like wtf?? l had a blast! it was good! it felt liked getting out of a prison or something to me! Still processing all the new insights and l think it would be best to… Read more »

Patricia Biesen
Patricia Biesen

DoubleMutable, congrats on the new relationship! Good for you! Rest (emotionally and physically) is your best medicine. I have a long history of trying out many supplements. I do a mix of Sunrider (a multi-level marketing brand) and ayurvedic rasayanas from a company called Circle of Health. http://www.ayurveda-herbs.com/

lee
lee

Wow. wow. wow. Saying goodbye to an inner persona is the perfect way to describe this weekend’s eclipse. On Saturday, right around eclipse time, I told myself “You have to forgive yourself for the mistakes you made as a child in order to grow up” And I knew that I had to let go of the scared little girl persona I’ve held inside of me, the girl who is messed up and has made so many mistakes, in order to move forward with the rest of my life. Later, I had a dream that I was flying, quite masterfully, about… Read more »

Jessica Joy
Jessica Joy

ugh, i slayed my ego Kali style on 11/23 my birthday…but she is such a strong beast that she rares her head a la zombies. After this eclipse I felt a zinginess of a fresh persona…yet tonight i feel a certain frustration of loss & wanting to stew in this retrograde communication funk. (& yes I am a saggo…with locution skills-I link to think so anyway.)

scorpionic
scorpionic

thank goodness for this blog…

whatevs
whatevs

i was just thinking that too. all these people for the most part are helping each other unconditionally. i love that this technology is an opening – a window or a door.

milleunanotte
milleunanotte

Great Scott! The lady’s on fire!

Lucy
Lucy

Try giving the parts of yourself you do not like compassion first.
If your best friend confided in you that she had done something stupid would you ditch her ? You would tell her she wasn’t that bad and to learn/reflect and you’d make her some tea.

Wise teacher told me to treat some of the hard stuff like a meditation.

Zapped
Zapped

Thanks Lucy, that’s really awesome and lovely advice xx

Zapped
Zapped

The eclipse was on my ascendant, and I’m including my experience purely for research purposes (and at the bidding of MM). I had: news from an ex after a very long time apart, vindication of my intuition with regards to the situation (despite talking negatively to myself about my gut feelings for an insanely long amount of time and trying to dismiss them as wishful thinking), quite a bit of bittersweet sorrow, some confusion and ‘wtf?’-ness, and a decision yesterday that it’s time to bid farewell to the horrible part of me. The side that treats herself like dirt and… Read more »

ArienScorp
ArienScorp

Fleeing pain by not having “false hope”. Yep, I think we’ve all done that. Taking the moment for what it is and squeezing all the goodness out of it, not worrying about the next moment or “where this is going” or rules about what should be happening now — if he doesn’t do this or that, it means.. — being completely thrown out is the only way I’ve found to find true peace in relationships. When we are fully happy, that positivity brings so much goodness into our lives. Moving on is so often a part of life and must… Read more »

Zapped
Zapped

Thank you for your beautiful, wise, and considered words ArienScorp xx

ArienScorp
ArienScorp

Wonderful!

ArienScorp
ArienScorp

Wow, this is crazy! After reading the post, I checked my journal and here’s my entry for Dec. 7th. (after a quick rest in the middle of the day):

“Now I am somebody new. Somehow, during my brief rest, I dropped who I’ve been all my life and became someone new. Interesting.”

Mystic’s prognostications have been so eerily accurate lately.

Irmata
Irmata

Another vote for “uhhh, spooky” here. Laid to rest a not very nice part of me last night (Saturday). Hope that’s the last I’ve seen of that cruel, spiteful bitch!

saturnian
saturnian

The day of the eclipse was the day of my solar return and I don’t feel different except that I had a lovely evening with fabulous friends.

I would think that it would mean change but I’m still waiting…

Am I not tuned in?

Lucy the Leo
Lucy the Leo

Happy belated birthday!!! Apparently it means the year ahead will be filled with change on many levels…

Scorptropic
Scorptropic

happy belated birthday Saturnian!!

saturnian
saturnian

Thank you so much. That’s lovely! Thank you Scorptropic (your avatar is groovy).

Thank you for the info Lucy!

Jennifer
Jennifer

Well, I drove by myself in a car for the first time today in a rental…and then the rental broke down. What a mess. Whee, Uranus.

Sweetpea
Sweetpea

good gawd…rentals and breakdowns beyond our control…right?

First time I drove a stick…circa 18 yrs old or so, I drove it into a pole. Aries, eh?

16 years later, was like a fish to water..magical…don’t know how it happened but it did…

Domestic Triffid
Domestic Triffid

WOO HOO ! You go !

I’m resonating with you – did some sand spells on the beach to wash away my diffidence, need for approval, fear of winning and fear of other people’s envy…

“don’t hide your light under a bushel”

Nah – have made a pile of all the old sh*t in my life, have poured kero over it, set fire to it and I’m like “Here I am – watch me shine !! Too bright ? Go blind or cover your eyes before my glory !!”

🙂 🙂

Domestic Triffid
Domestic Triffid

heh heh heh

Jessica Joy
Jessica Joy

Love!!

year of the fox
year of the fox

very inspirational! Thanks for sharing!

Sweetpea
Sweetpea

Oh wow, so cool LL! I want to go skiing with you…And living legend…now I’m jealous…

I want to be a legend…. 😕

lol 😉

Saggisue
Saggisue

A profound and exhausting weekend. Having shifted back to my home town I had to deal with family members that I had forgotten I had gladly left behind. I indeed killed off the persona of the ‘eternal giver’, ‘victim’, ‘passive woman’. It is interesting, I read ‘Women who Run With Wolves’ prior to moving away nearly five years ago…to step into a highly abusive relationship. I found the book again when I was packing and have consumed it voraciously. I wasn’t ready for all of it’s message five years ago but now every page rings with truth for me…I hand… Read more »

fushia fairy
fushia fairy

!!!!!!!!
Great Job!

AquaRam
AquaRam

Hmm, currently grieving over Gem Sun Cancer Moon man who has gone from being wonderfully attentive to downright cruel and mean. Like he wants to get rid of me, I guess this must be a good thing and I must evolve.

year of the fox
year of the fox

Ditch that guy. Cancer Moon ladies are rockin’…..Cancer Moon men are best avoided IMHO. They are the most vengeful pieces of crap I’ve ever encountered. Lock your door at night. lol.

fushia fairy
fushia fairy

OH mY…..ex scorpio bf, moon in cancer. Vengeful, yes. Like nothing I had ever seen. But mostly during our fights.

Sweetpea
Sweetpea

I heard a guy say that guys will be mean so you will be the one to break up with them!

Had the pleasure of telling an ex “and you were mean to me”…Hope he thinks about that the rest of his life.

Course double Leo Mom used to call Aries dad “a mean, miserable, rotten son of a bitch”…

Don’t know how much he later thought about that over the years 😆

year of the fox
year of the fox

Sweetpea, that is so true. It means the guy is a rank coward. The Toro did that to me so he can feel like the “good guy” who gets dumped. Takes 2 to tango baby.

milleunanotte
milleunanotte

Best thing there is just quietly get up and go. No “break up” no arguments no ‘splainin’… lazy arse can figure it out for himself.

AquaRam
AquaRam

ooo really?? Thanks as I am feeling really hurt, strange for my Aqua sun and Aries Venus/Moon I think, normally I move on but can’t, he has me trapped.

Lucy the Leo
Lucy the Leo

Move on! Leave him! It will be over anyway, but the sooner you leave, the more of your ego and self esteem can be salvaged. It is soul destroying being with someone who is mean and cruel to you.

AquaRam
AquaRam

Thanks Lucy xxx

milleunanotte
milleunanotte

Trapped? AquaRam, baby, sounds like this meanness began long before you realised.

Hurt is ok, you’ll just need some tender time and healing time. Go now so you don’t get shredded. Noone puts shredded back together. I’m with Lucy. Godspeed, girl xxx

Sweetpea
Sweetpea

Had my self esteem kicked to the gutter, yes, even for a Ram.

Taken me years to get it back. Heed the advise of others here and don’t let that happen to you.

Feeling trapped is because you ~must~ take your power and excersize your WILL…

Sweetpea
Sweetpea

On a softer note AquaRam, if you do, you will surely receive a blessing. You know when you feel trapped, so does the Great Goddess…she lives and breathes thru you. x

Sweetpea
Sweetpea

That is my own advise to me as well..

AquaRam
AquaRam

Thank you guys you are all so lovely, the kindness of strangers. I have no idea what it is about him but he loves me chasing him and I do it like a little lost puppy begging for scraps off the Gem Sun Cancer Venus and Mars! Probably hard to believe I am Aqua sun Aries Moon/Venus Virgo rising!
Thank you all so much, you are truly lovely xxxxxx

AquaRam
AquaRam

Thank you so much xxx

toomuchgoingon
toomuchgoingon

Moon in Gemini and Uranus in natal Aries, I always felt this eclipse would be tres important and it was, spectacularly so. My (soon to be ex) husband finally went on his merry way after a week of dragging his feet to move solo into his new house. The anger has lifted and at last I feel my heart centre opening again after eight months of supressed emotions. I feel energised to the max due to Uranus going direct and I hope the 5 month career rut ends too. The effect on my two boys has been equally positive.

fushia fairy
fushia fairy

Best wishes during this gigantic turn of the wheel in your families lives!
Compassion and understanding for everyone.

inger
inger

Seriously, the cosmic joke is greater than I thought!!
I have merc 18 pisces/uranus 18 gemini
My ex-husbands ex-wife ( the one before me)
Who I haven’t thought about in 35 plus years finds me and opens with a really provocative statement on a message in facebook.The high road was mine to travel and I know I navigated it properly.
Another part of the past has been healed and I am greatful.
Happy Holidays to all!!!!

aurora lights
aurora lights

Well i’ve had an v.v.interesting few days too, well two weeks really…totally been seriously preoccupied in very worthy – super fast lightning like – soul growth schemes 🙂 With Jupiter in Gemini in 4th…there were two roads i could have taken, short/inappropriate/empty/meaningless/lower-like or long term/higher soul/delayed gratification…for awesome fireworks or networks in future, as in next year 🙂 i took the path of discipline, (didn’t realise i could harness so much of it) and realised soon after, that this will have positive ramifications for my potentially meeting a far more appropriate, absolutely awesome partner in the future – because of… Read more »

milleunanotte
milleunanotte

Congratulations, darling, well earned xxx

Sweetpea
Sweetpea

Sounds just as good as my daughter’s engagement A.L! Thank you for your kinds thoughts there as well…Let us know how it goes. x

Charles
Charles

I Didn’t Like You Anyway – by The Donnas

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AmLBg9Ex_XQ

Sweetpea
Sweetpea

Oh my lord I have their cd….was only a couple of good ones on there tho (as far as I’m concerned…did they have more than one cd? I don’t know)

Charles
Charles

That what I like about this clip, the 24 year old women are redoing the songs they wrote when they were 18. And the tempo is like double, watch Torry beating those drums. She ruined out her shoulders and wrists and had to retire, she beat herself to destruction.

But yeah, The Donnas have a ton of albums. Check out The Donnas Turn 21 or Gold Medal. Here’s a vaguely astrologically related video from Gold Medal.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=49s6_P8yyKU

milleunanotte
milleunanotte

Cheers, Charles! That was fun. Bit o live energy.

Anonymous
Anonymous

Oh wow I loved this band. Ahhh nice blast from the past.

FireyBovine
FireyBovine

i laughed at this post title – my thoughts exactly! and this morning, realising just how energetically drained i actually was by the eclipse build up – build ups are doozies aren’t they? i am rarely one for sharp, crystaline realisations – mine come by scooping up a pan of sludge and running your fingers through, you come up with something a bit different, larger, harder, softer, and you know you got a nugget to keep in your breast pocket and you don’t quite know it’s weight yet, or combined weight, with all the other bits you’ve picked up along… Read more »

12th house virgo
12th house virgo

The Gemini moon just had me feeling like I had a social hangover without the socializing. But…Uranus…just around the very minute Uranus stationed direct in my Pisces/Aries 7th house, I got a message from an out-of-town Scorpio tattoo artist saying he’s now single and going to be in town soon, do I want to go on a date. LOL! That man is like a living breathing Uranian transit.

Gemini 1001
Gemini 1001

This gemini eclipse build up has been MASSIVE for me.. love, work, family ALL having issues … but no one talking about them… me remaining silent until post-eclipse to delve into. fuq’n hard as patience wasn’t my forte (note the use of ‘wasnt’.. not isn’t.. as now im all post eclipsed calm and totally invoking patience as new mantra de jour).. On the weekend I found something i have been wanting for ages and just could not organically feel/find – the passion for fairness and truth which drives my work. This sounds soooo boring to my Gem sun, sagg moon… Read more »

Baristagem
Baristagem

😯

The Gemini Eclipse was BANG ON my Moon… 😯 😯 😯

andromeda
andromeda

Yes, and? Lol! It was same for my sis, but she is astro unattuned and I tried to ask her how her Saturday night was but she is not very into ‘feelings’..for various reasons right now… So how was it for a Gem Moon?

Baristagem
Baristagem

😯 😆 Ohhh yep! I had been inundated with feelings leading up to the Eclipse – at least a few weeks before & had major shifting re grief – but also I have been working on major overhaul of the psyche for a while. So in one way it just amplified some of the work I had done, which was a tad overwhelming, and in another way it was fine because it just felt like I was moving on from it, I need to move on from it. Some of the stuff is trauma related so it has taken major… Read more »

Baristagem
Baristagem

😯

I also felt EXHAUSTED! I know, lots of people feel this but I DON’T get exhausted – Mars in Virgo and triple conjunct Gemini. It was weird, it was like I had been swimming at the beach all day… I was knackered!

😯

Sweetpea
Sweetpea

Sounds like with all the work you’ve done that was a HUGE culmination on the eclipse.

Your natal Moon was eclipsed….deep…hope you rested and get lots of rest still.

I have been sleeping heaps..just heaps for a couple of weeks now. Guess with the eclispe in my 12th I needed to dream and have been dreaming lots. x

Domestic Triffid
Domestic Triffid

I’ve been very very tired this last week – having to have a lie down at about midday for at least an hour….

Anonymous
Anonymous

I feel exhausted (still). Have been for the past 3 weeks. Which is very unusual for this Gem as well. Usually overflowing with energy. People are starting to comment that it is not like me. But apart from that, this eclipse has been fantastic. As said above in a post feel right on track to achieve some major goals. And feel like I have released alot of anger. Maybe processing this is energy zapping (Actually more like partying on the weekend).

Sweetpea
Sweetpea

If I remember right, think some time long ago you had a dream that had “double Moons?”

This eclipse would entail “double Moons”. Maybe a premonition of your healing process…

Baristagem
Baristagem

😯

Omg I nearly forgot about that dream! Thanks Sweetpea, i really hope so. Felt the June eclipses were really hard – so I have been working harder since…

Thanks again Sweetpea for reminding me about that dream. xo

Sweetpea
Sweetpea

x

andromeda
andromeda

You were probably swimming all night in your dreams, or doing something exhausting! Poor BGem.
Actually ended talking to the Gem Moon sis today, she sounded like she had more perspective than in a while.
I think there were so many realisations and layers to this moon, it will probably resonate for many weeks or months for you Gem Moons, she is 16 deg, so pretty bang on for her too. Xx!

fushia fairy
fushia fairy

what a week….Bricks on my head and heart. sick, still itchy, daughter itchy. Dreams of dead pets, exhubby trying to help me, and a crazy energetic vortex. Miss my family so bad it hurts and they live so far away. I need to make money soon and figure some things out but it is so hard with business so slow and me so sick. Being to really worry about how I am going to pay the bills soon. Been questioning why I left my husband and if it was a mistake(almost 3 years later). …heavy. But the two since him,… Read more »

Sweetpea
Sweetpea

Goodness FF, sorry you are so sick! My heart goes out. I know what a concern it is when one is short to pay bills.

God speed with some blessings for you! xo

year of the fox
year of the fox

Glad your party went well!

and don’t doubt your first instincts. They are usually right.

fushia fairy
fushia fairy

Thanks Sweetpea. Feeling pretty good this afternoon. I totally emo-ed out this morning with moon in cancer! But then went uphill. Talked with my aqua son while we hung out. Got my virgo on some more and got more housework/decluttering/home improvement done. Plus, the adorable painter was back. He finished the two sides. It looks so good. What a boost to feeling further along on all these house projects. Afterwards we chatted for awhile as we have done on several occasions. So wish I had the nerve to ask him out, but need to do some recon first. Foxy, thanks.… Read more »

year of the fox
year of the fox

Lately, I’ve started going with the feeling rather than worrying too much about type. If the feeling is there, it is more potent. I can’t explain what’s come over me, must be Uranus.

fushia fairy
fushia fairy

good ole uranus….always good for a swirveball.

Laura
Laura

Yes Mystic, definately in tune with this eclipse. I had an amazing conversation with my highly intuitive mother last night. She clarified and illuminated many things that I have figured out for myself, mainly regarding a romantic relationship which is no longer serving me. I am ready to let it go now and I have decided that, yes, I DO deserve better. I deserve an ocean of abunance! I am breaking it off the day after merury goes direct..and clearing the space for amazing things to enter my life. My mother was just waiting for me to come to her… Read more »

Laura
Laura

Also, the “I Never Liked You Anyway” title is incrediably apt for this situation!

sagscorpgirl
sagscorpgirl

That’s lovely! Wow, mega news!
I definately did – I spent a day talking to myself and have decided to get rid of the part of me which goes against my gut feelings – I have only just started doing this and it takes guts . So the astro at the mo rings true 4 me.

fushia fairy
fushia fairy

good for you. Over the last few months I have really started listening to my gut instincts and acting on them. Can be difficult at times. Good luck.

Sweetpea
Sweetpea

Oh Wow, daughter….25 yrs old…Kataka/Sagg Mn/Scorp rising just got engaged to her Gemini boyfriend yesterday! Eclipse day… Eclipse was on his Gemini Mars/NN/Sun in 5th On her Draconic Gemini Sun opposite her Sagg Draconic Mars In her natal, the eclipse was in her 7th house conjunct Gemini Chiron exact 18 degrees opposite Sagg Uranus 1st house 19 degrees. I’d say that Uranus was a surprise.. She is thrilled of course and I am too as he is a great guy. They have been going together two years now and next October, by the time they marry it will be three… Read more »

fushia fairy
fushia fairy

Sweet! That is wonderful.

Quadrupled
Quadrupled

Congratulations! 🙂

Baristagem
Baristagem

😯

Congratulations!! That is wonderful news!

Sweetpea
Sweetpea

Thanks everyone! I will have to be sure and tell her it was on an eclipse! The eclipse SN was close to his Natal Gem NN @ 25 degrees, so he is going to be having a reverse nodal return…the past and the future sorta mixed up together?…They are now an interesting case study…lol…which I can only get a feeling for as there is much going on there. He had been planning it for weeks however and my eldest helped with finding out what kind of ring she wanted. She got a simple platinum band. She said diamonds “aren’t me”… Read more »

Sweetpea
Sweetpea

Oh and “no veil or anything like that” lol.

aurora lights
aurora lights

awesome insights with the astro Sweetpea, it’s nice your girl and you are so happy re the lovely guy, blessings, and good to hear about happiness xxx 🙂

Sweetpea
Sweetpea

Want to add his Moon 0 deg Libra, 8th.

Dead on opposite trans. 0 deg Aries Uranus…and Uranus was shifting direct.

Of course Libran Moon did the down on one knee somewhere in the gardens of The Huntington Library grounds in San Marino, Cal.

He is Aqua rising and yes he even talked to my ex before he asked her. Some might not consider that very wild for an Aqua rising!

But his natal Saturn/Pluto 27 Libra trine his Gemini stuff…mars, nn, sun.

He is going to be having his Saturn Return anytime now. Crazy how the astro stacks up, no?

Sweetpea
Sweetpea

Thank you A.L. …x

aurora lights
aurora lights

Wow it sounds amazing Sweetpea, boy sounds like he’s living with total integrity for Saturn return…three weddings of young ones in my family this year, all gorgeous and in love 🙂

Anonymous
Anonymous

Congrats Sweetpea! Yeh diamonds aren’t me either (Saggo moon)

Scorptropic
Scorptropic

That was moi

year of the fox
year of the fox

great news! congrats!

Charley
Charley

Congrats indeed, funtimes with wedding planning.

Ariel
Ariel

You weren’t wrong when you predicted bats socialising/ dating for Leo (rising) over the weekend. Utter bloody madness. The guy I like confessed that he fancies a mutual friend, who is straight. I told him this, then told him I like him, he likes me too, now we are going to meet up to talk later in the week. He is a Virgo. Grr I really like him & just wanted things to go right for once… hoping they still might. Instead of heartbreak & rejection. I am so sick of wasting my time energy & life force on this… Read more »

Sweetpea
Sweetpea

Hope things turn you for you love. Didn’t want to seem insensitive (to anyone here) with my rant below…

Ariel
Ariel

Thank you sweet!Really appreciate the good wishes.
I have guessed that this guy has Saggo rising, hence the foot-in-mouth confession of amour for our male friend! I have no idea what will happen. Truth be told, love is such a minefield for me, I wonder whether I just need to blind myself to all people I find attractive, since they all appear to be destined to break my heart.
On that note I am thrilled for your daughter, Sweetpea. He couldn’t have a picked a much more perfect day to pop the question, astrologically!

Raché (Aqua/Tauri)
Raché (Aqua/Tauri)

Long distance relationship breakup. Been together 1.5 years, waited on him to come for 3 months but he’s too busy with work (CEO).

I feel awful.

Charley
Charley

I’m sorry 🙁

fushia fairy
fushia fairy

Sorry dear. Hugs.

Charley
Charley

What a murky week I’ve had. Don’t feel like I’ve had any major realisations that are actually practical or worth paying attention to. Other than the unrealistic ‘that’s it I’m joining a nunnery/going to live in a cave’ type crap. I feel like I can’t see anything at the moment, like there’s a veil of something in the way of my creativity. It’s such a massive infringement on my commitment phobic, multiple Sag nature when a person comes along who actually makes my brain wake up and go ‘oh’ and then the inevitable karmic hamster wheel I’m stuck on re… Read more »

year of the fox
year of the fox

Oh those Virgos are quite tricky. They grow on you slowly like moss and when you are deep in and surrounded…you are like oh..crap… A female Scorp friend of mine just got totally used by her Virgo lover too. Gave her the brush off like she was like lint. 🙁 I had my heart smashed by a Virgo back in 97. Luckily, that hasn’t repeated itself. I often wonder if I am a handy man that comes to fix broken hearts, but I try to tell myself I am paying it forward for the next life. One day I might… Read more »

fushia fairy
fushia fairy

Sorry Charley. Bummer.
Went through this not long ago with multivirgo, his sex person.
And as Foxy said….fixer of his broken heart. sigh.

But I learned some valuable lessons and got some good things too. I won’t make those same mistakes again and continue to grow in self respect.

Good luck.

Charley
Charley

So true. Instant attraction but slow burn and damn I’m hooked in. So clever, so interesting, so handsome, so on the rebound, so cold. Ugh. I can imagine being brushed away by him and it would destroy me so I’m opting out right now before I can feel like lint.

Oh snaps Fox, I’m the ‘one after the one’, the buffer zone, the picker upper and duster offer. It’s horribly depressing.

Charley
Charley

Also I swear I don’t go round in a perma state of being a victim, it’s just been a very trying Saturn in Libra time when it comes to relationships, as I’m sure it has for many. Saturn return has left me feeling fairly immature in that regard too, like I need to catch up and change the old model sharpish or I’m going to be sidelined.

fushia fairy
fushia fairy

yes, you are not alone at all. Went through relationship lessons I thought I would NEVER go through. especially when saturn went over my natal pluto. Glad to read you were able to do what you needed to keep yourself stronger healthier in the long run. I had to do the exact same thing for the exact same reasons with my multi virgo(your description above fits him exactly), which was so difficult for me with him continueing to want to see me. After a few go rounds we have finally broken free. Feels much better now. Takes a strong person… Read more »

year of the fox
year of the fox

ah you’re no victim Charley. Virg men are so infinitely charming…until you get stick of their “condiments purity edicts” clashing with their lack of washing before bed. I look back and I’m like….yeah…it’s probably a good thing we didn’t work out. What planets or things do you have in Virgo? I’ve got MC and venus there. so it feels like helping when I get involved….but like with the asswipe from the other night….realization. I’m not their private priest confessional or free therapist! It’s like PISS OFF! It’s not my job. I’ve had decades of paying it forward. I think I… Read more »

Charley
Charley

I have none at all, not an ounce. Even my Virgo house is intercepted, which I still don’t really understand how that plays out or works. Perhaps it’s why the men I attract always have heavy Virgo, I only just really realised. Even all the funtime Leos had a lot going on.

Hell to the no way with the offloading or therapy, avoid like the plague and be careful not to over help, I deffo see that in the two people close to me with Venus in Virgo actually.

fushia fairy
fushia fairy

lol…I have venus in virgo also and have had this trait way too much in the past. No more.

12th house virgo
12th house virgo

I know Saturn gets all the press as being the planet to get done, so to speak, but Venus in Virgo has been rough to deal with. Once I take someone into my intimate life, I feel a need to solve every problem they have and I see problems coming way in advance. Its a pain in the butt for everyone involved. But I decided this weekend that I would rather make it clear to any potential partner that I am interested only in individuals who care about self-improvement, painful as that path may be. I’m not going to change… Read more »

fushia fairy
fushia fairy

That’s right! you have venus in virgo in the 12th as well.
so agree…all my relationships have a fated aspect. Gets heavy. I wish I could do lighter fun dating. but no.
Agree, must be into self improvement.

Lucy
Lucy

Recommending for myself and anyone else, dating like you’re a teenager in the 50’s. Lots of coffee & movie dates and stay out of cars.

“Will meet cha there kay ?”

Let some time pass. Nobody wants to be the one after the one, hurts.

No separated, freshly divorced, emotionally unavailables, heart- ruthless types.

12th house virgo
12th house virgo

Well, a Virgo will try you on any issues of self-sufficiency or maturity. Those aren’t bad lessons and it doesn’t mean you were used. I have limited experience with Scorpios, but honestly, I think they sell themselves short. The “sex toy” mystic is quickly present with them and something they kind of do to themselves, you know? I mean, perhaps they learn to do that because they have been used or felt used before, but that doesn’t mean that’s who/what they are or what intimacy experiences must be about. I felt it from this Scorpio guy I like. He presents… Read more »

Charley
Charley

Best advice ever, thank you! Truly.

I don’t believe this person made me feel this bad knowingly, it’s possible but very doubtful, he has too much integrity and it actually a great person. I still feel bad but obviously that says more about me in the long run and my inability to take things as they are or avoid bad situations when I know I should. Thanks all for much needed advice and perspective, infinitely grateful.

12th house virgo
12th house virgo

xoxoxo. Glad if it helped.

piscean
piscean

Ah, charley. Xxxx

Sweetpea
Sweetpea

Dreamt of crystal clear water..looked sorta turbulent at first…but was crystal clear and lovely to swim in. Down river it got a bit murky and as I swam in it I wanted to turn back. I wondered, as I looked back, if the crystal clear water had been contaminated.

Of course it (Spirit) hasn’t but think those were my fears of getting back there.

Yesterday casually picked up a book I have and brushed up on “The Dweller on the Threshold”. Think that’s apropo for this dualistic eclipse.

vividdreamer
vividdreamer

YES!

YaOD to know me
YaOD to know me

This shouldn’t hurt, but you might feel a slight discomfort…

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Sweetpea
Sweetpea

It says internal server error or is that part of what we’re workin’ on here with the Gem eclipse energy..lo.l

YaOD to know me
YaOD to know me

*like* 🙂

12th house virgo
12th house virgo

I heard it. Nice tune. Thanks for sharing.

YaOD to know me
YaOD to know me

Glad you liked it!

Patricia Biesen
Patricia Biesen

I think I am killing off my personae that is unhealthy, ego-based, likes wine , etc. I’m a Scorpio with a Gemini moon, so imagine Gemini coupled with the intensity of Scorpio! In 2012 I’m allowing my purer being to shine through and by purer also mean sans vices, time-wasters, and people who just get in the way of the light. I’m an artist and I don’t need alcohol, choc. bad foods, etc to create I just hesitated because I thought I would be boring (to others) with out them but I’m willing to grow up and be boring. It’s… Read more »

Sweetpea
Sweetpea

Cool Patricia! I’m with you on the wine and healthy eating patterns, etc.

DoubleMutable
DoubleMutable

Me too! This eclipse for me was all about health realizations, primarily. Started feeling sorry for myself…like “I’ve done everything I can do already to heal” but that’s really not true. Need a major diet overhaul, something tailored to someone with immune system and adrenal problems. My man is on board, and I’m excited to do more with raw foods and healthy cooking!

Patricia Biesen
Patricia Biesen

Good for you. My party-Gemini-Moon self will have to take a back seat while her Good Twin who gets things done is going to shine.

Patricia Biesen
Patricia Biesen

DoubleMutable, I have immune and adrenal issues too. Along with a more pure diet I am going to be more selective with the people in my life. 2011 I did a lot for other people. Now its time to get some things done for myself. Also, getting back to my own creativity is essentially healing to my adrenals as well.

DoubleMutable
DoubleMutable

That’s a good point, Patricia. I recently entered a very supportive new love relationship while cutting off a circle of toxic, dysfunctional friends at the same time. It’s been hard and I just dreamt about these girls last night, but it feels good and is the best thing for my health!
Do you take adrenal supplements? If so, do you feel like they work for you? I really can’t tell how much they do for my adrenals…

12th house virgo
12th house virgo

Right on! I thought the same thing about myself – I dont’ care if I come off as too serious or the typical “Virgo bore” stereotype. I know how I’m wired and I’m going to respect myself. Moreover, I want to spend more time with people who respect *their* self and I’m not going to meet those people if I am perpetually negotiating my legit needs.

vividdreamer
vividdreamer

I want to spend more time with people who respect *their* self and I’m not going to meet those people if I am perpetually negotiating my legit needs. ~YOU SAID IT PERFECTLY, 12TH HOUSE VIRGO!

12th house virgo
12th house virgo

Yeah, well, fingers-crossed I have the focus to live it. The saying bit is easy. My Aries daughter was all fired up this weekend. I noticed that with a lot of Aries peeps. I ask her to do things, she’d ignore me, I’d zone out and nap, and by the end of the day she said she felt ignored. And I told her she’d ignored me – every thing I asked her to do, when I asked her to sit with me, she blew off. Anyway – that’s the mirror, right? You can’t LET someone get away with treating you… Read more »

leogroover
leogroover

exactly same sitch happened to me. Lusty has gone awol and ignoring my texts ( some drunken I must admit – bad weekend for it but a boring drunken xmas party will do that to a leo gal on heat). I’m letting him ignore me but not standing up for myself and he is probably feeling that his feelings are being ignored. aagh Will let it go – he is Moon in Aqua so he has gone intergalatic. I’ll just get busy and not react as I normally would jumping up and down like a 2 year old. I’ll leave… Read more »

Bright
Bright

I had a moment the other night where I told myself that the past was the past, I couldn’t go back, I couldn’t touch it or smell it, I couldn’t taste it or hear it, it was gone. So move on. So I’m moving on. I definitely feel like I’m shedding that forever mourning personality of me and I’m trying to herd my two fish in the right direction. If I have to let go of past loves to meet my new love, I will do it. I will send them love but let go. It doesn’t mean I love… Read more »

vividdreamer
vividdreamer

im feeling the same….letting go of all these past bad boys and moving towards a good one 🙂

piscean
piscean

That’s cool, bright, about the ‘forever mourning’ part. Is it a pisces thing (assuming you’re a pisces from that comment)? More often these days I spontaneously visualise certain elements of my thinking being consumed by flames in a white-hot furnace. And like after anything has burned up, all that’s left is open space and new beginnings. I might have to do this in matters of the heart. Bit harder but maybe I could approach it as a purification or tempering, rather than outright destruction. Thanks.

Lucy
Lucy

It’s like the way this baby I know crawls around the floor, can’t even walk yet but motors around purpose driven and joyful, moves around like it’s a meditation,
not bumping into anything, not apologizing because his parents have to pay attention.

“He’s saying, I know I’m just a wee little thing, and f*** you.”

The part of my self I’m letting go wasn’t really me to begin with. Just a default part of me I put on out of fear, anxiety, fear of abandonment. But I won’t leave myself behind again so I’ve got nothing to lose.

saggifairyus
saggifairyus

“He’s saying, I know I’m just a wee little thing, and f*** you.” Thats amazing, I love it *writes it down to remember*

piscean
piscean

Oh dear, I strolled home on friday night (post official tedious work party) with what I thought was a hunky intelligent taurean but may have now proven himself to be an evasive neptunian type. What is it with 1975 toro men, are they all liars or damaged in some way, slightly lost since their adolescence? (from my scientific survey of two of them). Concerned that I did low-eclipse wierding (12th house and opposite my Neptune in 6th) not the sensual indulgence version. I mean, I had fun, but still. I don’t know about insights other than observing my attraction to… Read more »

piscean
piscean

That was piscean of the ‘closed for renovation’ variety.

milleunanotte
milleunanotte

From one piscean to another… rehearse at home (hopefully noone lives with you or they are already used to some eccentricity?) the possible conversations designed to bust you: varying words, tones and contexts… you know, the trying-to-pry, the teasing, the gossip-firing, the accidental-bust, the knowing-smirk.

You’ll find that your first rehearsals bring out your seething, cheesy, guilty-as-sin responses; then they are released. You will be ready to be caught ‘off guard’ and delighted by someone’s comment, it will be a joke…

THEN you can stroll around casually cos you will actually FEEL rather more light and casual.

piscean
piscean

AAaaa I just realised that not only opp Neptune but the eclipse formed an exact sextile to my MC and trined my IC and Pluto.. What does that even *mean*?! subconscious new beginnings(?) Beneficially boosting public life & very personal origins?

12th house virgo
12th house virgo

Yeah, I thought when the Scorpio Uranian transit messaged me, you know what – it would be great to have a romantic adventure and have sex (which I haven’t had for years), and I’ve got my Venus in Virgo kink to explore, but I can’t tolerate bullshit. I can deal with a guy whose got economic and family problems. As long as he carries his own bags, works on moving postively, you know? Scorpios have their Saturn transit coming up, so I know he’s got realizations to come to. I don’t need someone to take care of me in life,… Read more »

Charley
Charley

Funny enough this Scorpio came to a similar realisation about a Virgo, I’m not going to hunt out his real feelings or be used as buffer zone between stuff he evidently needs to sort out. I’ve never been flummoxed, out scrutinised or met anyone with a stronger emotional force field than my own before, totally out foxed by a Virgo.

fushia fairy
fushia fairy

oh my! was recently out foxed by a Virgo. My multivirgo exfling, he even looks like a fox.
Good for you!

12th house virgo
12th house virgo

Ha ha! Out Scorped by a Virgo, that’s funny. I’ve been digging the Scorpio-types lately. Mars transiting my 12th? I don’t know. I appreciate their depths and intensity. But this guy (maybe all Scrops?) I SEE them, I see the “them” they leave lurking in the shadows and never want to talk about. I figured I’d let this guy know from the start, that’s how it would be. If he’s up for that, cool, but he has to be ready to carry his own karma. I can certainly push his buttons to make him aware of exactly where all his… Read more »

Charley
Charley

That’s how I felt, ‘seen’ and evaluated for my worthiness. It’s left me feeling bizarre, I’m just not used it I guess. That combined with his extremely impenetrable exterior, I have no idea what he thinks about me and that is enough to drive a Scorpio crazy. I must KNOW everything and I can’t. He’s hiding but I’m looking for that deep intimacy, something that means something and I’m not hanging around to eek it out of him and loose my self worth in the process. Shame because I think there’s potential for something special but you can’t force someone… Read more »

12th house virgo
12th house virgo

Virgos are a pain in the ass. There’s no gaming them unless they’re borderless low Virgos who wannabe a servant. I have a friend whose been trying to get a Virgo man to open up. But he’s got to much self guilting going on to make room for intimacy. All that judging Virgos do to others they do to themselves first which leaves them often times too busy to make room for someone else.

Domestic Triffid
Domestic Triffid

JUst realised that a certain multiple Scorp in my life is my own personal zap zone. I’ve been trying and trying to connect, and I just get nothing back… When I think of them, I drink and entertain silly fantasies instead of focussing on the change in direction my own life has taken and focussing on the things that I need to do now. Such a pull from the past…. I realised it last night, three pints of cider in… “OH ! I could have finished my painting, instead of waiting on an email….” Anyway, have signed on for an… Read more »

piscean
piscean

Hey, I really like what you have to say there. I think that’s the realisation I (hoped I had) arrived at. Even tho the easy pickings won over the usual self-restraint this time. I’ll wait and see what the week brings.

12th house virgo
12th house virgo

Oh, and my office holiday party had such a nervous, firey, social energy to it. People are all energetically vying for new hook-ups. At least, they were on Friday. Who knows how they’re all feeling now.

year of the fox
year of the fox

I had a dream the other night that kind of re-lived a RL incident of a beloved pet dying when i was little, except it only had the head of my beloved pet, the body was this sort of chimeric mix of other animals. I’m sure it means something inside of me is dying off, but I don’t know what. I forced myself to go to a holiday party for work, to pass out cards and make connections. I really wanted to be home feeling emo or on the computer or going for a walk. But no, my friends needed… Read more »

fushia fairy
fushia fairy

Foxy, your Grand and Amazing.
forget the lame party and that crude man.
Your beautiful!

strange…Thursday I dreamed of 2 of my pets that died this summer. One I am still tore up about the way it happened. In the dream he was on fire, looking at me, waiting patiently to save him. I did. Broke my heart cause I blamed myself for his death this summer. I felt like it was him in the dream, trying to make me feel better, but it didn’t. But I feel he is alright where ever pets go.

year of the fox
year of the fox

Oh that’s so sad. I’m sorry that you lost your darlings so recently. This is what one dream dictionary site says about dreaming of dead pets: “To dream of a dead pet suggests that something that you had thought was left in the past is coming back to haunt you. Similarly to seeing your childhood home, a past pet serves the same function as trying to bring you back into that particular time period. A situation in your waking life may parallel a situation from your past and the dream is providing a means of resolving it.” As to why… Read more »

fushia fairy
fushia fairy

oh thank you for sharing! That does shed some light on the dream. Oddly, there was someone(a human) who died earlier this year in the dream. Interesting.

year of the fox
year of the fox

oh and i found out something interesting about turtles. Their shells (some species) have 13 plates on top which can symbolize the moon phases.

VS
VS

amazing that you picked up on this. I wrote in my journal a few nights ago about how a part of me died overnight. Yes, there is a psuedo-self that I’ve met and am leaving behind. It’s a good time to do so, to make room for truth, passion, and compassion.

anastasia
anastasia

since April I have been trying to a buy a house and after 8 months they pulled it because they said the title work was wrong and it would take months to clear it..I was heartbroken and angry because they could have told me this in April.. so I let that go and went for another better house. Lovely, not broken and in my price.. last Friday was the inspection. I paid 300 hundred dollars for that..anyhow, by nightfall, I didn’t want this house! Pretty, yes, roomy, yes..the basement has asbestos tile..I don’t want it! People, men at work say… Read more »

fushia fairy
fushia fairy

good luck!

Jennifer
Jennifer

My coworker has been having tons of fun trying to buy a house for the last couple of months because his lease is ending (I believe technically he’s now homeless/in between homes at this point). I get to hear about it a LOT. You have my sympathies. Though my coworker’s house is finally “on” as of the middle of this week, so I guess that’s finally getting going.

Zaiborg
Zaiborg

Revelations…
Unbelievable news this weekend has restored my faith in Karmic Law, and MYSELF.
Proof, that the life changing decisions and changes I’ve had to make, were in fact, the right ones.
No more self doubt.
I finally have closure, and for the first time in over two years, I feel at Peace.

fushia fairy
fushia fairy

Congradulations!!! Enjoy that.

leogroover
leogroover

Fantastic Zal

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Good for you; congrats on the life-path affirming messages.

Anonymous
Anonymous

That is a good place to be. Happy for you.

gbs
gbs

For the last six months, ever since my mentor left our workplace, I’ve been assessing the new landscape and wondering if I should stay on. It’s been a constant internal debate–one week it seems obvious that I should stay, the next it feels like I’ll end up in a cul-de-sac if I do so. Yesterday, I finally got it at that gut intuition level that it’s time to move on and start looking for another position, even though a part of me is afraid to begin the process and I’ve been promised new responsibilities that I’ve wanted to take on… Read more »

prowlncrab
prowlncrab

I just felt angry and victimised (thinking of the past). It got so annoying that I fanged around in the garden – cripes am I finding gardening therapuetic all of a sudden!! I’m a brown thumb from way back but have kept a hydrangea alive for at least a few weeks and think I know what it needs now, plus reviving an abandoned honeysuckle and looking to mulch, buy a raised veg planter and possibly adopted a potted hibiscus.

prowlncrab
prowlncrab

ps. I really hate my ex. I hope his nut sack shrivels and drops off. 👿

Girl
Girl

HAHAHAHA I am so sorry but that (the nut sack bit) is brilliantly funny.

Link
Link

Secateurs my love. They are genius.

My thoughts have been running ten to the dozen. It’s been like fishing.

Aquaphobe
Aquaphobe

Buahaha! The first thing I thought when I read the word Secateurs was”what? For the nutsack? That’s a bit extreme” and then I reminded myself to get the whole story before reacting and read on…

Also had sudden unexplained anger burst towards ancient ex. And minor detail obsessing. I’m counting on karma to bite him on the arse, but annoyed at my brain for devoting any thought time to him!

tati scorpitini
tati scorpitini

They’d work on the nutsack as well. Not extreme at all :mrgreen:

I’ve not had any luck with plotting revenge in the past – have only managed the “living well is the best revenge” bit. Every time I try intricate revenge plots they sting ME in the arse. This is not good. However, your mileage may vary.

prowln – Just remember you are awesome 🙂

vividdreamer
vividdreamer

me too! felt angry and victimized by guys from the past! moving forward with self respect and making sure anyone who enters my life respects me and my feelings. I am no longer a victim 🙂 maybe all this had to do with venus and neptune conjunct in 12th house, eclipse opposing these planets. I was blind but now i see 🙂 and what i see now is oh so BEAUTIFUL!

Charley
Charley

Me too, massive rage toward every lover I’ve ever had. I felt used and abused all week.

fushia fairy
fushia fairy

had a touch of this myself. It was small only because of the other junk I am dealing with.

DoubleMutable
DoubleMutable

Ditto!

Scorched Earth
Scorched Earth

Yes indeed.. as I watched it complete itself in the wee hours it was like a natural release of some old ideas or aspects of self as they decided to at least loosen their stranglehold a little if not drift off entirely. Dare I say it maybe even a little of the old optimism I’m supposed to be renowned for came back. I can’t say at the end of today they’re all neatly wrapped up and being shipped off ‘get the fuq outta here’ but it’s not even like that. It just feels real, feels gentler than trying to rip… Read more »

andromeda
andromeda

Wrote my ponderings in the Weekly Horoscopes so I won’t repeat myself. What I like about Gemini anything is the curiosity factor!!
It was a tricky and fascinating eclipse experience for me anyway.

Don’t know about offing the shadow self thing.. I think I am learning to stand in my power more though. Being that I am Rising Gem and I think that translates to others being aware of that too? All good!

andromeda
andromeda

Then again, I am also feeling like my light is standing out and getting beaten down a bit too by the nasties of late… This growth thing ain’t all it’s cut out to be.

Fishngoat
Fishngoat

I have been wirking towards major changes in my personal confidence/ chutzpah for the last 2 months. Have handed in resignation, got jack of the eedjits in control, joined a new band and started feeling like it was really time to take the reins- professionally and personally. As of today, we had our first gig, felt on top of the world and realised that the new me is actually the OLD me… Come out of the shell of self doubt and mental negative self talk that I had allowed to take over for years. Oh, and I made a clear… Read more »

Scorched Earth
Scorched Earth

Funny that, about the old and the new. Great to hear you’re rockin!

Fishngoat
Fishngoat

Thanks! 🙂