The (Dark) Moon Also Rises
It can be harder than usual to reach your goals on a Dark Moon, for sure. Especially when so many planets are in Capricorn – it’s an imbalance of Earth energy. FINE if you need extra gravitas or have some Capricorn fetish going on but for a lot of us – eg; Air type peeps, it’s like trying to skip lightly with ankle weights on.
Is this your cue to concoct a ‘fuq-it-all’ psycho-drama/diva moment and just piss off to the nearest bar/brasserie/beach from whence to text-transmit your new life philosophy/invitations to decadence/some hot Qi Vampire of a nightmare dating scenario? NO. Never on a Dark Moon. Venus soon squares Uranus – plenty of time for madness. And romantic/sexual surprises.
But on a Dark Moon you get what you have to do done and cut yourself a break. A.k.a Sleep. You got it? Or take out your neurosis on a savage unclutter/dusting/qi strirring exercise. Massage maybe.
Also the 2013 Must Know Mission Statement Horoscopes will be up tomorrow….Sydney time. After the New Moon.
Image: Twister Sifter
Astro-accidents Unbalanced: yesterday I fell and bruised the lower bursa on my left knee.Why? Because I was trying to haul something too heavy for my weight while walking on a slippery pavement. Of course no sleep thanks to ice/no ice/ice/no ice treatment.
Saturn – knee, Uranus/Mars must have been pinging.
Ouch!
As i have no pain of my own, shall share yours
hahahahahah
thank you SO much
was debating whether I spend final few $ on a ferry ride to the beach with my snorkel gear and just relax on sun/sand, not so bad right? With perhaps a little “hi there” to the Ambivalent Leo (who is being very lovely and I am trying to head off my manifold and ever-increasing insecurities re romance / whatever-one-calls-this… am I being too keen? Not interested enough? More game? Less thinking? Be thinner / more exotic / born somewhere else? Better shoes? no, my shoes are awesome. More arrogant? More dominant? Less irreverent? AGH i hate everything *ignores brain*)
So, right. Finish sewing work from yesterday. forget about job hunting. Turn on sewing machine. Practice sewing little things. movement, calm, isolate self. Go for run later. wash hair. paint nails, DIY pedi.
ok.
PS that little dog is SO cute! and enthusiastically mid-air… *trusts the verve will return*
srlsly re the Leo, honestly I am so accustomed to getting involved with someone who doesn’t really care for my presence as such, that I am constantly looking for ways to personally fuq this up, in spite of his extreme top-form behaviour. *kicks self under table*
ha! i hear ya. but you know what? he probably wants to see the raw, messy you. cap moon or no, strategizing might not be the way to go. just be your amazing, charming, fabulously shoed self, and all will fall into place. easier said than done but still. everything you write is brilliant and hilarious and he’s probably over the moon about you already. and if not it’s his loss for sure! oh one last thing… i have found that mixed messages are very much a reflection of those we are sending out. xoxox
You are sailing fine
Trust the process xxx
thanks for the words of encouragement Quad..x
Sailing.
The sooner you realize this the sooner you will have peace: people are fucking crazy. They feel one way, act another, and talk yet another. Trying to triangulate yourself into that is folly. It isn’t you or your awesome shoes. xo
have to admit I am getting mixed messages. that plus my own confusion based on past experience makes for a messy head. but hopefully it’s not showing too much.
Just be awesome and ignore your brain.
you make me smile.
that was for your 3.31 comment Pi. do enjoy your posts.
thanks crab! xx
Perfect. Thanks MM. I love how specific you are. I know exactly what to do and what not to do. You are so awesome! xxx mwah:)
“skip lightly with ankle weights on”….
I understand. Doesn’t relate to me though – earthy chart with Cap Asc. LOVING all this Cap energy!!!! 
Ooooh… looking forward to the Venus squares Uranus madness + romantic/sexual surprises.
**pant** ** pant** prepped and ready for anything re. V square N
oooh yeah!
I could use a sexual surprise….it’s been a long, long time..
I have Venus in Capricorn, 6 degrees, so with this pile-up in Capricorn, I hope something good happens in my life….
But yeah, I feel the energy of the dark moon. I have been sleeping a lot and having ‘down time’. Also getting down on myself, though, but realizing it and trying not to be so hard on myself. Kind of depressed…. I’m glad I’ve read your blogs lately MM, because it’s good to get perspective on the ambient energy going on so I don’t feel like it’s just me and I’m going nuts..
Oh, and I’ve been decluttering and cleaning my house a lot, too, before I knew about this current astro, so I guess that’s a good use of the energy right now, right on track….
Mars in Aqua is right on my Sun, though, so I feel like ‘ready to go’ about something, just don’t know what….. kind of a holding pattern but really wanting to move forward in my life.
Me too. Venus 6 Virgo.
Venus @ 0 degrees Capricorn, everything triggering the lessons from my Pluto transit. SO TIRED. Like ridiculously tired. Like I don’t know if I’ve ever been this damn tired.
I am trying to be nice to myself and get excited over a plan instead of guilting myself over my life or whatever I think I SHOULD be doing. No sudden movements.
Hoping some of this breaks up tomorrow.
Feeling the same way. Maybe clean a pair of shoes or junk drawer. Any small accomplishment to take care of you. Helps with self-guilting.
Love how Virgo gives bite size missions!
Yes, me too! I just went to bed for two hours in the middle of the day. It’s like an Anaemia Moon or something…
Yes, omg! Like, unreasonably tired. Energy levels on Empty.
Tried to catch the last free museum day of an art exhibit ’cause I’m low on funds and need to conserve and end up with a broke down car stuck face in, in the (for a fee) parking garage. No warning. Day started out lovely too. Dreams of the Saggo dear one who is presently incommunicado. Sigh. Had to call the DEH (dear estranged husband), who barely had enough $ to come pick me up
^haha – this was me. Just wasn’t feeling glow-y and decided to change my user name. Now you see why. Working on getting back to glow-y. Right now I’m just barely bright!
Tried to catch the last free museum day of an art exhibit ’cause of low funds and end up with a broke down car stuck face in, in the (for a fee) parking garage. No warning. Day started out lovely too. Dreams of the Saggo dear one (SDO) who is presently incommunicado. Sigh. No one else available so had to call the DEH (dear estranged husband), who barely had enough $ to come pick me up. Been paying for that phone call for the last 12hrs. Sigh. All ’cause I just wanted to see a few minutes of spiritual art! So this Leo Sun/Virgo Rising/Aries Moon is indeed ready for just that – SLEEP! Maybe the SDO will pay another dream visit. Or is he the romantic/sexual surprise? Fingers crossed. Despite train wreck of an afternoon got proposals cleared off my desk, appointments arranged for next wk, and desk cleared so there is that. Bring on the New Moon! And fast!!
Uggghh, this dark moon is doing absolutely nothing for (read: ‘killing’) me!
I don’t actually drink alcohol, but I have some Baileys that was left here from Xmas festivities & I just poured myself a small one on plenty of ice… I feel like crap & keep singing “I don’t know what to do with myself, just don’t know what to do with myself…”
And yes, I’ve already cleaned, cleared, scrubbed & Feng’d Chez Lib this morning (primarily bcoz the electrician was here working in every room – Uranus is conjunct my IC at the mo!).
I also fed my Venus fly trap, repotted my monsteria, popped the frangipani & banana palms out to play, under the sprinkler in the sunshine… & grieved at the loss of my gorgeous grape vine (Divinely green provider of awesome shade & lovely dappled sunlight) that the fuqwit next door hacked apart this morning.
So now I’m checking out. Certainly not my usual M.O, as my first instinct is always to process the fuq out of everything, but today, no.
I just want to be away, somewhere… over the rainbow…
Perhaps will nap, may even have a little cry.
Incidentally, I’m almost ALL AIR
(6 planets, mostly in Libra, Mars in Aqua, Saturn in Gem), with a couple of fire, only 1 planet in water (Venus in Scorp)
& NO EARTH…
Apart from my Asc which is @ 19 Cap conjunct the New Moon.
Blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh…
Blahhhhhhhhhhh is right!! You’re not alone! Going to bed – start over tomorrow. Literally.
Yep, I’m with you, I’m going to bed…
Well, not going to bed WITH you…
Ugh, whatevs :/
Actually, Ive decided to kick back in my ‘woman-cave’ & watch ‘Vicky Cristina Barcelona’…
in anticipation/appreciation of the forthcoming Venus/Uranus weirding.
I love that movie! As annoying as it is its wonderful Scarlett j inspires me….
I’m so glad to hear all this about the cap dark moon, I feel soooo heavy, I’ve had pre bleeding heavines and almost pain for the whole week now, its too much, I feel like a volcano about to explode!
This morning I thought about Capricorn and the earth energy and felt the stuckness of it, its so slow! I’m all air and water and this feels like hell, dosnt help that it’s 40 degrees!
Snap, i have that movie in player ready to watch this eve. Thanks for the heads up.
Neptune-Moon conjunct has me in books & movies hours & hours a week, not do do with procrastination, denial or avoidance but just because I CAN
Ditto!
Definitely experiencing the Neptunian inspirations too: Neptune straddling my 3rd house cusp, trine my Venus & square Neptune at the mo.
Mostly air- me too! I’ve cleaned with a vengeance – very different from the old me. It’s been about a week. I have mostly Libra and Mars in Gemini. My Virgo son’s Moon is in Gem too. We both have had huge surge of optimism, peace, he’s rocking his schoolwork. But Geminis are contrary and swim against the tide! LOL.
His Venus/Mars are in Scorp and he has become a methodical, determined student despite the so called ADHD. No meds either. Go figure!!
Your plants sound amazing!!!
Enjoy the moon waves!!
Cleaned under my sinks and in my closets and other neglected spaces. Too low energy to do projects. I’m exhausted, but otherwise feeling pretty grateful.
Thanks for the insight – my beautiful Aqua/Leo friend is not coping with the Dark Moon. He’s taking on board BS from his ex about their kids and just not rising above it – and has been in a funk since yesterday afternoon, and just not able to talk about it or anything else for that matter (he’s that angry).
Your post feels like it was written about him – I have a feeling he will “piss off to the nearest bar” (as this is his usual method of coping) when I know that he needs sleep. Aarrrgghhh – air sign men!!! Counting down the hours to the New Moon for him.
Funny how air sun men seem to cope, they seem invulnerable, emotionless but they aren’t. In that state they can be fragile.
I’ve been in bed researching physical and mental health stuff. Fascinating conclusions about mental illness and armoring having to do with connective tissue, and this having so much to do with collagen, hylauronic acid, and hydration.
Getting back into my healthy habits after a breakup and breakdown/paralyzation this fall and overworking only to suddenly be out of work and freaking out over being confronted by all my shit. One day at a time. The trick is to let yourself feel and experience until it passes instead of trying to mask it and just have the good stuff.
is there a website for this or is it a specialist thing? personally the only thing staving off a full scale breakdown for me has been hyaluronic fillers so perfectly happy to volunteer as a subject for any experiments.
hate this moon, my only cure is organic white chocolate and listening to the new david bowie album, which i love.
Came across it in some research for autoimmune disease (problems with water balance, colloids, connective tissue) and then later found some interesting stuff by Reich or a student of his explaining that schizo disordered people responded to stress pre-muscular development by a full body response in the connective tissue (plasma). Very interesting stuff! Connective tissue is like a sponge, too, so if you want your skin to be soft and wrinkle free you gotta consume a lot of colloids like fruit pectin, gelatin, etc. and maintain alkalinity and a proper water balance.
I am so interested in hylauronic acid fillers for the future. My face is very oval and I have a really big smile/teeth so I know once I hit 30+ my laugh lines are gonna be ridiculous. But hey, maybe my colloid diet experiment will work. ^_^
LOL, LS, dahlink – having just turned 50, my Leo Mars (ok and scorp venus/nept on asc) knows what you mean, but I can’t afford.
Just looked up how hyaluronic acid is supposed to help mental health (beyond injecting it into wrinkles). But before i got too far into that search, I stumbled across Tremella fuciformis-a mushroom traditionally known as snow fungus or silver ear and prized by Chinese women as a skin beautifier, and in herbal medicine.
Pack of 2 (dried) from asianfoodstore for $2.50.
Sounds like the poor woman’s alternative to juvederm. Apparently it helps the body maintain hyaluronic acid production from within (which usually declines with age) so it helps not just with slowing ageing of the skin, but is also great for memory, immune function, allergies,inflammation and preventing osteoporosis (richest whole food source of vitamin D so aids in calcium absorption). It also reduces cholesterol, and speeds glucose metabolism, so it reduces propensity to lay down fat and vulnerability to diabetes.
Man, that’s good shit! Add mushroom soup to your colloids, Rache!
great
I know it’s Dark moon etc… But is this a ggod time be BAD ????????
what sort of BAD?????
there’s a big range right? as in, rob a bank? blow up the locks on animal testing facilities? phone around for a hit man? cheat on your partner? go on the prowl and pick up (that’s not being BAD tho imo, just…on the prowl)? double cross a business colleague?
Yes, THAT one, blowing the locks on animal testing labs.
That’s me at 80 with nothing to lose, armed to the gills in black overalls, glasses & cap, lotsa pockets.
Problem is those animals would never survive the outdoors unless special intro done, but it would halt the experiments.
Have i told you about my rats………………?
I’m about to fire a biz colleague, my employer actually, a Cap no less.
Due to him not understanding the word
RESTRUCTURE.
I’m gonna go with no.
Roar!
Multi conjunct Cap.
Bad as well. Let me out now!
Yeah, taking it lightly as I’m almost panting in this flipping heat in Melbourne!!!! FUQ!
Re: Venus-Uranus thing, not being cynical or anything, I’d just be really surprised if anything does happen. I’m more open to the Venus-Pluto biz I guess.
Decided to end Friday night on an exercise bout, a decent half hour, almost there but not quite chest almost about to burst feeling.
Felt good after the lethargic early half of the day others seemed to feel as well.
Woohooooooo!!!!!!!
Weekend Horoscopes are up – the Venus-Uranus thing need not manifest as crazy bats lust-love you know. There are other interps…
In my case, the other interps have been done to death.
In the spirit of balance & self honouring, Love/lust deserve to be far more highly prioritized as from now on
*as of now/from now on
Agree!!!
I’m on the Dark Moon Scheduler, apparently. Had a fun Saturday girl-date to see the Cleopatra & Space Shuttle exhibit (yes, we are all things Uranian now) with my pet Leo GF then followed that up with a date with the stock trading ex-military Noveau Leo who was literally born 4 days earlier than the PREVIOUS Leo I was seeing (hmm, think I’m having a Leonine moment?) and it was lovely..but the poor man must have burned off all my energy as I promptly fell ill with acute bronchitis and have been alternately hacking up a lung whilst working at home.
Which thankfully, my Control Top LEO boss allowed me to do for the last 4 days. Perhaps the whole Lions Galore around me makes sense in terms of timing, given my continuing liberation from the underworld – Inanna is often depicted standing partially on the back of a Lion. Who knew?
Seriously people, I have never had to give so many hair compliments in so many days. But back to the dark moon..so I’m here, high on cough syrup with codeine (the best) and reading up on the Montreal Protocol. Somehow that seems ironic, yet appropriate.
Whoa, that is her! I didn’t have a clue till something told me to suss it out.. it’s like you creep out of the mines into the a purring, prowling den? Not too bad actually.
But it pays that I have a LOT of mirrors in the household.
Gosh, take it from one who has OFTEN been surrounded by Leo peeps… Its a jungle out there!…
The giving of many hair compliments can be a very draining & dangerous business for the unsuspecting, kind, well-meaning newbie in the Lion’s Den.
Rest up this dark moon & treasure your time-out/’hair compliment free’ days…
If you are to continue recruiting Leo’s into your sacred spaces/life, you’ll need the rest.
Thanks, Babes..I woke up from a cough syrup stupor the other night just as the news was blabbing on about flu related deaths, I was so groggy I began to wonder if they were talking about me.. However, seeing that I still looked like shite I figured not, as I’d imagine in death I’d at least disperse into the best version of myself and not this bedraggled, hollow-eyed, wheezy, lung-hacking beast.
Sometimes I think we end up having a plethora of certain signs around us when life is urging us towards that energy, I’m going for Higher Leo here: Compassionate, sunny, big-hearted, organized, hair guru types who can incorporate gold or bling into their wardrobe without batting an eyelid.
Btw, how Leo is this? The Noveau Leo has guns as he is ex-military, however being a Leo, they are DESIGNER guns, which he carries in a Louis Vuitton carry-all. He says,”I can’t enter those stores, when I do, something just takes over me.” Ruh-roh, someone has the luxury bug (or in this case, bag).
Fark, I hope this bodes well for his gift-giving abilities, it would be nice to be spoiled for a change.
I just cracked up at the LV line. classic
Do hope you get showered in quality gifts, you do deserve it! The idea of designer guns in quality luggage kind of appeals in a crazy way..
get well soon!
get well soon FA.
LV bags… pffff, the easy option! lol
have fun reading about CFCs. thank you for helping to create a cleaner world. xxxx
Also, I agree about the suddenly being surrounded by signs whose energy is good / necessary for us to embody more. happens to me not infreq. xx
I think I realized my problem that was causing that other thing that I realized, so there is a layer behind it all that went deeper than I thought it actually went, i think maybe I realized that on a basic level I am kinda sad all the time, or in my most basic nature, and I was so unserious towards myself, so intellectually harsh and dismissive of my own feelings, I wouldnt even let myself feel them, and would kind of distract myself with a different nature than what is truly my own, i recognized how silly it was against something that was nothing but logic, and the logic won so immediately, that the only times I do start having feelings, they are really sad, so I immediately go, oh stop being silly, so I couldnt be fully logical or fully emotional, and I always knew how much emotion I had, and just assumed it, but without ever thinking weather I was actually living it well, how smart I was in ignoring it to myself gave me content, I just never stopped thinking enough to know how sad I was, and only on every once in awhile am I so sad that I cant pretend otherwise any longer and it just overwhelmed me, I saw it as in terms of how my intellect would figure it out, even though that makes no sense, thought I was progressing in fixing me, that I didnt realize that I was not really feeling, that it was not something to be figured out or cured, but just something to be, i was paranoid someone would find out, but not sure what was wrong myself, I assumed the fact I was paranoid meant I was on the verge of figuring something out, when really I was hiding, and assuming my movement was a search instead, I never stopped long enough to realize I just could not admit how sad and how oftenly sad and intense I really was, there was always a disclaimer, a, yes but I am on the verge of figuring it out dont worry, ah yes see how much I understand it I am not usually here or like this at all and I will be done with it and move on sure enough, mmm, others would nod, he is not whiny and lame, he is intelligent and tortured, he is but an amusing intellect besides itself, but I am lame, I am desiring of some whining, of how sad I really am, how deep it really goes when I slip, how much this is neurosis not an amusing conundrum that will sort itself out, I realized I have never admitted to any sadness, that I could not directly look someone in the eye and just spill my guts out with how sad I am, without rationalizations, without amusing observation along the way to assure them it was an odd flare up, without qualifications attached to assure them, but no normally not this, see its all a misunderstanding, well, I am sad, and its sad that I literally could not let myself admit that to a real human being, that I could literally never see myself organically just telling someone my true feeling, of actually revealing anything, of ever having a heart to heart without me skimming all the edges with rational understanding to assure you, I am familiar with the shape of this, I understand going there so well, we dont even have to go there, without having to admit going there myself directly, I am sad, and I dont understand why that shames me so much that I cant admit it to myself long enough to even feel it, I am ashamed, and dont want anyone to know of what I am ashamed of, Im even sorry I am typing this, admitting this,
well guys, im really really sad, and im sorry I told you that, and I feel ashamed I could be that sad, and im sorry I told you that too, im sorry its not something you can solve, im sorry if when reading this you are at a loss, but thats okay, please dont feel obligated, really, I guess I just wanted you to know, I was scared that would amount to a cry for help, when no one could really help, you dont have to help, there is no way you even can, I am not crying for help, I guess im just crying, and I guess I just wanted someone to hear, but you dont have to do anything
and maybe this isnt the place to say that
Hello Gorgeous,
I’m sorry you’re sad hun (as in honey!), It’s brave and honest of you to open up, accept, and put it out there, some things are bigger than us, and airing/shining torchlights in dark corners nearly always brings with it a beautiful sigh of relief.
You’ve pinpointed it now, wheres your moon, will nourishing it, help you learn how to be kind to yourself ?
Not pretending anymore has to be the first step to becoming a ”Rock Bottom Riser” – (Sweet Song by Smog I’ve used to get me up before).
You’re strong David, you can move through this with light. You notice everything around you, you have a fine eye for details, and now you’ve turned that eagle eye on your soul/spirit.
I love you man, as much as one can love someone they’ve never met, on the best astro blog site in the Universe. You’ll get through this..all the wiser/more understanding of you, take it easy on yourself David. I know you’re Pisces and they say Pisceans are the most evolved of all signs, but it doesn’t mean you can’t be nice to yourself…There is work to be done to get there i m guessing, its quite a title ! x
All words said with love and a gentle hug, nothing meant to offend, orbe offhand, and hope i havent. not my intention. xx
You are WAY too hard on yourself.
Take about 10 steps back and acknowledge – like it or not – you are a human being. Messy, messy, human. Human’s rarely make any sense AT ALL.
And, you’ve got tons of awesome qualities that show through here – and this is just a blog, right? So how awesome must you be in real life? Trust in humanity – your own and others – just a bit.
Cry if you want to, but you aren’t sad just like when you are hungry you aren’t actually hunger – you know what I mean? Language plays tricks on the mind – as if we ARE our emotions. Not so. Emotions come and go. Its a dark moon: nurture, rest, rejuvie, please? You are so much bigger than one mood. xoxoxoxo
David, you are amazing. To get into this deep place of feeling without holding back, in writing, right here, is so true. I for one admire this. You are right, when you say it couldn’t happen face to face. But not ever and forever. There will be a time and a person who can hold this much quite gently and strongly for you. I feel sure that you will bring that person into your orbit. It may be any kind of connection. Thank you for trusting us with your honesty. For sure, you’re right when you say the intellect can be too harsh on such emotion. Wishing you a gentle place to lay your head and heart with this feeling xx
Aww, this dark moon is a hell of a thing. I know I feel like crap tonight. I even just drove to the shops & bought chocolate – I never do that!
It is the human condition to feel sad. It means you are capable of empathy, it’s really important, otherwise you are just a robot. Be proud to be sad (if you know what I mean).
hey , I think I understand what you’re saying about the rational-mind skimming over the depths, and then finally just that we need to say BRAIN.. STOP IT! And shining a light on the *feelings* not the thoughts.
12V is right in saying that we are not our feelings. More like our body & mind is a vessel that feelings (and thoughts) pass through on their way somewhere else. So you fill up with sadness, and it’s dwelling there for a while, you’re human and you’re here to experience the richness of existence as a human being… I guess this is part of that…and at the same time, knowing that if you are struggling with what you feel, there *are* people out there who you can talk to, irl, you are never alone. ok?
it’s so OK to feel the way you do, and so often it’s not until we can truly properly acknowledge something that we can then explore in more depth, look for glimmers of light and even greater depths, and maybe, eventually, somehow, transmute one feeling into another, if we wish to. In my experience it’s like like swimming up from the depths into air. emotional alchemy, or a trail that I walk (in my imagination) that helps me contemplate how I got where I am.
big hugs. xx
Right! Let feelings be feelings. Emotions are one of our senses, part of our experience of energy and consciousness. The biggest problem in our species – and its ingrained in how we socialize – is thinking our way through our emotions.
Emotions are a sense. Like smell or taste. You don’t try to think your way through smelling, right? You don’t think “I’m a bad person because I just smelled shit and I think its on my shoe.” You deal with it. You smell something. You like it or you don’t like it. You respond to it or you ignore it. Up to you, but no freak out probably. Just information. Calibration. Same for feelings. Watch them. Feel them.
I know that’s not easy. I’m 38 and analytical as fuck. If feelings could be thoughts, I’d write them all out. But – thinking…it never fucking stops. EVER. You just realize its there along side everything else that is part of your experience of being alive, conscious, and powerful, right now.
I could really crap on about this. But it won’t get any clearer in words. Its practice.
Awesome 12th.. LOVE this. I always had a hard time figuring out if I was responding to something with “thought” or actual feelings. I love the concept of emotions as a sense.. and Yes I have been paying MORE attention to that and pushing my thoughts on a reaction away.
Thanks for this one. Definitely something I will in depth ponder on my 45 minute drive home. xo!!
I believe emotions *are* very rational.
thanks pi, and everyone else too, this is what I meant, I kind of mistake perception of my emotional side as good enough, without actually addressing it adequately, its okay to be both or have both, but I just need to stop avoiding one of them, and just addressing it makes it better somehow
awww david. so many hugs for you sweetie. i don’t have any pearls of wisdom that haven’t already been said, so i send you love and this poem. hang in there… xoxoxo
Your joy is your sorrow unmasked.
And the selfsame well from which your laughter rises was oftentimes filled with your tears.
And how else can it be?
The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain.
Is not the cup that holds your wine the very cup that was burned in the potter’s oven?
And is not the lute that soothes your spirit, the very wood that was hollowed with knives?
When you are joyous, look deep into your heart and you shall find it is only that which has given you sorrow that is giving you joy.
When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight.
Some of you say, “Joy is greater thar sorrow,” and others say, “Nay, sorrow is the greater.”
But I say unto you, they are inseparable.
Together they come, and when one sits, alone with you at your board, remember that the other is asleep upon your bed.
Verily you are suspended like scales between your sorrow and your joy.
Only when you are empty are you at standstill and balanced.
When the treasure-keeper lifts you to weigh his gold and his silver, needs must your joy or your sorrow rise or fall.
that was a beautiful poem, thanks for that, that was just the right thing
You have no right to try and call yourself out for being human. I don’t know what causes you to react that way because I do as well. Cry when you feel the instinct is clear and openly fill a bucket of fear. You are not alone too insightful and full of intention unfiltered from any view to feel as tortured alone. Perhaps some good Stairway to heaven will make you release the climax to smile.
thanks guys, I felt better typing it, but also feel bad dumping it on you guys, I have just been having big realizations lately, but at the same time they are so simple, I think its just that I should take myself more seriously sometimes, or, its okay to not take myself seriously, but I dont have to be mean about it or disown myself, but thanks guys, im really sorry I have to put it here, uggh
Here’s the best place for it David –
Life’s not all beer and skittles…
And we know it ! xxx
I so know what you mean about not wanting to tell anyone how you feel “without amusing observation along the way to assure them it was an odd flare up, without qualifications attached to assure them”. It’s the fear of being seen as inadequate or negative. So many times I have vented here, written a reply to a post and then not posted it – or worse, posted it and then felt like, oh god, why did i do that…you are so not alone in that.
The truth is, we live in a culture with a two-faced approach to misery. On the one hand, psychology and new age thinking tells us to accept and not judge our feelings; we are told to share our feelings so we can get the emotional support we might need when we are really down.
On the other hand, we are told our thoughts create our feelings and our world, so we feel ashamed to admit how frequently and intensely sad we feel, as if we are not sufficiently evolved. And I I think men in particular are conditioned to bury or divert deep feelings they find hard to control.
Quite frankly, I am troubled by new age stuff which posits that event leads to thought which leads to feeling. While I figured that learning how to control thought to improve mood is a good thing, the thought-leads-to- feeling model never rang completely true to me, and seems to create a risk of reducing our empathy both for others and for ourselves. And who hasn’t read, in these books, that to be happy, we should avoid not only negative thoughts, but people who aren’t positive? So then we are acutely aware that we risk driving people away if we disclose. But then, who do we talk to when we are feeling absolutely dire?
Happily, there is no lack of empathy round here, but it turns out I was right to query the model…
Neuroscientific research now shows that much of the time, feeling precedes thought – the amygdala reacts, creating a cascade effect through other bodily systems, and then are we left to deal with the thoughts produced using whatever cognitive tools or spiritual strength we have. The struggle with cognitive/emotional/spiritual dissonance – ie madly trying to think positive, while feelings take a lot longer to fall into line, and some refuse to do so – seems to the common denominator of human existence.
Have you ever read Alain de Botton’s Status Anxiety? I’m not inferring that status is the root of your sadness – far from it – but I think he says so much that is very important about the human condition in the 21st century and the philosophies and ideologies that make us feel so inadequate about who we are and our feelings. SO very apropos when Cap is strong – particularly dark moon, but even after a new Cap moon, as now! xx
that sound like the kind of stuff I meant, like there is an undercurrent that I am just ignoring, I wasnt trying to or anything, I will look into that book then, never heard of it, it sounds interesting and exactly how it really works, every time I start feeling things, it feels more like something already there and dormant has finally built enough pressure to bubble over, just thinking about it, or wondering why it is, or what to do about it maybe is not the right approach, maybe you just have to let it happen
Babe r u eating right at the moment? Nourishing your nerves with healthy food, getting enough sleep etc?
Mentioned on the Scorp post about a friend who has fallen pregnant with a young woman he met a few weeks ago. He found out on his way to Asia for a job, quit, flew back and said he will stay with her and try to make it work.
Their mythic story is following this Saturnian/Venus/Urans astro step-by -step in an incredible way! I read the dailies every day and it just written for them, amazing.
She is Cap (Sun 4th) Rising Virgo, Moon conj. Venus in Scorp. Merc in Cap. Totally talented and successful in all ways.
He is Leo (Sun 8th) Rising Cap, Moon in Saggi, Merc/Venus in Virgo.
Their synastry is awesome, with her Moon Venus on his NN & all sorts.
From my point of view, this former play boy is looking for love and she is beyond perfect. She is so serious and career minded and this is the perfect cosmic answer and he will lighten her up.
Even her sis said, “OMG, I went to a psychic last month who predicted this!”.
They came over last night, I told them, it’s a blessing, it’s time, make life & unite! But… a sister each has told them they are mad, abort & separate.
Their families are so Saturn (not in a good way).
And they are such a Saturn couple, he has Saturn in the 7th House and all her Scorpy stuff trines his Cancerian 7th – plus she is Sun/4th!
He is 8th House Leo, she is Scorp Moon.. It’s so Karmic.
They are in the dark of this dark moon together, getting to know each other. If they break up and follow their families advice I really will despair of humanity. They are in their late 30′s for goodness sake.
I suspect by tomorrow the ‘crown of stars’ that Capricorn is making will make or break this couple that might be… I have my fingers crossed.
He’s a Cap rising and moon in Saggo like me.
I’m loving Venus in Cap conjunct my Asc (1º off) right now. Hope your friend is getting the vibe too. In fact, this month so far has been incredible!!
Susan Miller’s monthly scopes for Cap says that the ‘crown of stars’ makes January the “most exquisite month of months” If you google Susan Miller there’ll be a link to the Astrologyzone website. Check it out.
I have my fingers crossed for them too!!!
I read Susan MIller scopes each month.
After spending yesterday writing new moon horoscopes I’ve lost track of my own and realise this morning I’ve been ripped off! New moon has skipped my first house. Last new Moon was in my 12th this one’s in my 2nd. Dang. double dang. I had a look at Ms Miller’s site– bit of an advertising mine field to negotiate. Another astrologer I’ve never heard of. The world is full of astrologers!
Happy new Moon folks.
The advertising doesn’t really bother me. They have to make a living somehow! Especially when they’re doing long monthly scopes for free.
I only visit the site to read the monthlys.
Better luck with the New moon next time
S Miller’s content tends to render the advertising invisible once you start reading – she is the schizzle.
Thank you for the lovely crown of stars and Ms. Miller tip doll!
Cap with Sagg moon has a fun flavour to it – straight out and funny/dry.
TBH, last night was so upsetting, the couple were sitting there, daring to get a little bit excited on my couch, hoping that this was a magic start to a new life.. when a sis texts, ‘get an abortion tomorrow’.
Wtf is wrong with people?
Aww, that sucks! Nothing like family to rain on ones parade!
I get it every now and then from my sister too.
Well I hope the couple dare to make it work and be happy!!!! That’ll show everyone!
She went grey, she looked like she was going to faint… I just feel so bad for her right now.
Your advice was right you know… a friend of mine got pregnant after only knowing each other a couple of months, and they decided to go with it, and there is 4 year old lively lovely Jeannie now…
They have their ups and downs, but have never regretted it. They were mid- twenties musician types though, who were willing, trusting and ready to go with their intuiton.
You friend will have another child, I feel sorrier for the woman, I’d guess she will really regret it later
I think so. I have quite a few examples in my own life of people who have had this exact opportunity. The ones who stayed together didn’t regret, the ones who aborted/separated all regretted their decision.
I am not anti-abortion, I am anti people giving their fears control of their decisions.
Me too……..fingers crossed they’ll go with their intuition and the Multiversal good currents… Let us know please, ta.
Having been the counterbalance to their family crap, I feel I better pull my head till they contact me.
It is their decision & frankly if they are so whipped by their families they have abortions & break up with people to please them then they are probs better off not having babies…
Will def let you guys know, esp as their story is really an mytho-astrological excursion.. New Moon tomorrow! Bless their cotton socks.
Just wow. Yes, i hope for them.
wow, big call, telling others how they ought to be feeling (separate) when the main people seem to be feeling something entirely opposite (togetherness). good luck to all.
Totally! I am not sure there are some selfish concerns here, not just the culture/racial/economic concerns touted. Esp as my friend has suggested a pre-nup as he doesn’t care about her money.
man why do great love stories have to get fuqed up by the families always?! so unfair. holding space for them to break free of those chains and follow their hearts.
True! But we do allow those chains to exist too. The chains of family co-exist with the chains of a limited world & spiritual perspective imo.
Wow I think if you moved that chart back a few degrees it would make me regret something horribly. I guess I’m saying I always will but he’s younger and better off alone. Together I pray they do work out though sounds combustible but higher connections I wouldn’t mess with them as a couple!! Power!
Wow this is a Dark Moon story afterall… The extremely successful woman is a girl afterall.
She caved in to her family.
He is on a plane back to Asia.
His own family told him not to come back.
My heart is breaking a bit…
But this is his story & I guess now he knows who he is in the face of adversity. I don’t regret my advice, it felt right to me.
Sorry to bring sad news all.
Separacion y muerte en fin.
I am really worried for his mental state now.
Your advice was right you know… a friend of mine got pregnant after only knowing each other a couple of months, and they decided to go with it, and there is 4 year old lively lovely Jeannie now…
They have their ups and downs, but have never regretted it. They were mid- twenties musician types though, who were willing, trusting and ready to go with their intuiton.
You friend will have another child, I feel sorrier for the woman, I’d guess she will really regret it later
Noooooooooo!!!! Nooooooo!!!
My heart is breaking a bit too. I really thought it would work. ((((hugs))))
That poor little soul that wanted to be part of their lives will have to wait.
Well, the song isn’t over yet I guess…
She may change her mind, I hope so for all of their sakes!
omg. i feel like excluding myself from social gatherings & etc. “sometimes I need to be alone”
Sleep. Yes.
I feel this astro is so me. I’ve half my planets in Gemini, the other half in Capricorn. It’s like hard work on a whim.
good astro for getting of toxins i reckon
working on not having unstructured time!!
Saturn In Pisces: The Addict
( got the following from somewhere
on the net sorry not know where
not trying to steal any credit for words!)
And it never works, does it? Well, it works temporarily but then you need more. And then when that one runs out? When the good new shiny feeling runs out? You’re empty. But not really. The Empty is an illusion. Empty bottle, empty box of cookies, empty bed. This emptiness isn’t real. Fill up the emptiness with your Saturn i.e. Reality.
Accepting reality is not the same as judging it good.
The challenge for the Saturn in Pisces person is to let the stream stream and not block its flow by drowning in it.
AND HOW many lifetimes must we suffer like this?
now cat friend not visit for a while
i go over to where she lives as owners out front
their demonic kids said i came over and walked into their home
WTF lying little brats.
time to move on
i got really angry at this as given smoking away
not in the mood for liars at all
they said i have to get my own cat
ok i will
i’m starting rehab on monday. one would hope a phoenixing is not too far away.
Wow good luck jicky!
It’s the start of a journey, Jicky, and i wish you the very best.
Good luck! May all the habits that hold you down get thrown out with the dark moon. I’d say, by making a decision like that, you’re already phoenixing. xoxo
thanks guys, much appreciated.
many blessings to you. xoxox
thank you so much
May the Force be with you Jicky ! xx
thanks, i hope to find the force again xx
twas me
Hey that is TOTAL Phoenixing – good on you! And beautiful timing with the big let go and all
Thank you Mystic, it is great to have you and the blog and all the lovely people on the blog (plus The Oracle and Scopes…) for support, guidance and humour at all times.
oops where’s my avatar?
yah
Dear Jicky,
Woke up this morning thinking of your big step today.
Best of luck beautiful,
Watched Russell Brands BBC Doco on addiction yesterday on ABC iview (if youre in Oz) … was excellent….
I am an ex heroin addict, who replaced it with alcohol, and now not a user of any substance…
Life is good hun..xxx Thinking of you.
Cosmic Fleece thank you so much for your support and disclosure and for having me in your thoughts. Yes I love Russell Brand so I will try to find it on the ABC website. I’m taking my laptop so will be in full comms I imagine.
Again, thank you..
http://www.abc.net.au/iview/#/view/29870
link to show lovely one.
think its on the site for another 12 days then they take it off.
will be thinking of you whilst you’re away.
blessings !
this dark moon i feel fat, like i’m a fatty. it’s horrible. an jupiter is no where near my sun or ascendant. i bought vitamin supplements and i’m starting anew in exercise/ideals/behaviour changing/diet/grooming.
thank goddess that moon is done, i feel terrific.
Hmmm.. interesting. Maybe that is why the toro/gem wants to jump ship and run. I couldn’t figure out what was going on. It could also mean he’s horny if the Venus voodoo is brewing.. LOL!! I have seen this before. For me, I went out last night to see some friends. It was a nice surprise invite even though I wasn’t feeling well. I thought maybe I was juicing too much. So, I will cut back. Looking forward to sleeping in tomorrow. Did my cleaning that I am very happy about but could do more. But what I have done is amazing for me. LOL!! Meeting up with friends maybe tonight and definitely Sunday so.. my social schedule is busy! I like it!
I’m curious, when you say you’ve seen this before with him, are you talking about a shift in energy? Or objective interaction/observation/discussion WITH him?
I don’t dismiss the validity of an energy connection. But the mind is not so good at interpreting those things.
Wow! Go David. You r a real man. To br that open is a blessing to us all. Strength, and courage to you. Btw, I’d so date you.
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I am so sick with the flu, I have done almost nothing but sleep for the last 96 hours. The longest I was up was about 2 hours, I went to the hospital, trying to get some Tamiflu. The doctor said it wouldn’t help. Gee thanks doc, that’s the only thing that could possibly have helped. I could have stayed in bed.
i think i have a capricorn fetish at the moment because i am loving this energy. i swear the moment venus went into cap i was all UGH the stagnation and disintegration and i got to work straight away. such refreshing energy… my habituated mind says naw, put this off a bit, and cap says no! do it now and get it done. discipline. it’s nice. so my house is shiny and clean and newly red curtained and the clutter, the bags of stuff left over from the move that had been lying around in corners and closets for months are put away, tons of crap to the thrift store, fresh flowers… it’s very very good. and i was at such a physical low point- carb binging and not exercising and feeling the same ultra-tired malaise as everyone, and then i realized that i have a cupboard FULL of energy and chi-building supplements that i never take because i’m so conditioned to a nursing regime. i haven’t been breastfeeding for almost a year now! so i’ve been taking a few the last few days and voila! i am renewed. yay!
I have a Capricorn fetish too
Got more done yesterday than the last two weeks.
How weird is this: woke up to my darling daughter cooing away. Sure too early but lack of sleep is my life! Saggo hubby away for couple nights so stumbled into shower to clear cobwebs and noticed my lovely soap, soap dish and little cup I use to wash bubs hair with are gone. Feel little freaked as this is weird. I check around house, can’t find them and no open doors etc. back into room to play with bub and there is soap, cup and soap dish on my bedroom drawers. Wtf?!!! Did I sleepwalk? Did someone break in to move some soap?! I have had experiences with active spirits before, are they back? I’m trying not to freak as it sounds crazy but really How did the soap move into my room?! Dark moon mystery!
Taking of self and business. Just don’t have the energy for others drunken dramas, middle of the night drunken text msgs, and forgetful friends who are a no show because they got too drunk and slept through business meetings.
Just done with it.
Been surrounded by addicts since college and just don’t have the energy for it atm.
Working in my art/music studio and loving it! silence is golden., Turned off fb, twitter, and cell phone. Someone else fix their dramas for once.
signed, drama burn out
do you have anything in the 12th house. Could explain the addicts?
And THAT’S how you get rid of Qi Vamps. Trust the process and get off on your own awesome. Good for you.
But, seriously, de-cluttering helps. xo
Knocked on the THT’s (triple horn toro including rising with Sun exact…Venus Aries, Sagg Mars in 8th square Virgo Pluto 5th…**gulp**)
door last night. Was going to the drug store but then was like, I’m going to go over and knock on his door..had on green scrubs, Palm Spring 24/7 of course sandals and black zip up hoodie…)
Said “sorry for barging in”..ha, ha is that not just the most Aries? lol
Then promptly turned around and gave New Years hug.
In the end, he got two good-bye hugs and two kisses on the cheek…
Was at his place two hours. He was engrossed in Mavericks and Kings basketball game. It was totally fun…Tons of details.I ended up his pom pom girl if that tells you anything (but only in theroy and fantasy for now…
) But his dog, Choco, licked my face and he made him stop…lol..And then the dog curled up beside me on the couch and stayed there.Those are what we here in US call “brownie points”.
Anyway, all those trans placements in Cap with Aries in the zz..had to do something…
I only gonna agonize so fuqing long…
xo
Yaaay!! Go girl!
from Andromeda’s sad new above, to happy news. Yaaay Sweetpea!!
I was wondering of you had heard from the Toro.
Saggo finally contacted me last Sunday
Will fill you in later. I gotta pop out for coffee
*IF !!! See….. I need a coffee!
This Dark Moon has been ridiculously weighty.
I knew I could depend on your blog, to talk about what the eff is up today. (I thought it was just pms lol) Cause lots of people and turkey bacon are just really annoying me. And my friend bailed on me for the gym 3 days in a row! We signed up for the membership on Tuesday. Her idea, and it’s been hard to get together after work. The new person that works above always keeps me late. Today I told her no. (Cause I’m sick of my friend changing her mind cause I don’t get off soon enough.) Haven’t been able to unpack since I got back from winter break. I’ve lost 20 pounds so out with the Large sizes, D cup bras, and size 8-11 pants and in with the medium sizes, b cups and size 6 pants. Gonna go tonight think it will make me feel less frustrated.
yeah my friend that bails on me has gem moon and venus and cap rising and neptune.
I have Gem rising Aqua mars capricorn saturn uranus and neptune.
so I think we are feeling both
Dunno it’s all a bit fuqt. Had a 2nd break in over Christmas, first one when I was away trying to escape 44c heat down south. not really successful. This one they took my portable Bose, I purchased that with compensation from victims of crime compo funnily enough. We think the perpetrators are known to us as in my 12yo sons so called mates. I took that thing everywhere with me, on bush work trips, holidays, always had it going. I feel a bit lost. Music is my life. A friend lent me Chrissy Ampletts book to read on holidays but I’ve read it in the 4 days since I’ve been back. Amazing woman, have always related to her.
I guess as long as Uranus is on my Merc trine Jupiter and eventually Sun, there ain’t gonna be no dark moons…Which is a lie of course but in the greater overall sense it is true…dark moon emo’s come and go and I do my best processing when I’m walking…I cry, I laugh… Just as long as that energy is moving…