I don’t know if I am being a Love Zombie, if this is a WTF relationship or if I’m just emoting hard because of Venus and the Zap Zone but I would appreciate any advice you could send my way. You obviously get a lot of these so maybe the purpose of this is to just get it off my chest and release.
First of all, you were right in your yearly horoscopes. Its made its presence known since last year but since Neptune sprang back into Pisces in February, my life has slowly shifted. My flatmate moved out, making me realize just how much she took me for granted. I’ve got myself a corporate job that pays well and challenges me on a daily basis not to be a doormat. I broke up with my long term lover, who just wasn’t right for me and I dived into a WTF situation with Mr Aquarius.
To be honest with you, he isn’t even the problem. It’s his ex, Leo Personified (Sun, Mercury, Venus, Mars); a woman who sashays instead of walks, whose face and figure is goddess worthy, a woman who will probably sneer that I’m his replacement.
How do I know that she’ll sneer? Well, a long time ago, we used to be friends.
This is how the story goes with me and Leo Personified: She drifts into my life with apologies for losing contact and her bad behaviour, figures out the man I’m currently into and whilst I am in the process of winning them over, she swoops in and takes them off my hands. Then, when she is bored of them, she leaves us all in the dust and moves onto the next merry band of gentlemen that she can hypnotize with her Leo squared charisma. It wasn’t so bad when we were teenagers but I thought in our mid twenties, she would have fallen out of that behaviour so I believed that this time round, things were different…
Mr Aquarius was the last guy to fall into her orbit and he fell for her hard. Whilst I have now cut her out of my life, what makes this a ‘lady, you don’t need astrology’ situation is I’m now with Mr Aqua. What with all the planetary action, as much as things are amazing with Mr Aquarius at the moment, I almost want to cut him out of my life too.
If it wasn’t bad enough that she steals the guy she knows I’ve fallen for behind my back, the cruelest thing is she told him how I felt about him. We (me and Leo goddess) used to write letters to one another and she would ask me questions about my feelings for him and then show him every single page of my feelings laid bare. I didn’t even know that she was with him until she called off their clandestine romance, I didn’t know that my feelings were a form of amusement for them until much later.
Now I have him and things are going great, I still can’t help but feel cheated. Because I feel like second-best. Because whilst all my feelings have unwillingly been revealed, he’s still an enigma to me. I’m humiliated and embarrassed over something that I consider a strength; my emotional expression and my writing.
Right now, I know Venus in 7Gem is in my 11th house so it makes sense that she is on my mind and oh-so-apt that it’s in the traditional house of Aquarius too. The only major asteroid in the 11th is Chiron. Chiron is about to hit my natal sun too so I get there is a sense of healing. But how does one heal from this? How do I not let it affect this relationship? Or is it already too late?
If you have any thoughts, I would be eternally grateful.
From a Little Fish in a deep, dark Venusian pond x”
Dear Little Fish,
Now well done with all the Zap Zone morphing – you sound fantastic and no more door-matting. But seriously, what is going on with Mr Aquarius??? There are so many questions here; When you say that you “have” him, are you together-together? So you just left this one long-term relationship for Mr Aquarius and it’s all stable? Or you mean you “have” him more in a Uranian sense, like a sexual time-share arrangement only his schedule is ratified off-planet?
And have you discussed the fact that he apparently lay in bed entwined with Leo Personified, her long golden limbs wrapped around his (I don’t know) Aqua hips as they chortled together over your EMOTIONS? This is the bit that totally gives me the merdes so one can only imagine where YOU go with this image on a Dark Moon.
The best interp of this is that he ALWAYS loved her, was temporarily Sex Zombied by Leo Personified and did not really laugh at your letters at ALL. That is just what she said to aggrandize herself. And that one day he came to, the bath salts wore off and he made the right decision to be with you.
But I’m not quite sure about this version of the story…In fact, I am a bit worried that YOU may be in danger of being a Love Zombie. I say this will respect and concern, not to be mean. Because when you say that you “have” Mr Aquarius and yet that he is also “still an enigma” – something is not vibing right. If you’re totes together than i guess Leo Personified has to become part of your past like any other Ex.