Dark Moonie
Okay it IS the Dark Moon and Mars is dirging along through the last degrees of Cancer so there is a LOT of stuff coming up…There are always jelly babies & I know quite a few peeps who are resorting Dionysian dilution of their angst…I still think it’s best to let the psychic grot emerge, write it out, do salt baths etc. I texted Kim Falconer a grizzle before and she said the antidote is to list ten things you totally love about your self. your life -they can be awesomely obvious (cherished people) and/or completely shallow. And it’s nearly Mars in Leo!!!!! I am re-reading my Martian Bats rave, even though i wrote it myself – & you should too!!!!
My God those jelly babies look good!
my libran ex n i have recently been communicating and even exchanged luv u’s in txt. i have prayed for this day to come thatt he would be enlightened. i even went to a psychic and he said that everything will be alright with us if i just give him a second chance. i have doubts inside of me. i just cant help that 80% of the time i feel empty when we communicate….can somebody enlighten me please…im so confused
hon I would say it’s over. Things end for a reason. If you have doubts, listen to them.
thank you ca. i have prayed for this fervently day in day out but why do i have to feel this way when evrything is doing ok. even the psychic gave me a thumbs up to go with it…would i be punish for praying that we will get back to each other and as he is coming back i have feeling of ambivalence?
I think psychics are very good for reflecting our energy, exactly as we are in the moment that we see them. So probably when you went, in full energy of praying and hoping, then that is what was true for you in that moment. Its doesn’t mean things don’t change…
I think it is quite a classic thing to want and want and want, and then once you do to feel ambivalant when you get it. Because so much energy went into that wanting- perhaps look at what it was you thought he would bring to your life? What you said to yourself would change once he was back? Maybe this could point you in the direction of what would actually be best for you.
Psychics are interesting! I get psychic hits off charts sometimes that amaze me but they come and go…I had this woman ring up when i was doing talkback and she was asking re love – okay, her birthday had her as having Pluto-Sun for the next year and she was wondering about getting bk with some guy – anyway, i’m like evolve/phoenix whatever & she’s vibing v.needy and bats about the guy & I said (a la the pluto transit) that i did not think she would be happy bk with him and she SNAPPED AT ME “Well the palm reader said we would be married soon so there.”
thank you mystic and zlatni…have a nice weekend
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Psychics get things TOTALLY wrong too.
“Well the palm reader said we would be married soon so there.”
omg…
Don’t get me wrong, i have psychic flashes all the time & its sooo important to listen to them. But i just think if i have a really strong attachment to something i’ve heard from a psychic (or something i’ve intuited) as being an absolute concrete truth for the future — then its probably just my ego flicking up!
Delilah, if I remember, this is the same guy who dumped you for someone else but continued to live in your home and share your bed without contributing to expenses, and for a while refusing to move out. Does he have a job yet?
If you want to get back with him, I suggest setting some strong boundaries and conditions for continuing the relationship and make him prove over a long period that he won’t exploit you again. I wouldn’t let him move back in for as long as possible. See how he goes courting you, taking you out for fabulous dinners, buying you flowers and proving to you that he is honourable and decent. A man who loves you wouldn’t treat you the way he has in the past.
Personally, I’d be looking further afield for a man who worships you.
thank you uber virgo. you are always clear and spot on in what you say and what memory you have.
he still doesnt have a job yet and couldnt possibly move back in with me since he live very far away from my place. he needs money to buy a ticket for a plane. i just told him earlier this afternoon that i cant be with him because i cant take it anymore because what he did to me was just too much for me to bear and i always have flashbacks. he told me he will wait and would want to make amends if i would just give him a chance. everyday he does his best to communicate with me in anyway. i just keep communication open so that there would be no bad vibes between us but deep inside of me i know the feeling is gone it’s just that i prayed for this to happen and when the day came i felt so empty.
thank you again for the enlightenment
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delilah, I can tell you are a sensitive and sweet person who dislikes conflict. Don’t worry if there are bad vibes between you. If he’d behaved better they wouldn’t be there.
However, there are people who take other people’s sweet nature as an invitation to mistreat them. It’s essential to put your well being first and that means standing up for yourself and making sure you aren’t hurt by the careless behaviour of others. You can be firm without being unpleasant.
I suggest breaking contact with him for a while until your emotions settle and you are able to look clearly at whether it is worth continuing the relationship. This could take some months. I also suggest spending time with good friends. They might know some nice single guys.
i can’t add much to that except i wanted to say, hi delilah
and be cool, take ALL the time you need. All those hurt feelings stand in the way of your feeling truly trusting and in love and happy. Like they say, do you feel as if you have your own power back in this twosome? Or are your feelings still tied up with his actions and words?
If he is serious (hmmm), he will need to show that to you – don’t do a thing to help him. if he is weak and a chicken, and/or using you, this too will (re)surface.
nothing like time to sort these things out…take care
thank you uber virgo… i so love that you are frank and so spot on. wishing you good vibes and lots of love
thank you unpredictable pisces for your insight too.
thanking mystic again for this wonderful site.
thank you and wishing good karma to everybody
Mmmm lollies.
Mystic I have been reading my Martian Bats every night for the past week (printed it and put it in my bedside cabinet), and will probably continue to do so until Mars gets into Leo. The ending of it in Cancer is really killing me. I feel like everything is a mess that can’t be sorted, and my self esteem is really low. How many days….!
Gawd yes I’m in countdown mode myself…have had a day of ups and downs…and just some awkward stuff about myself being revealed…v squirmy yeck feeling, not boiling bunnies stuff, just a shove into the light of how my blase by the skin of my teeth positivity can turn…squirmy…and not in a good way.
mystic lovely please advise- i will obviously read my sun sign and rising (though one day id love to learn the real reason behind the accuracy of the rising sign!) but should i also read the sign that actually lines up with my actual house placement- ie, i know that in my natal chart mars is going into the 4th, which in this case is true for Taurus. BUT whenever ive followed that system, its been so far off base its not funny. which is wierd because it corelates with my natal chart. but is written for taureans not saggis so maybe thats the prob? am i making a whiff of sense?? i think ive gone manic with the impending mars in LEO!! (F***cking awesome as the last days of mars in cancer have been HORRIBLE DEPRESSING AND SLUDGY).
I was thinking/asking about this the other day, because of the house changing mid sign thing. What I’ve concluded (not necc correctly) is that its worth reading for the sign the prior your ascendant for when said planet is still in house it was in when in previous sign, then your ascendant sign when it crosses the line. ie – my 3rd house cusp is mid libra, so I’m reading saturnalia for virgo (sat in 2nd house) till it crosses into 3rd, then I’ll read for leo (my asc). It seems to ‘fit’ better that way.
You may want clarification from someone more informed though.
Oh God – lucky quaffing Walnut essence these past months aided coping with upside down ‘planned to the minute’ schedule today!!
Despite NOT getting to Le Tax, am SO proud.
The mountainous dish pile c. of recent spontenaties provoked RARE DIY empowered surge & channeled Saturn Girl as conquestadour of Dishwasher Repair Women.
YUP no blokes had come through – so solo flipped DW on floor, devised removal of kickplate & SUCCESSFULLY installed new logic board. Get outta goddam town – the whirring of whitegoods be bliss here today – even dog ducked in case she be next for wash, polish, pimp, scrub.
Fixing DW bought hard to describe deep satisfaction. Am NO DIY.
More known to cause more damage than repair.
Having correct tools on hand was essential!!
Amidst all of this were unannounded visitors.
Normally the palace gates’d snap shut with abode in semi-disaster zone – separately 3 besties (each residing o/s) walzed in. The last a TOTAL surprise – a love of life from last century looking as hot as ever, now married with young sprogget & tres happy. put down the glad rags to hear tales of him selling his pacific boat biz & surfing all he likes no longer needing to work, wifey landed biz boon also – so great to see dear friends land on feet & smiling. Popped to shops after & ran into ANOTHER von-hotsky-Ex from last century (best twin-fin surfer I ever seen) – with no 1 son hoisted on shoulders, & warmly congratulated re this week’s arrival of no 2.
There’s BIG message here re these great guys walking back into life – they were my heros in the day. And they are so happy.
Determined – still managed to blitz half the house post dusk.
Now gona pimp self, bung on the barby & DAMN wish had those Jellie Babes – salivated at first glance at the pic!!
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PS devouring Maritan Confidential, Saturn Girl posts, advice from kind peeps here etc & thinking Saturn Confidential is the missing link……….
GO RLP! how satisfying fixing yr own stuff…and WHITE GOODS to boot.
xox
saturn confidential is cool. check it out
“even dog ducked in case she be next for wash, polish, pimp, scrub.”
lol Rock a billy….
Wow ! Impressive confidence ! Is it partly due to the Walnut Essence quaffing ?
Am totally going with the dark moon… Have been working out to the maxxx all week & planning my rest day tomorrow to do all the cleansing/smudging etc! All this work has been carefully balanced out with a loads of carbs & sugars…..for energy of course!
oooh, those jelly babies look delectable! Dark moon dark moon, Cancerian Annie, I totally hear you!
“even dog ducked in case she be next for wash, polish, pimp, scrub.”
lol Rock a billy
2nd post as site connection went ape shit…